THE POSSIBILITIES PART IV

My thoughts and ideas of the possibilities of your outcome of being a person of adoption are equal or similar to my own in relationship to my various situations that I had or have come to find answers to during my OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCES!
They are related to our SACRED CONTRACTS.  The plans we made before coming to this dimension.
My close and beloved friend and confidant during many of my OBES (Gerard, I referred to him in past blogs) once told me about an experience he had during an OBE while we were comparing notes.
During his travels into an astral plane, he found himself in the presence of what he could only refer to as "students" entering and leaving a "school".  They carried what appeared to be "folders containing various papers" and books.  He said, they seemed to find him somewhat strange since he was asking so many questions about things that seemed "natural" to them.....
During our discussion we both concluded that he had entered a different plane of existence that was somewhat different from earth as we know it.  "They were learning something quite different from reading and writing and math"  On observation, he also got the impression that they were "making various plans".
Keeping this in mind and my various other blogs, I would like to ask you to THINK ABOUT THE POSSIBILITIES I WILL PRESENT TO YOU NOW:
Is it possible that you might have made somewhat of a prepared contract about what you might do while visiting this earth plane depicting the various situations you and others would create in order to evolve spiritually?
We usually make our plans/contracts with other spirits that have traveled with us for eons of time.  Spirits that we have loved us dearly and we have loved them also the same.  (We have decided to help each other on our various journeys through time and space).
Is it possible that our roles were REVERSED in previous visits here or to similar planes such as Earth?  Is it possible that you put your child up for adoption in a previous lifetime and you felt confused or concerned in some way about this and decided with that same entity on the spiritual plane to return and experience and understand all of the both physical and emotional aspects of that existence?
Did you feel that by arranging this contract with another that the two of you would evolve tremendously by exchanging roles and coming to "know" how or what your soul would "feel" during this time?
What better way to know and feel than to be in "opposite bodies?"  Also, remember this, when we are acting with our true selves, we are not acting with physical or human feelings.  We are acting with our HIGHER SELF.  Therefore, unless we are really aware that our actions performed with our LOWER SELVES is completely different from those of our HIGHER SELVES.  On a higher plane of existence, we will make decisions that are much more advanced than those we make here when arriving with what one might call, A VEIL OF FORGETFULNESS?
I once again would highly recommend that all reading this blog, attempt to get a copy of the CD by DR. CAROLINE MYSS entitled, SACRED CONTRACTS.  Since discovering the words of Dr. Myss and having the abilities to travel about on the astral planes of existence, that I am blessed to be able to capture the understandings of the "whys" of my physical existence on the earth plane.
I found myself NOT giving in to RESISTANCE.  Not relying totally on the thoughts of others, BUT, going WITHIN, and finding out what MY spirit was whispering to ME......and only to ME at those moments.  I found that by not giving into not only the FEARS of my own self, but the FEARS of those around me who seemed to attempt to have me think or feel as they felt about human life!  
I firmly believe that we must ALL search and hope to find the answers to so many of the mysterious situations we have been subjected to on this planet that will definitely help us to evolve into much more powerful spirits, rather than continuing to sit around or run around, accusing other souls/people of any or all situations that we find ourselves enduring here that we have decided without "clarifications" to cause us to act as such pathetic VICTIMS!  We are not VICTIMS, we are entities choosing to learn!  The harder the lessons we take on and overcome, the higher we evolve!
Yes, it is very easy to say, but much harder to do!  When I sometimes view the world from my eyes, I realize how difficult it might be for us HUMANS to LOVE ONE ANOTHER than it is to fill ourselves with hatred and create weapons of destruction.  To lash out at one another with hurtful words by some control freak out of hell, Aahahahhaha!.....and by the way, you do know that "hateful and hurtful words are the same as destructive weapons!  And those words have a "ripple effect" that fly across the universe like rockets and affect other human souls.  In my eyes there is not much difference in LOWLY EVOLVED souls randomly setting off bombs hoping to destroy innocent bystanders, due to the fact that you or me have "different" belief systems unlike theirs.  Their is no LIGHT coming from this entity. Only DARKNESS.  Why should you or I be the "same?"  Every individual created is a form of ART.  Created by an Artist beyond any of our comprehension on this level.   Even when it breaks my heart to know these things, I always hear the words in my head, the big question asked by an Entity that is higher evolved than any and all of us can imagine, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME?  Will this lowly evolved creature be able to really stand up tall and reply, WELL, I DESTROYED QUITE A FEW OF THE PIECES OF ART "YOU" CREATED.....INCLUDING MYSELF!
Approaching us all now are very special holidays, and I will feel blessed when I am able to send a special gift out, by looking up into the skies above me and saying to that magnificent star studded space, I LOVE YOU!
More later..........

LOVE AND LIGHT!
Marshall

PART III THE DISCOVERY OF BEING ADOPTED!

WOW!  You have discovered that you were ADOPTED, primarily by beautiful and loving souls who wanted to take care of you and help to heal you and give you something we all feel comfortable with, PARENTS!  (Or maybe even just ONE PARENT).
Now, together, let us take into consideration the following points.
(Write them down on paper and memorize them for future references).
YOU WERE NOT ABANDONED AND LEFT ON THE STREET.
YOU WERE NOT GIVEN AWAY TO JUST ANY STRANGER BY CHANCE.
YOU WERE NOT PUT IN A PLASTIC BAG AND PLACED IN THE NEAREST DUMPSTER.
YOU WERE NOT LEFT ON THE CHURCH STEPS.
YOU WERE NOT PUT INTO A BAG AND THROWN INTO A RIVER.
YOU WERE NOT ABORTED.
YOU WERE NOT KEPT BY YOUR BIOLOGICAL PARENT WHO WAS CONFUSED AND FULL OF EMOTIONAL PAIN.
YOU WERE NOT THROWN OFF OF THE NEAREST BRIDGE IN THE HOPES YOU WOULD NOT BE DISCOVERED.
YOU WERE NOT THROWN OUT OF A MOVING CAR ONTO SOME UNKNOWN HIGHWAY.
YOU DID NOT BECOME HATED BY YOUR BIOLOGICAL PARENT WHO FELT YOU WERE TERRIBLY UNWANTED.
You think, meditate, go within and you will find many other things to add to this list.  Where did I get these points that I have listed?
From physical reality!  Magazines, Newspapers, Television, Word of Mouth, Friends I know that were without biological parents, etc.
As time passes, many individuals decide to take an interesting journey.  They are pleased and happy with their adopted parent or parents, BUT, have a very deep rooted and sincere desire to "find out who their biological" parent or parents are???
On this quest, one must take much into consideration.  Unfortunately, many of those wishing to take this journey are not prepared for what they may find in doing so.  Why?  Because before this journey is pursued one must not see themselves as VICTIMS!  And most of all, the person must not be SELFISH!
Do not have preconceived ideas about WHY YOU WERE GIVEN FOR ADOPTION.  One must go on this journey with an OPEN MIND and you must be in close contact with YOUR SPIRITUAL/HIGHER SELF.
As I have repeatedly mentioned, during the OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE, there have been answers given to me that were "surprising" to say the least.  I had not thought of so many things presented or shown to me during my projections and visions.
So many will be given the opportunity to do so and approach their biological parent/parents with ALL THE WRONG REASONS AND QUESTIONS.  Usually negative ones.  And after a period of time, you will "ACT OUT" WHAT YOU FEEL WAS DONE TO YOU.  YOU WILL ABANDON YOUR BIOLOGICAL PARENT/PARENTS.  This can be due to various reasons.  (Some will be "equal" to the reasons for your biological parent/parents having given you up for adoption).  ANGER, FEAR, CONFUSION, NEGATIVE PRESSURES FROM YOUR ADOPTIVE PARENT/PARENTS, AND OR SPOUSES, ADOPTED RELATIVES, ETC.  Add your own to this list now.  Think of the reasons and please try to remember this:
THE FIRST THOUGHTS THAT COME FROM YOUR INTUITION, YOUR "GUT" FEELINGS WILL IN ALL PROBABILITY, BE YOUR "TRUTHFUL ANSWERS!"
Meditate! Open wide your higher self.  Be objective.  Be fair.  And most of all, DO THIS WITH LOVE IN YOUR SOUL.  You will be displaying your true self.  THIS WILL BE YOU ACTING OUT AND BEING A PART OF THE UNIVERSAL MIND!
I will stop here for now.  In my next and final blog on this subject, I will present to you, THE POSSIBILITIES!
More later........

Love and Light!
Marshall

OBES WILL HELP US CLARIFY OUR JOURNEYS ON THIS PLANET PART II

I would suggest an example or chart should be made to start our questions asked during our OBES about this particular subject.
On a sheet of paper on the LEFT  SIDE there will be these questions or statements written:  (They should be memorized or implanted in our minds in preparation for the times OBES occur)
LEFT SIDE:  (REASONS FOR HAVING MY CHILD ADOPTED)
DID I GIVE UP OR ABANDON MY BIRTH CHILD FOR SELFISH REASONS?
DID I GIVE UP OR ABANDON MY BIRTH CHILD BECAUSE IN MY HEART I WAS SURE I WOULD NOT BE A RESPONSIBLE PROVIDER FOR MY BIRTHED CHILD?
DID I DO SO BECAUSE I WANTED THE CHILD TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE THAN I WOULD BE ABLE TO PROVIDE?
DID I DO SO BECAUSE OF THE EMOTIONAL PAIN AND AGONY BEING THROWN UPON ME BY OTHERS? (SUCH AS FAMILY MEMBERS, FRIENDS, SOCIETY, ETC.?)
DID I HATE CHILDREN?
WAS I OVER TAKEN BY FEAR AND GUILT?
WAS I YOUNG AND FOOLISH?
WAS I TREMENDOUSLY CONFUSED BY THIS EVENT?
WHY DID I NOT JUST HAVE AN ABORTION AND PRETEND IT WOULD JUST GO AWAY?
WAS I SUFFERING TREMENDOUSLY AND DID NOT WANT THIS CHILD TO COME INTO THE WORLD AND SUFFER ALSO?
WAS THE ADVICE GIVEN TO ME BY OTHERS RESPECTED BY ME?  (OR DID I JUST WANT TO "PLEASE OTHERS WISHES OR DEMANDS?")
WOULD A CHILD INTERFERE WITH MY CAREER?
WAS I JUST AN EVIL/BAD PERSON?
Continue to make as many "questions/statements" similar to these and list them on paper.
The next step I would suggest, would be to go and sit in front of a mirror and gaze into it very carefully and slowly at yourself!  This will be a form of MEDITATION and MIRROR GAZING.  These will be some of the thoughts to "look for" when observing both our physical bodies and our spiritual auras:
DO I LIKE THE WAY I LOOK PHYSICALLY?  DID I ALWAYS LOOK LIKE THIS PHYSICALLY DURING MY LIFE UP UNTIL NOW?  HAVE I BECOME TOO FAT? TOO THIN? TOO SICKLY LOOKING? TOO SAD LOOKING? IS MY LIFE SAD? IS MY LIFE HAPPY? DO I HAVE SEVERAL OR MANY MEDICAL CONDITIONS THAT LIMIT MY LIFE NOW? DO I SUFFER FROM VARIOUS PAINFUL CONDITIONS SUCH AS MIGRAINE HEADACHES, BACKACHES, BLURRED VISION, NERVOUSNESS, STOMACH PROBLEMS, SEVERE HYPERTENSION, VARIOUS CANCERS, ETC.?
DO I HATE MYSELF? DO I LOVE MYSELF? WHAT HAVE I PERSONALLY DONE TO MAKE MY LIFE MORE RESTRICTED?  IS MY LIFE TRULY THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE OR DO I REGRET WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN WITH MY LIFE?  HAVE I OR AM I PUNISHING MYSELF UP UNTIL THIS TIME FOR HAVING GIVEN UP MY BABY???  WILL I GO TO HELL FOR MY PAST? WILL THE CHILD THAT I GAVE UP HATE ME FOREVER FOR MY ACTIONS IN RELATIONSHIP TO THEM?  WHY DO I FEEL SO TRAPPED SOMETIMES?  WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH "FEAR" WITHIN ME?  WHY AM I SUCH A CONTROL FREAK? WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH ANIMOSITY TOWARDS OTHERS IN MY PRESENCE, SUCH AS MY HOME-LIFE OR MY JOB, ETC.?  WHY AM I SO ANGRY ALL THE TIME?  WHY AM I SO WEAK AND FRAGILE IN THE PRESENCE OF OTHERS?  WHY DO I FEEL LIKE MOST OF MY LIFE I AM LOOSING CONTROL?  WHY DO I CONSTANTLY BELIEVE THAT OLD STORY, "I WISH SOMEONE WOULD COME INTO MY LIFE AND RESCUE ME FROM THIS DISASTER?"  IS THAT POSSIBLE? WILL IT HAPPEN FOR ME?  WHY DO I SO MANY TIMES HAVE FEELINGS OF LONELINESS AND ABANDONMENT?  WHERE AM I GOING AND WHAT WILL I FIND IN THE END?
IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO TO "CHANGE MY LIFE TO BE MORE SATISFYING?"  WHO OR WHAT CAUSED THIS ALL TO HAPPEN TO ME??? 
In addition to all of these questions, there can be additional questions and thoughts presented that come into one's mind in relationship to this situation.
I am convinced by my own experiences, that any and all questions asked during the OBES will not only be answered, BUT, "SHOWN TO US!"  We will find ourselves right there in the middle of the entire situation with the answers to all of our questions being displayed as if we were both watching and participating in a movie!  You will be in shock to find out that life is not exactly like you had always believed it to be......That it does not always unfold the way so many of our parents, relatives, friends, religious beliefs, etc. have "instilled" in our minds.  You will be devastated to find out that the so called "rules" set up for humans, by other humans, and tremendously flawed!  You will find out that it is never to late to "change" our belief systems.  I am sure that at this point, there are those that have been following my blogs that are definitely having  this thought run through their minds:  DOES A PERSON SUCH AS THIS FEEL "VICTIMIZED???"   
We will all, eventually find out, that the only thing that ever mattered in this entire Universe is, LOVE!
Check it out.  Go.  Definitely go for it!  As the old saying goes, DON'T KNOCK IT UNTIL YOU TRY IT FOR YOURSELF!
This blog is for the person/soul/spirit that gave up the child.  Part III will be the ideas and thoughts of the ONE GIVEN UP.
More later........

Love and Light!
Marshall

OBES WILL HELP US CLARIFY OUR JOURNEYS ON THIS PLANET

Several days ago, I had the pleasure of meeting one of the most beautiful people I have ever met!  A long-time friend invited me to have dinner at her cousins' house.  Not only was it a delightful evening, but also a rather shocking one in relationship to what unfolded during both the evening and the conversations with my friend leading up to the event.
At this time I will attempt to present to you some of my thoughts and ideas about THOSE WHO CAME TO THIS EARTH, WERE BORN AND THEN ABANDONED AND OR ADOPTED AND DID NOT HAVE THE EXPERIENCE OF SHARING MOST OF THEIR LIVES WITH THEIR BIOLOGICAL PARENTS.
The Mother who gives up her beloved child primarily seems to experience a very "uncomfortable" life as does the child given up seems to begin to experience when it is revealed that the parents he or she has come to know are NOT their biological parents.
These devastating and painful experiences are due primarily to both parties not truly "going within" to investigate the possibilities of "Why?" their journeys are destined to unfold in this manner.
Before I proceed with this subject, I would like to tell you about an experience I had as a young boy. 
While watching a variety show on television one night, the host introduced a very interesting performer.  She was very small in statue and her face displayed a history of disasters!  BUT, she began to sing and I was entranced and shocked!  She sang in French and I understood nothing of the lyrics.  But, I felt sooooo sad.  I became breathless listening to her magnificent voice.  Eventually I learned a great deal about this woman and the translations into English of many of the lyrics of the songs she sang.
I learned that EDITH PIAF was considered the greatest and most honored singer to come out of France!
Please share some insights into the life of this extraordinary woman by visiting the various websites found on the Internet, in partnership with reading my blogs on the subject of which I am about to write.  
There are many such as she on this magnificent planet and their journey has been and continues to be awesome!  
Please keep in mind as you read the following blogs that I will relate to this subject that EDITH PIAF is one of many examples of our SACRED CONTRACTS and our attempts to ADVANCE OUR SOULS/SPIRITS while visiting the Earth Plane.
And please do not forget, OPEN UP!  OPEN YOUR SPIRITUAL EYES AND TRY TO SEE THE POSSIBILITIES THAT WE MIGHT BE OVER-LOOKING WHILE LIVING IN THIS PHYSICAL REALITY!  
Why do I say this?  Because I have and continue to travel outside of my physical body and "see" and have "seen" incredible answers to so much of the pain and suffering I have been able to resolve and avoid by:  THE OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE!
More later............

Love and Light!
Marshall   

ALICE HERZ-SOMMER, A SURVIVOR!

I would like to take this opportunity to recommend an article presently on the Internet about a woman named, ALICE HERZ-SOMMER.
Title of news article, FOR HOLOCUST SURVIVOR, LIFE IS STILL BEAUTIFUL.  She is a former concert pianist, who celebrates her 107th birthday today!
For most of my life, every time I came in contact with the word, HOLOCUST (The one involving the Jewish People in the world).  It seemed to always take me at least five minutes to pull myself together from having "very sad and dark feelings" in my heart.  I just really found it so difficult to imagine "one human being" creating this kind of pain to so many other living innocent souls on this planet??? (The name of the man who planned these painful and hateful acts was the first to come to mind, when I first discovered the term, ANTI-CHRIST). 
Here is a beautiful soul who will bring a "Light" to any of those who choose to read about her journey during this horrible time of our civilization.

Love and Light!
Marshall

MARIPOSA THE PREMIER BUTTERFLY GALLERY

SINCE THE HOLIDAYS ARE ONCE AGAIN APPROACHING US ALL, AND UNFORTUNATELY, THE STATE OF OUR COUNTRY'S ECONOMY DOES NOT APPEAR AS STRONG AS IN PAST TIMES, PURCHASING GIFTS MIGHT BE DONE VERY "CAREFULLY?"
I WOULD LIKE TO INVITE YOU TO VISIT MY SITE WHEN CONSIDERING GIFTS FOR THE HOLIDAYS, SINCE THERE ARE FEATURED QUITE A LOT OF REASONABLE GIFT ITEMS FOR YOUR CONSIDERATION. (http://www.mariposagallery.net/)
THERE ARE MANY RELIGIONS WHICH CONSIDER THE "BUTTERFLY" A SYMBOL OF "A NEW BEGINNING".  I STILL REMEMBER YEARS AGO WHILE VISITING THE DESERT IN CALIFORNIA FOR EASTER AND ATTENDING CHURCH ON EASTER SUNDAY.  A LARGE BUTTERFLY WAS THE PICTURE ON THE PROGRAM FOR THE SERVICES THAT MORNING.  I FOUND THAT INTERESTING.  WHAT A SURPRISE WHEN I PRESENTED THE QUESTION TO SOMEONE IN THE CONGREGATION, "WHY WAS A BUTTERFLY CHOSEN FOR THE COVER OF THE PROGRAM?"  I WAS SURPRISED WHEN TOLD, "OH, YOU DID NOT KNOW? THE BUTTERFLY REPRESENTS THE RESURRECTION!"
WITH TIME I DISCOVERED THIS WAS COMMON IN MANY RELIGIONS.  BUT AFTER GIVING THE SUBJECT MUCH THOUGHT, I FOUND SOMETHING VERY INTERESTING ABOUT THIS CONCEPT.  THE TWO BUTTERFLIES THAT ARE DISPLAYED ABOVE DIED "MORE THAN 25 YEARS AGO!"  AS YOU CAN SEE, THEY REMAIN BEAUTIFUL AND INTACT.  THESE PARTICULAR BUTTERFLIES ARE CALLED, "MORPHO MENELAUS" AND THE LIFESPAN IS "24 HOURS".  IN AREAS OF BRASIL WHERE THEY ORIGINATE, WHEN WALKING IN VARIOUS COUNTRYSIDES, YOU WOULD VIEW HUNDREDS, EVEN THOUSANDS, WHICH HAVE EXPIRED AND FALLEN TO THE GROUND.  (AFTER MATING AND LAYING THEIR EGGS, THEY USUALLY DIE).  THEY DO NOT DISINTEGRATE IN ANY WAY.  THEY REMAIN AT YOU SEE THEM IN THE PICTURE ABOVE.....INTACT AND BEAUTIFUL......FOREVER!                                                               I  REMEMBER READING THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LITTLE STORY ONE DAY ABOUT TWO CATERPILLARS.  THEIR NAMES WERE, JOHN AND HENRY.  THEY WERE VERY, VERY CLOSE FRIENDS.  ONE DAY JOHN LOOKED FOR HIS FRIEND HENRY AND FOUND HIS EMPTY COCOON EMPTY AND CRUSHED.  HE WAS DEVASTATED.  HE BEGAN TO CRY UNCONTROLLABLY, " OOOOH, MY FRIEND IS DEAD!  I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS HAS HAPPENED.... I FEEL SO SAD AND ALONE NOW".  SUDDENLY WITHOUT NOTICE, THE MOST MAGNIFICENTLY BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY FLEW OVER JOHN'S HEAD AND LAUGHED OUT LOUD AND CALLED TO JOHN, "JOHN! JOHN! WHY ARE YOU CRYING? WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU?"  JOHN REPLIES WITH TEARS RUNNING DOWN HIS FACE, "LEAVE ME ALONE.  MY FRIEND HAS DIED!"  HENRY YELLED BACK, "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT JOHN??? IT'S ME, HENRY!!!"  JOHN SAID, "GO AWAY YOU CRUEL THING, HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT TO ME? MY FRIEND JOHN IS DEAD AND GONE!"  HENRY CONTINUED TO LAUGH AND FLAP HIS MAGNIFICENT WINGS AND REPLIED, "OH JOHN, SOON YOU WILL UNDERSTAND.  I AM FINE!"

Love and Light!
Marshall
  

RECENT BOOKS COMPLETED AND RECCOMENDED!

I have completed reading several books recently that I would like to suggest.
I would highly recommend RAYMOND MOODY, MD's latest release, GLIMPSES OF ETERNITY (SHARING A LOVED ONE'S PASSAGE FROM THIS LIFE TO THE NEXT) 
Also, EVIDENCE of the AFTERLIFE by JEFFREY LONG, MD with PAUL PERRY.  (THE LARGEST NDE STUDY EVER CONDUCTED REVEALS PROOF OF LIFE AFTER DEATH)  The Science Of Near-Death Experiences.
I wish to also inform you of another book that is not exactly new, but new to me on EDGAR CAYCE.  MANY MANSIONS, THE EDGAR CAYCE STORY ON REINCARNATION.  Written by, GINA CERMINARA.  It contains an introduction by one of Edgar Cayce's sons, HUGH LYNN CAYCE .
EDGAR CAYCE, was considered one of the most remarkable Healers and Psychics who ever lived. 
He was so shocked by his first vision of a "previous" life that he rejected its significance.  But repeatedly, during his "readings" of subjects he uncovered many past lives.  These lives would explain the subjects' present dilemmas and conflicts.  The evidence in Cayce's files shows why he himself finally accepted the concept of reincarnation.
In closing for now, I would also like to suggest a recent CD by KELLY HOWELL that I am using religiously, and find it really rewarding in my development, PRAYER. 
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall

SUGGESTED RECENT TELEVISION SHOW ON "VICTIMS"

FYI I thought I would inform those that might be interested, the recent television show that will be in two parts, presented by OPRAH WINFREY in association with TYLER PERRY.
I caught it by some, "Divine intervention" since I am not really an regular television buff.  The shows are specials featuring a couple hundred adult men reminiscing about being molested during their childhood.  (There was also a featured a "non-stop smiling"  Psychiatrist who specialized in supposedly helping abused men deal with the sad feelings or carrying their memories of abuse in their present lives.)
You might wish to look this up on your local guides for show times. 
Unfortunately, I was unable to sit through most of the show since I found it difficult watching and listening to Oprah Winfrey repeatedly refer to those that had been the molesters as "less than human" and seemingly no one wished to even consider the possibilities of what the "true character, soul or spirit" of the misguided and dark entities, whom had performed these acts on young children in their families. 
Below is a photo of " ME", age 6.  Continuing on with my "unrealized" journey, in spite of the fact that I had been in turmoil of having been both sexually and emotionally abused.  Not being aware of the fact at the time, that I was continuing on my journey attempting to primarily, living in somewhat of a fantasy world created by in all probability, my own thoughts and not falling into that devastating trap of becoming a VISIBLY SAD AND MARKED SO CALLED, "VICTIM!"

Once again I say, due to my present and past thoughts about what this particular subject focused on, having been a molested child myself, I was tremendously frustrated by the "doom and gloom" of both Ms. Winfrey and Mr. Tyler which added to an atmosphere of great darkness upon the men in attendance.
I did not get the impression that this audience was being enlightened or being given a wrap around air of LIGHT!  Instead, I felt once again, celebrities, producers and the media, glow in the misfortunes and drama of their fellow Brothers and Sisters!  For those in the viewing audience who love lots of tears, and emotional drama, this is a "hit" presentation.   It presents itself with the usual desire for financial gain and popularity.
Love and Light!

Marshall

OPEN YOUR MIND..... WIDER!!!

The things we will discover by doing so, will sometimes be amazing!=)
Our spiritual awareness rises far above narrow physical perceptions and we begin to "see" there is so much more going on in our worlds of existence.
I told you that as a small boy I had been molested both sexually and mentally by a relative.  But as a little boy I had been able to push it deep into the back of my mind.  Not remembering which male member it was for so long in my life.
With time as I have mentioned in my previous blog, I am not really sure as to the absolute results if those events. My gifts of metaphysical abilities were heightened due to trauma or inherited from Mother?  In any case, as I said, I was put into a hospital for observation and treatment for an "unknown nervous" condition which I seemed to develop.
My parents were enabled to put me in one of the finest hospitals in New York City, due to the generosity of a great and wonderful family, whom both my Mother and Father were working for many years.  They loved my parents and my family very much and always especially loved, Mother!
During my stay in the hospital for several months of tests and observations, etc.  There was one physician who visited me just about every day.  And every day he would sexually molest me.  It was a very, very uncomfortable experience because I blamed myself for his actions. (I was a child suspecting these examinations that he would perform were strange and wrong?)  In my mind, I was under the impression, that somehow, someway, he "knew" that I had been abused and this was his opportunity to do likewise.
He would always ask me the same question:  WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THIS?  HOW DOES IT FEEL?  I was horrified to answer. I would think to myself, WHAT DO I SAY?  IF I SAY I DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU ARE DOING, HE MIGHT SAY I AM LYING.  I DON'T WANT HIM TO CALL ME A LIAR.  IF I SAY I LIKE IT, I WILL BE A AWFUL LITTLE BOY.  So, I always answered the same:  NOTHING I GUESS?  IT'S ALRIGHT I GUESS?  (I was so afraid of him....I did not hate him, I just was always praying he would leave as soon as possible!)
I always dreaded his arrivals and became very nervous and timid when he would enter the room and close the curtains.  Did it change my sexual development in any way?  NO......it made me sad and ask the question to myself for many years, DID I DESERVE THIS TREATMENT?  WAS I ASKING FOR THESE UGLY ACTS UPON MY PHYSICAL BODY?  I had been admitted into a place for treatment and it seemed uncanny that I was once again being further injured by the same actions?
I remember once, my Mother and Father came to visit me and he had just entered my room within minutes before their arrival.  I saw them outside of the glass windows and was happy.  The doctor immediately told them that they would have to wait a few minutes because he had to do something.
He closed the curtains so that they could view nothing and he performed as usual his abusive sexual act upon a young boy.  ME.  
Afterwards, he opened the curtains and greeted my parents and invited them into my room and departed.
The first question out of Mother's mouth to me was, WHAT DID HE DO TO YOU?  (My Father seemed oblivious)  But, Mother was a woman and a loving mother.  I knew she loved me very much and she cared so much about my welfare.  I quickly said, OH, HE EXAMINED ME.  The subject was dropped.
Did I become the VICTIM and carry these secrets inside of me and blame my parents for their neglect or inappropriate rearing of their child?  Nope.
Here once again I ask the question to be considered:  WAS THIS PHYSICIAN INVOLVED IN A CONTRACT TO PERFORM A DISTURBING ACT UPON ME AS A YOUNG CHILD, DUE TO THE PLAN WE HAD MADE BEFORE COMING HERE, BECAUSE MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, I WAS GOING TO BE PORTRAYING THE OTHER CHARACTER THAT I MIGHT HAVE ABUSED IN ANOTHER LIFETIME?  Was I to experience the feelings of sadness and despair of a small child that I "might" have abused in another lifetime?  In order to grow spiritually.  To advance my soul.
I ask this question to be considered because so many have become VICTIMS and ruined their journey when moving forward by becoming "stuck" with this situation?
Even though I did not like it or felt sad and helpless...I MOVED ON!  I survived and continued to move on forward to find new adventures in my life on this planet, without permitting myself to become a VICTIM!
In closing, WAS THIS PHYSICIAN/SPIRIT PERFORMING AN ACT THAT HAD "ONCE BEEN DONE TO HIM? 
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall
  

THE DOWNSIDE TO GROWING UP WITH SPECIAL ABILITIES TO "SEE"

Recently, I reflected back to the days of growing up and how the "unexplained" physical events were a part of my life.  During my thoughts of the past, I suddenly realized how similar most of those that I had come in contact with had the same physical attacks!
The amazingly painful and sudden attacks of outrageous headaches. (No these were not migraines).  My time spent in the hospital for weeks under observation by various Specialists to evaluate, to no success, the violent and uncontrolled attacks of nervousness.  Of course in order for the physicians to justify their work, they would label my case with some medical term, which later after much research I would find out that this was totally untrue.
The sudden fevers that would rise to heights of my being rushed into a bathtub containing water and ice cubes.  But in conclusion, no label for its cause?  No matter how many tests.  Sometimes I thought these doctors and lab technicians would draw so much blood from my body that I would have no more left to survive, ahahahhahahahhahahahha!
I have met others similar to myself, and the answers after comparing notes were always the same, THEY NEVER KNEW WHY? But we were all very similar in our paranormal experiences!
Oh by the way, there were various Psychiatrists that had much to say to me during sessions, but I suppose even those situations were "gifts" due to the fact that none of them would be able to conclude that I was traumatized or abused in any way?  They would all say, he is just a nervous child, he will be fine with time.  And once again, I repeat to all of those so called, VICTIMS out there... and even if I had unwillingly chose to suppress these horrible events, I was not a depressed or sad child.  I suppose it was my gift to manifest an adventurous and fantasy world of glee for myself!  It all must have come so natural.  It all must have been a part of a plan in order for me to survive and continue and with time ....... "everything has its' season, everything has its' time......." (Stephen Schwartz) CORNER OF THE SKY.  Ooooh, I sang that song so many times as an adult.  Wow, those lyrics were certainly telling me something important!  At the correct time of my life.  I suppose it was a part of the plan?

More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall

VICTIMS PART 2

I never really knew why, but we all called my grandmother ( Mother's Mother) BIG MAMA?  As I said previously, Mother was born when Big Mama was 16 and besides being a young woman she was also very attractive and had excellent taste in clothes.
I always remember Big Mama (maybe it was a Southern thing?) beautifully dressed and holding a cigarette and a cocktail when relaxing.  I was always trying to cater to her because, I always knew I was "second" to my brother and wanted her to pay equal attention and show me favors also.  BUT, it did not really happen and besides, I never became or saw myself as a VICTIM due to this situation.
As I said earlier, I created my own special world.  And this is why I probably did not realize at the time, but Big Mama was giving me a great gift in my life!
There was a big tornado in our town once and Big Mama was shopping a great distance from home.  My brother and I were alone.  Big Mama called on the phone from a department store to ask what was happening at home?  Where was my brother?  I simply and calmly said, ALL IS WELL HERE.  HE IS HIDING UNDER THE YOUR BED, HE IS TERRIFIED!  She told us to stay inside and be calm until she got home.  I said goodbye and ran outside into the street singing and laughing happily.  The streets were empty except for huge winds blowing through the area.  I could literally see the huge cone shaped tornado in the distance and it made me even more excited and happy.  I jumped up and down and danced and sang and soon ran back into the house to tease my brother.  I peeped under the bed and yelled, IT'S COMING FOR YOU NOW!  He was crying and very scared.  I said, OH, BE BRAVE, COME OUT OF THERE, THIS IS ALL SO EXCITING!!!  (He remained until Big Mama arrived home sometime later when it was over and had died down).
Big Mama asked me what I had been doing?  I told her and she laughed and said, OH LORD HAVE MERCY!   And then she laughed.
I remember when I was told to be "in charge" of things when she would go to her special night card playing events at her girlfriends houses.  She also would tell me to go to the big market downtown with my wagon and my dog to shop for various things with a list she would give me.  I was always the one to be told to make the long trip. (Thinking back, it was exciting.  All the way there and back, going through different neighborhoods, I would pretend each one was a different "foreign" country.)  When she became ill for a period of time.  She was in bed for quite some time and her bedroom opened into the kitchen.  She would from her bed instruct me how to prepare meals.  (SHE WAS ONE OF THE GREATEST COOKS I HAVE EVER KNOWN!)  She would point and tell me how to do all sorts of cooking, because she had always made sure that we all had very elaborate and full meals and desserts.  I always ran behind her when she went to get the eggs the chickens had laid to bring inside.  I stood close, next to her when she would kill a chicken to use for meals sometimes.  It was both scary and exciting to see how it was done. 
I remember when her boyfriend, who was a Trucker, came with his son, who went to the same school as my brother and I, to take us on an exciting ride in the big truck.  BUT, I quickly discovered that I was not going to be able to go, because there was no room for me.  Only the 3 or them could go for the ride.  I was told to stay behind.  I was broken hearted. (Again, my brother was "favored" by them also).  I walked slowly up to the front porch where Big Mama was standing watching.  Tears were beginning to swell up in my eyes.  I heard my Grandmother say very quickly to me, DO NOT CRY.  BE BRAVE.  BE INDEPENDENT.  BE STRONG, DON'T CRY!  (My tears stopped quickly).  I ran inside the house and pulled out my Comic Books and began to read them all.  I never thought about it again.
I remember very well the huge, deserted horse
 stable next to where we lived.  It was made of hundreds of bricks.  It was about 4 stories high.  It was old and decrepit and falling apart somewhat.  For fun, we kids would play inside of it and sometimes throw bricks at the walls and make holes.  It was fun! 
Big Mama had often warned us about playing Cowboy and Indians in the stable.  She repeatedly told us that it was dangerous.  But, just like children we would sneak in there and play all the time.
One afternoon, coming home from school, the stable had disappeared?  It was gone???  Soon, I discovered, the entire stable collapsed, hundreds of bricks, to the ground while we were at school.
When I questioned Big Mama, she said, I WARNED YOU.  I HOPE THIS IS A LESSON FOR YOU.
I always loved to sit on the porch with Steve, the guy that lived next door to us with his Father.   Most of the kids would not play much with him...but me, I loved joking and talking to him for hours. Soon his Father would tell him he had to come inside.  I was always disappointed when he left.  Shortly, I would hear the music being played on the violin by his Father drifting outside the window.  Steve was the "biggest boy" in the world to me.  Sometimes he looked like a man?  But he definitely sounded like a boy.  I remember asking Big Mama the question, why did Steve have to go inside so early all the time.  She would say, BECAUSE HE HAS TO SPEND TIME WITH HIS FATHER NOW.
Many, many years later as an adult I once mentioned Steve to my brother.  I said to my brother, I REMEMBER STEVE ALWAYS HAD TO STAY ON THE PORCH AND NEVER PLAYED WITH ANY OF US?  My brother looked at me with surprise and said,  STEVE WAS RETARDED.  DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT???  (Nope, I never really realized....and for the first time in all my life, it all made sense, after all of those years gone by!)
During this time as a small boy, I experienced numerous OBES and I was terrified.  I became a very nervous child.  Even more so than I had already been deep inside.  When I told my brother I was scared of the horrible nightmares, he would laugh and tell me I was a Sissy.  When I told Big Mama, she told me to be BRAVE.  Be good and be strong, nothing will get you.
I never mentioned them to anyone after she told me that..... I kept them all to myself.  My secret.  I did not understand any of them at that time.  I did know one thing.  THESE WERE UNLIKE ANY DREAMS I HAD EVER HAD AND THEY WERE RECURRING!
I remember every Spring I would become excited about planting the hundreds of seeds I got through the mail, in order to create a garden.  It was just so amazing planting seeds and throughout the Summer various vegetables could be gathered by Big Mama to prepare our meals.  The variety of flowers I planted were also quite extraordinary!  I remember her saying to me, YOU CANNOT EXPECT YOUR GARDEN TO GROW WITH ONLY THAT SOIL.  I was confused?  I told her that they would grow no matter what kind of soil was in the earth.  She did not contest me.  I simply came home from school one day and a huge truck was pulling away from the yard after having dumped a tremendous amount of the richest and blackest soil I had ever seen!  Big Mama opened the screen door and yelled, YOU CAN START PLANTING NOW!  
She of course was right.  The vegetables and flowers were amazing always.  My brother had a terrible temper.  Whenever he and I got into an argument, he would immediately run to my garden and stomp down all of the seedlings and break my heart.
BUT, for some reason they all seemed to survive and yield beautiful plants.  I knew Big Mama was watching his hateful ways at a distance from inside the house and she was quiet.  Now I know why she was quiet and watching without interference.  She silently watched as I would "bravely" go through all of the garden and caress and gently speak and attempt to nourish my garden"s  wounds created by my brother.  (She was watching me become strong as a survivor rather than a VICTIM.
One morning by surprise, I saw an incredible sight hidden in my garden.  A Watermelon!!! Wow!  This was amazing.  I had not planted a Watermelon, but due to the amounts that were eaten, probably some seeds accidentally got thrown there one day.  It was almost the size of a basketball and I was excited.  My Grandmother came walking over to me and said, WE WILL HAVE TO REMOVE THAT.  WE MUST CUT THAT WATERMELON OUT OF THE GARDEN IMMEDIATELY.  I yelled loud and clear, NO!  She repeated herself to me and then looked me in the eye and said, IF YOU DO NOT TAKE THAT WATERMELON OUT OF YOUR GARDEN, ITS' VINES AND ROOTS WILL DESTROY EVERYTHING IN YOUR GARDEN.  I continued to protest.  NO, IT'S TOO BEAUTIFUL.  She silently walked away.
The next day when I came home from school the watermelon was gone?  I ran to Big Mama and yelled, my watermelon is gone?  What happened to it???  She kept a straight face and softly said, I DON'T KNOW?  MAYBE SOMEONE STOLE IT?  I released the thought from my mind and ran outside to take care of my garden.
Today, I know very well she had it removed, because, SHE LOVED ME.
Big Mama continued to treat my brother like a Prince throughout her life on this earth.  I remained "second".  BUT.....instead of becoming a VICTIM, I continued on with my journey and I never had any ill feelings towards my Grandmother.  I do know that I could have come to hate her because I felt always left out or "second" in her eyes.  But, there was for some reason, nothing that made me feel this way towards her at the time.  But, I always wondered why she treated me this way?  Until I "opened my higher awareness" during my adult life.  Now I "see" what lessons we learn in ways we have no idea are happening to us.  Good lessons!  So many of us become VICTIMS whenever we feel that someone is not "the way we want them to be or expect them to be" and we might not realize that it is not an advantageous method of thinking.  In order to find out the good part of everything that happens to us during our journey here, we must always, STOP....LOOK....AND LISTEN! 
Big Mama was NEVER a VICTIM!  She was a strong and independent woman even until the day she crossed-over.  At first I did not realize how much I was being taught.
I see people around me now, all the time, whining and crying over being abused by those around them.....when in reality, the one that is abusing them the most is, THEMSELVES!  So many permit their entire lives to fall apart due to them putting the blame on others.  The drama and devastation of broken relationships and marriages being the end of some one's life is absurd.  Saying we cannot live without another human being is sad.  We did not come here to live our journeys based on the permissions of others around us.  We all have missions.  We are very powerful entities.  It seems that anything positive can be done as a team, when desired.  BUT, we cannot bring ourselves to believe that we cannot move forward without the "dependency" of another being.  We are all individual spirits with individual goals.  Believing that another is necessary for the advancement of our souls becomes a foolish illusion. 
This is also a part of "loving ourselves".  Look around you and you will see, if you quiet your mind and be still, how miserable others are that have so much self-hatred and dependency on others.  Some believe that they cannot survive without the other?
This is false thinking on the part of the weaker person.  They do not love themselves and with this comes "hate, anger, and jealousy!"  It is not healthy and clear thinking on the part of the weakling.  He or She will destroy not only themselves, but possibly the journey of the other person involved.
It is NOT selfish thinking to believe that MYSELF comes first, my journey is first priority.  Everything else in one's life is secondary.  We are here to learn as much as possible in the short time given us.  We should not really waste time making "pit -stops" to deal with another soul's journey while we are moving forward.  This will definitely hold us back from rapid advancement.  So many divorces and broken relationships are due to conflicts of interest!  I believe that it is possible to maintain a partnership, BUT, neither of the individuals should be in conflict with the other's path of travel.
Our lessons and journeys are definitely not the same.  Sometimes similar, but never the same.  Sometimes we never find out how detrimental conflicts of interests can hold us back until it's too late.  Stop and Go Traffic is never good on a car.  In addition to causing wear and tear on the car, you usually never get to your destination on time.
In the end, so many of us consider ourselves the VICTIMS due to the fact that we refuse to release these things in our life.  We blame it all on the other soul.  We say its their fault for "causing" my downfall.  We cry and crawl around and repeatedly say, THEY did this to me!  I AM A VICTIM!  We are not, get over it!  I guess some of us should have come to the realization by now, LIFE IS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE EASY........... IF YOU INSIST ON MAKING IT DIFFICULT!  AHAHAahahahahah!

More later......
Love and Light!
Marshall

THE VICTIMS!

One of the best lessons I have learned thus far during this incredible journey is, DO NOT SEE YOURSELF AS A "VICTIM"  no matter what happens!
Why?  Because just about everything in our life is suppose to be the way it is when and if it happens to us, good or not so good.
Recently, one of the illusions that happened to me in physical reality as a child slowly started to make sense to me.  As a small boy I was always, as I have mentioned previously, living somewhat in a total fantasy world.  This was in all probability one of the reasons I was able to go forward with my life after having had such devastating events happen to me without falling apart and permitting them to hold me back from going forward.  (The sadness inside my spirit was put on "hold")
Being somewhat small for my age always as a kid, it was assumed by others that I was "weak", "fragile".  Nope, not me.  Maybe I over compensated for my size by being a really "bad little boy!" Aahahahhahah!  I was totally NOT a "Macho Boy".  BUT, my brother was always the macho one and put great efforts into being one.  I was considered totally "crazy" by some, because all noticed that Little Marshall was never afraid of anybody or anything!  (Maybe somewhat shy, but never afraid).  I was only one year older than my brother, yet he considered me his OLDER BROTHER when he got into trouble with the guys.  Like most kids, telling those that messed with you that  you were going to go get your older brother was a scary thing.  The funny thing about me was that I was not known for my intimidating appearance, but for BEING TOTALLY CRAZY when it came to fighting!  I would fight anybody.  I was what you called, A DIRTY FIGHTER!  I had no problem using my fists, my nails, my feet, baseball bats, stones, etc.  To me a fight was an event of surviving.  There were no rules!  I laugh to myself sometimes when I remember those times in our life.  My brother was also to timid he had difficulty even speaking up for himself to intimidate the other guys with words!  He would get me to speak to them..... (I was great with words, also the "biggest actor and liar" in the world!)  The other boys would try to scare me by questioning as to why my brother did not speak for himself???  My favorite comeback was always, HE DOES NOT SPEAK ENGLISH!  (AAAhahahahah, we both spoke, ONLY ENGLISH!) 
But, I always felt "alone", in my own little world.  My brother and I lived primarily most of the times with my Grandmother.  (My Mother's Mother)  My Grandmother was a very young Grandmother, she was barely 16 when my Mother was born.  Most assumed, including myself, that my brother was her "favorite".  All my life I considered myself, "second" in her life in comparison to my brother.  Yet, I never played the VICTIM.  It always seemed natural for me to just accept it and keep moving forward.  Moving on and not letting things get in my way that might hold me back from achieving anything that I wanted in life. 
My brother seemed to be handed the good things "first" by her, and given special treatment by her and I seemed to be always "second".  Yes, being a little boy and watching these things happen to me could have made me sulk and always be sad and not move on.  BUT, looking back, I never did..... I always found things that would compensate for those times that made me happy.  Some were just imaginary thoughts.
I felt very much alone many times, but it seemed that I just stepped forward and found distractions to make me feel happy and joyous in spite of these incidents. 
For some reasons during those times, I still loved my Grandmother and cherished the times we had together, yet I never at the time stopped to think "why?".  I seemed to grow up just accepting the fact that I would always be "second" in my Grandmother's eyes.  I never really realized what an amazing thing was happening to my development as a person during all of those years while spending time with my Grandmother on this earth.  I only in my later adult years, after she had "crossed-over" found out what absolutely amazing things were being instilled in my life by her for all of those years of believing I was "second" in her eyes!  I later discovered the most incredible lessons that I was being taught during my time with her, that giving my soul powerful and enormous LIGHT to make my journey a strong one on this planet called Earth! 
I would like to share my thoughts with all in the hopes that by sharing that I have come to be awaken to about these situations that many might consider cruel and hurtful.  You might want to go deep within your soul and meditate and find the similarities of these special events in my life as a growing spirit with my Grandmother.  Maybe, just maybe, you too will stop and say to yourself, WOW.....I MUST STOP BEING A VICTIM!  You too might consider the idea that you too have learned or can learn by "seeing" the things that happened to you as magnificent lessons, rather than hurtful moments.  And you too will grow tremendously during your journey.

More later.......
Love and Light!

Marshall 

WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME?

People ask me all the time, due to my psychical abilities and Out of Body Experiences, DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD?  My answer has been and always will be, YES!  I would also like to pass on to all those wishing to share these blogs, that one of the reasons that I believe there is a much higher entity than any we can imagine, due to my research on OBES and Near Death Experiences.  Remember I told you that so many have been asked during these awesome experiences the question, by a very incredible and extroidinary
Being of Light, the question, WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME?
We all have a part of us that is above our physical views of thinking or understanding, that know very well what the true contents of this question signifies.  Remember the old saying, YOU CAN RUN, BUT YOU CANNOT HIDE?  Well, we know very well that when this question is asked of us, it will be asking us to show to a Creator, who gave us the freedom to visit this planet/school what we have done to accomplish something very important.  Something we always knew deep inside our souls.  What we have done to "give" and "promote" more LIGHT AND LOVE to this amazing Universe!  To our fellow Brothers and Sisters.
I would like to share with you my feelings lately about how I intuit the answers some will have to present, if they are giving honest answers.
I WENT TO SO MANY PARTIES......WOW! IT WAS FABULOUS!  I BOMBED AND KILLED HUNDREDS OF INNOCENT MEN,WOMEN AND CHILDREN,  I GAVE BIRTH TO SO  MANY BABIES IN SPITE OF THE FACT THAT I KNEW I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO CARE FOR THEM, (By the way, it is not that difficult to have a baby.  And when it arrives it will have an agenda that most have no idea of.... We do not OWN our children, we simple provide a source of entry.  They "choose" us, we do not choose them and so many of us continue to view our babies as a "reflection" of ourselves, when they turn out good of course!)  The sadess thing I have been witnessing recently, are what I would consider "children" walking around with babies all for the "wrong" reasons.  I LOVED HAVING SEX 24/7 IT WAS AMAZING!  I WENT TO WAR TO KILL SO MANY, I DESTROYED SO MANY DREAMS PEOPLE HAD OF A BEAUTIFUL LIFE, I DESTROYED HOSPITALS, SCHOOLS, IT WAS SO COOL.  I BEAT AND MURDERED HUMANS THAT DID NOT BELIEVE WHAT I BELIEVED, I MURDERED AND TORTURED THOSE THAT HAD DIFFERENT SEXUAL PREFERENCES THAN MYSELF AND MY FAMILY.  I DID NOT ATTEMPT ANY CAREER GOALS, too boring, I was too busy just singing, dancing and partying and having fun and attempting to find the perfect girlfriend or boyfriend.  My biggest thrill was to walk around the streets or school and show off my new girlfriend.  I could go on and on and on!  BUT, how about this:
I SMILED AT THIS POOR OLD LADY WHO LOOKED SAD.
I PAINTED PICTURES AND USED BEAUTIFUL COLORS HOPING PEOPLE WOULD BE HAPPY.
PEOPLE SAID, I WAS A WONDERFUL SINGER, SO I SANG FOR THE WORLD.
I BECAME A TEACHER AND TAUGHT TO HELP OTHERS LEARN.
I STUDIED VERY HARD TO LEARN TO DANCE AND ACT, IN ORDER TO PERFORM AND MAKE THE WORLD HAPPY.
I LEARNED ALL ABOUT SEWING AND DESIGN TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY TO WEAR BEAUTIFUL CLOTHES
I WROTE BOOKS.
I HELPED COOK FOR PEOPLE WHO COULD NOT AFFORD FOOD.
I STUDIED TO BECOME A DOCTOR TO TRY AND MAKE SICK PEOPLE WELL AND HAPPY.
SOME OF MY TIME WAS SPENT TRYING TO MAKE SICK CHILDREN HAPPY.
I TRIED TO CREATE THINGS THAT GAVE HOPE AND PEACE TO DEPRESSED INDIVIDUALS WHO NEEDED TO FIND THEIR WAY.
I COLLECTED GARBAGE DAILY TO HELP THE CITY BE CLEAN.
I SCRUBBED FLOORS FOR BUILDINGS.
I CLEANED OTHER PEOPLES HOUSES TO MAKE A LIVING, AND THEY WERE HAPPY.
I GAVE BLOOD.
I BECAME A POLICE OFFICER TO HELP PROTECT INNOCENT SOULS.
I BECAME A FIREMAN AND ATTEMPTED TO SAVE HUMAN BEINGS FROM PERISHING DURING 9/11.
I TRIED TO SAY THINGS FULL OF "LIGHT" TO PEOPLE DURING TROUBLED TIMES.
I TRIED TO LOVE "EVERYBODY" EVEN WHEN I DID NOT UNDERSTAND THEM.
I TRIED TO LEAVE SOMETHING "GOOD" TO BE REMEMBERED BY ON THE PLANET, EVEN IT WAS ONLY REMEMBERED BY ONE OR TWO HUMAN SOULS.
I DONATED MY EYES TO THOSE WHO NEEDED THEM ON MY DEPARTURE.
I GAVE MY HEART WHEN I DEPARTED FROM THE EARTH.
I TRIED TO GIVE "HOPE" TO THOSE I CAME IN CONTACT WITH THAT HAD NONE.
Of course I could go on and on.  But what I am trying to share is that we need to be prepared to answer that question.  WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME?  Nope, this entity will not judge you or me.  Our eyes and spirits will open wide and we will judge ourselves!  Why do I say this?  Because during the Out of Body Experiences, I have "seen" how our real/true self, higher self, views our existence.  During this time, we view ourselves much differently, if we have not already developed these abilities while in the physical day to day routines.
As I have presented previously, there is so much more to us than we can imagine while wearing a veil or walking around this planet wearing blinders.  I believe that this will happen when we realize that those words, LOVE ONE ANOTHER were more important than imaginable.  We all must share our Light with all those around us and we must help each other to reach our destinations with much clarity of why we all came here in the first place. 
When we really start to dissect our daily life, we must realize that all of the new advancements we have made technologically were not always for making it easier for us to Text Message each other with who has a new girlfriend or boyfriend.  Or who had another child to join us now on this most disturbing planet.  Or who is giving the next party or who is more fantastic than the other, when in reality, at this time are only "showing" how they are able to use their fingers to send messages about how shallow their life really is contributing absolutely nothing of worth to mankind. 
Someone said this morning on the radio, THESE ARE GREAT INVENTIONS, BUT THEY SEEM TO BE MISUSED BY SO MANY!  We must remember, the person who created these items, made a tremendous contribution to us all.  But the excessive misuse of them does more harm than good.  Giving so much time to playing these games and sending so many mundane messages, have caused many to be involved in senseless accidents and destroying the lives of beautiful souls.  So many of us are not accomplishing much of anything during our journeys here, due to the fact that we are neglecting attempting to produce or make use of our talents.  It is true that some come here and know very well (they "feel" it, they "know" it) and then there are those who come here and must "find" their gifts they brought with them on the trip.  OR, is it possible that so many of us got "side-tracked???"  Becoming self-serving individuals who only focus on vapid goals, such as becoming jealous and evil when one permits ones self to feel inferior due to actions of one's own self of believing that it should be "easy" to attract lots of attention by physical and materialistic actions of living with the belief that we become superior to our friends and associates by emulating false impressions of talent, such as those of entertainment artists or focusing in on unjustified beliefs that physical features are superior to those of what is inside a person's soul/spirit. 
The downside to the advancement in technologies is that it has enabled so many, especially our youth to become caught up in sending out hundreds of photos of themselves to display to the world how "physically good looking and fantastic they are physically and about how many superfluous situations they have participated in", without one mention of WHAT I TRIED TO DO TO MAKE MY JOURNEY ON THIS PLANET A FULFILLING AND HUMANITARIAN ONE!
I do know one thing and that is this"  When each and every one of us has to go forward and answer the question I speak of..... We will have to answer it ALONE.  We will not have those that we grouped ourselves with at this time.  We will stand naked at the start of a new beginning and be asked that most awesome question.
Some say, and I believe this would be comforting, that there might be "another entity" standing at our sides during this most difficult time.  An entity that once said, I DIED FOR YOU ONCE LONG AGO.  I AM HERE.  I LOVE YOU.  I am a "Dreamer" in my heart and I would just like to also close this blog with a thought I have:  I would like to believe when this question is asked of TYLER CLEMENTI, his reply will contains some of these thoughts:  " I WAS NOT A SUPER STAR OR CELEBRITY.  I WAS A HUMAN YOU CREATED AND GAVE THE BEAUTIFUL "GIFT" OF LIFE!  THE PAIN AND SUFFERING SOMEONE HAD DECIDED TO PUT UPON MY SPIRIT WAS SO DEVASTATING AND I FELT COMPELLED TO, IN MY HUMAN THINKING, TO DEMONSTRATE AN ACT SO HORRIBLE THAT HAS AND COULD HAPPEN TO OTHER HUMAN SOULS, TO SHOW THE WORLD MY EXPRESSION OF LOVE TOWARD MANKIND?"
This is just a thought or a dream, but maybe when making up so many special occasions to party, we could take time and create a day called, GIVE TO THE WORLD DAY! or something similar.........Because we need to be prepared for that question:
WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW ME?

More later........
Love and Light!
Marshall

THE BOY WHO JUMPED FROM THE GEORGE WASHINGTON BRIDGE

Today with a very heavy heart I am going to write about an 18 year old student from Rutgers' University that took his young gift of life! I woke up this morning and the radio was announcing his demise.  He lived so near to me in New Jersey and even though I did not know him personally, his smiling photo on the Internet this morning reached out to me with such "beautiful and smiling eyes of kindness and love" that I felt almost as if he was speaking to me?
TYLER CLEMENTI WAS A HERO!  He came to this dimension to perform a task just as we all have come here to do.  He was a very, very powerful and brave spirit.  He came to show us all something very important about LOVING ONE ANOTHER.  In the book that I have mentioned various times in my blog, THE HOLY BIBLE, The Christ said, LOVE ONE ANOTHER.
How many times have you or I or those you might know contemplated SUICIDE?  Too many of us to mention.  Why?  Because we felt so much pain and grief that it seemed useless to go on with out assignments, that we chose, before coming here, to complete.  Why did so many of us stop at the last minute, both out of fear and a deep feeling inside our souls that told us, NOPE, YOU CANNOT DO THAT.  IF YOU DO THAT YOU WILL NOT HAVE COMPLETED THE CONTRIBUTION YOU CAME HERE TO THIS EARTH TO FULFILL.  And.....we in spite of our pain, we continued our journey!
As  Angie Fennimore reveals in her book, BEYOND THE DARKNESS describing her attempted suicide and how she survived it, after having been clinically dead for a short amount of time, the other (young people) she encountered (teenagers), the incredible and overwhelming appearance of a LIVING LIGHT that appeared to her with tremendous anger said to her, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE???  IF YOU THINK YOUR LIFE WAS BAD, NOW THIS WILL BE WORST!!!  This entity was furious.  (Next to her, she saw other teenagers that were very angry and she felt they did not care about their fate).
Please permit me to present to you another point of view of what might be those that have committed this act of terminating their life being that of not such a terrible act.
Using my psychical abilities when either "seeing" a person's face (eyes) either in person or in a photograph, I believe I have been able to read what message or inner thoughts this person is presenting from "within".
If we come to this earth to complete tasks during our journeys, we seem to exit and go back to a higher place when the time is correct. 
Is it possible for you to go deep within your soul and find the true answers to why this young boy performed this sad act and departed from this world as we know it?  Was his work completed at this point?  Is it really necessary to be a Movie Star or a big recording artist or a President of a country or a financially wealthy individual and give out monetary gifts to the poor, etc.  in order to be considered a HERO???
OR.......is it possible to be a young, talented, young 18 year old boy who chooses to arrived and show humanity how we have to learn to love one another?  TYLER CLEMENTI  showed us all, that something does not work here on this planet that will show love and peace of mind to all.  DO NOT continue to believe that just because when we are young children, that we do not know what is GOOD and what is BAD/WRONG!  Yes, those of us who are lowly evolved cannot understand.  OR they cannot FEEL what most human beings can feel in their hearts and soul.  These excuses about misguided youth, etc. to me is total garbage thinking!  We ALL know when we do something what the ultimate outcome will be.  We know in our soul what will hurt and what will feel good to the other human soul we are sending out these thoughts or acts towards.  We also know when we are being JUDGEMENTAL!  Dharum Ravi and Molly Wei knew without a doubt that they were out to hurt, harm, destroy, etc. another human soul.  They invaded this person's privacy and wanted to "out" him and humiliate him to the world.  THEY BOTH KNEW VERY WELL THAT WHAT THEY WERE DOING WAS WRONG!  This is a part of our SPIRIT.  It is inside of the physical vehicle of travel and age, race or religion should have NOTHING TO DO WITH IT!
My question for us to contemplate is this:  DID TYLER CLEMENTI COME TO THIS EARTH TO PERFORM A "SACRED CONTRACT?"  A PLAN THAT WAS AGREED TO BY HE AND OTHER SPIRITS BEFORE CHOOSING TO ARRIVE HERE?
Was the plan to demonstrated to lowly evolved beings how harmful they could be to their fellow Brothers and Sisters?  Has he shown us his amazing highly evolved power by demonstrating to all of us how heartbreaking it can be to invade on another person's journey on this earth that is "different" than yours?  Would you or I be brave enough to drive to The George Washington Bridge, park our car and walk to a rail and text a message, I AM JUMPING OFF THE GEORGE WASHINGTON BRIDGE.  SORRY.
He was not drugged out or high.  He perform very specific acts and left us a message.
To me this is very similar to a Fire Fighter or a Police Officer or a Soldier, etc.  These human beings have chosen to demonstrate to all of us a very important lesson.  One that many of us cannot comprehend totally.  BUT.....we do "feel" in our hearts and souls that these were CHOICES!  These entities are remembered and honored because they knew very well before them arrived here, that they were going to perform amazing acts or bravery. 
I am speaking now of only one of those HEROS.  TYLER CLEMENTI.  Please keep in mind.....this was a person that was not on drugs, not mentally unbalanced, etc.  BUT, showed us what the consequences could be of two human beings performing an act of humiliation against another fellow human being that was cruel and despicable.        
In closing, whether or not these two people are prosecuted heavily or not by society.  They will have a tremendous penalty to pay.  Due to their sexual discrimination, they will live for the rest of their life on this planet, knowing, that they inflicted pain and sorrow not only upon TYLER CLEMENTI, but upon his parents, his family, friends and ALL OF US!  Was TYLER CLEMENTI A "VICTIM" OR A "HERO?"
More later.......
****DISCLAIMER:  I PERSONALLY WOULD NEVER PROMOTE OR ADVISE THE ACT OF SUICIDE.  THE ABOVE ARE MY THOUGHTS AND SEARCH FOR ANSWERS FROM THE UNIVERSE DURING MY MEDITATIONS AND PRAYERS IN RELATIONSHIP TO FINDING OUT ABOUT THIS BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING WHO CHOSE TO CROSS OVER SO SOON IN HIS SHORT LIFE ON THIS PLANET. 

Love and Light!
Marshall

THE POSSIBILITIES DECERNED DURING MY OBES

The information given to me during some of my OBES seemed to confirm many of the words discovered in The Bible, sending the words  and thoughts of God.  Such as, MY WAYS ARE NOT YOUR WAYS, MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS!  These words become clearer in meaning when we discover our true nature/spirit/soul.
The clarity of my coming here to this Earth/School to learn and advance spiritually begins to make sense.  What did I come here to "learn?"  What did I come here to "correct" or to truly understand in a clear and precise way?
Being a victim is a major mistake.  We cannot move forward and continue to make very good use of our journey here to this planet.  We need to get answers or correct mistakes we have made in a very unusual way.  "Unusual?"  Yes.  We cannot remember our motivations for experiencing this particular incarnation.  Were we the "perpetrators" of foolish and harmful acts during our last visit?  Did we "choose" to return and get a true feeling of what it felt like to be on the opposite end of the act???  I have come to the conclusion about this possibility.  Did I harm or injure another in another life?  Did I agree to return in order to learn and develop my soul in association with unacceptable acts performed during my last journey?  OR........was it correct for me to come here to experience the performance of "actually portraying" those acts and being subjected to that particular experience?
When I began to "see" the acts that I considered inappropriate by the other persons from a different point of view, I began to "open my eyes wider!"  Rather than be the "forever victim", I chose to truly want to know WHY this person performed these acts.  I was already experiencing what it was like to be the victim of these acts, but what was this person "thinking?"  Why were they compelled to commit these things?
Living an entire lifetime only thinking that I was a victim would go nowhere in the end.  There was a reason for both myself and the person I considered at fault.  This is what we need to think about when we decide to play the victim and only waddle in self-pity and the sympathy given by those around us.
ARE THESE HUMANS VICTIMS ALSO?  Is this all a part of the thoughts or ways of God when He said:  MY WAYS ARE NOT YOUR WAYS, MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS?  We definitely know how we feel inside mentally.  BUT....why?  why me?
During my research on the Near Death Experiencers, I noticed a situation that was very consistent and common amongst them all.  When questioned about viewing Wars, Catastrophic events, babies dying of diseases and various other things.  Poverty, and so much what we call, SUFFERING, their responses were rather consistence.....I SAW IT ALL AND IT ALL MADE VERY GOOD SENSE.  IT WAS NO BIG THING.  IT WAS ALL VERY, VERY SIMPLE!  I FELT DIFFERENT SEEING AND SENSING THE ANSWERS, I DID NOT FEEL DEVASTATED AT ALL?  IT WAS ALL VERY, VERY SIMPLE AND IT SEEMED AS IF I HAD JUST REGAINED SOME LOST MEMORY ABOUT ALL OF THESE THINGS.   When asked to explain and give the answers to what they had found out about these situations that made them feel this way, all responses were equal:  I CANNOT REMEMBER NOW?
I always suggest to people who discuss these things with me to really try hard to get a different perspective on things.  I say this because I really do feel we are primarily wearing some kind of "blinders" such as horses wear when pulling carriages in city traffic.  They are deprived of observing any activities going on around them on the streets.  In order for we humans to witness that which is going on not only around us, but within us, we must remove our veils and blinders.  We will need to use "other eyes".  Our Spiritual Eyes, our Astral Eyes!  These are the eyes that see EVERYTHING!
I have learned and am still learning, that by closing our eyes or viewing ONLY that which we choose to "see", causes us to miss out on so much more that is going on within our world of existence.  This dreamlike state that we live in from day to day prevents so many magnificent adventures! 
This also brings up the subject of "judging".  Being judgemental about people and things.  If only I could take away the times I have been both JUDGE AND JURY.  I do feel as I have developed that it can also be one of the cruelest acts we perform.  In spite of these things, I have ALWAYS been against the act of Capital Punishment.  No matter how horrible the crime the punishment of execution has always made my heart break into a million parts.  Besides my emotions, I have always questioned, HOW CAN YOU DESTROY THE MOST MAGNIFICENT ENTITY ON THE PLANET AND CONTINUE TO LIVE WITH THE FACT THAT "YOU" DID NOT CREATE IT??? I have always had the feeling that this act of execution was destroying the property of an entity that was far superior to anything or anybody as we know of....... and yet, taking this momentous act of revenge is unspeakable.  I have often wondered to myself, what would be the response to the question when asked by the creator of the property, WHY DID YOU TAKE IT UPON YOURSELF TO DESTROY MY PROPERTY?  Especially since one might find ones' self at a lost for an explanation knowing that our way of thinking is not the same as the one that created us!  
Most of us have decided that truly believe that what we cannot SEE, TOUCH of FEEL does not exist.  It become a choice.  And we have the free will to choose.  Many of us have been trained during most of our lifetime, both by teachers, parents, relatives, etc. to only believe and "see" that which they have decided is traditional and acceptable.  And these thoughts have become cycles!  The Ripple Effect of generations of physical beings.  So many do not have any concept that we travel in human vehicle's.  So many do not stop to realize that our physical vehicles of travel are not the "real us!"
This fact gave me a better understanding of my OBES.  Having the abilities to travel outside of my physical vehicle has given me the factual information, that WE ARE MUCH MORE THAN WE THINK WE ARE IN THIS UNIVERSE!
More later.......

Love and Light!
Marshall 

MY OBE SHOWED A PAINFUL EXPERIENCE IN MY LIFE AS A BOY

ME AT 7 YEARS OLD=)

Some will not appreciate my "viewpoint" on a childs' being sexually and emotionally abused.  (Then you should not read this! Aahhahahah!)  A little humor to give you some peace and relaxation of mind.
Anyway, on The Internet, on the radio, on the television, etc.  presently there is so much about a person, a Minister, who is being accused of sexually abusing young boys in his congregation.  Every time information such as this comes out to the public, it seems to me, lots of public figures come out and reveal that they too were abused.  (Is this for publicity to further their careers, or what???)
Here is my take on this subject as related to the OBES I have encountered.  Like most I have read or heard about, we reveal this information as adults or only to the most intimate friends as a young person. 
Earlier in my writings, I believe I mentioned that after many, many years, as a full grown adult, I once "asked" during an OBE to reveal to me, the "why" I had always carried this "sadness" deep inside my soul and could not really put my finger on or was pretending that other things were causing these feelings.
I was both sexually and mentally abused by male members of my immediate family as a very young boy......around 6 or 7 years old.  Unfortunately, I was so traumatized by the events that I suppressed deep in my soul those horrible feelings.  As I developed into adulthood, I carried very sad and melancholy feelings.  Most of the times I chose to live in a fantasy world that made me very happy and not really realizing that I was continuing to suppress these horrible feelings.
During my OBES I was always caught up with the Adventures of Astral Travels without really thinking about anything that troubled my soul in my past.  By the way, I have also discovered as an adult when revealing my experiences with abuse recently, there are many others around me who have presented me with their "secrets" that were similar.  It's was a little surprising to hear my dear friend say to me the other day during the onset of the conversation on the subject when she blurted out to me, very sarcastically,  WHO HASN'T BEEN ABUSED AS A SMALL CHILD???
Having gathered so much information on this subject now and having given so much thought, prayer and  meditations to it.  I believe I have recieved "messages" about the situations that have happened both to myself and others and my intuition or psychical thoughts have brought  me some clarity.  Contemplating these messages have made me come to realize some surprising if not disturbing news!  But... as always, I know it is just another part of understanding the reasons for these "lessons" during this course we are experiencing on this particular dimension, EARTH.
Next......I will be presenting to you the information I have recieved.  There will be those who will suddenly "wake up" just as I did, to the facts that everything in our lifes have a "season" and a "reason" .  Of course there will be those of you that will be furious by the information I will reveal to you!  Why?  Because we have been asleep and living in a dreamlike state that gave different "rules" and "regulations" that were only misguided.  But...as I have presented to you in all of the things that I tell you...... These are "answers" that have been given to me and I am only wanting to "share" them with those of you who are interested in viewing them with a very, very open mind.  If only for a few moments while reading these revalations that I wish to share with you, you will put aside all other thoughts and beliefs and open your mind/spirit wide and view them without any prejudices, you will at lease have some, FOOD FOR THOUGHT!  Sometimes, all might be more simple than we have made things out to be.....As in the song Peggy Lee wrote years ago,  ".....is that all there is?  is that all there is?  If that's all there is, then let's keep dancing!"
More later......

Love and Light!
Marshall

TODAY I WAS GIVEN A MESSAGE!

I woke up in my bed and it was not yet daybreak.  I suddenly felt myself rest my head on my pillow and as I did so, I very quickly could feel my entire astral body rise up out of my physical body and  glide smoothly over to my bedroom windows.  I simply floated outside the window and down to the the front of the brownstone I lived in with ease.
I found myself standing in front of the house and looking at the flowers that were in front of me in the small area at my feet.  They seemed like giants in appearance!  I could see every petal, every single part of them, as I had never seen before.
Suddenly, without even knowing why...... I looked upwards and yelled out to the dark sky, WHY AM I LIKE THIS?  WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE THIS SAD FEELING INSIDE ME SO DEEP???
Within seconds, I seemed to be airborne in the sky and moving very rapidly across the area towards the south....... I could "sense" but not "see" that there was someone behind me guiding or assisting my body to a very specific destination?
Quickly, I saw the buildings and parks and The Brooklyn Bridge below as I seemed to be flown smoothly!
Within what seemed like seconds, I could see myself approaching a house..... I could see two windows in front of me.  One was "open" and one was "closed".  (I knew sometime later after this experience, that I was being given a choice, go through the open window or "know that you can also go through the closed one!"  YES, I played it safe and chose the "opened window" ahahhhahahahh:)
I found myself inside the house.  I knew this place looked both familiar and unfamiliar at the same time?  I also could see that the decor was from the past, not from the present date?
I immediately saw a small boy reclining on a sofa ...... his head, his face was looking away from my direction.  I moved very slowly towards him....... he turned his head and looked directly at me..... He was crying.  He was crying a lot and he seemed to have only his underwear on...... I was confused and nervous.  Who was this kid???  He stared at me as he cried. 
Suddenly, I looked up past him and saw a room with glass doors behind him and there were several people inside that room at a table.  An adult male walked out and looked as if to check out what was happening in the room the boy was in and then he turned and closed the glass door and went away back into the room.
At this point, the small boy jumped and sat up and yelled at me, HELP ME!  He was hysterical and frightened.  I stepped back away from him....... who was this kid???  Just as the thought went through my mind....... A very small white light seemed to focus directly on his forehead...... I saw a small bump on his head..... THE SAME BUMP THAT I HAD IN THE SAME PLACE TO THIS DAY, FROM FALLING OUT OF AN APPLE TREE.  I jumped back away from him as he jump onto me with his arms and hand clutching my body and screaming to me, HELP ME! GET ME OUT OF HERE! PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE! PLEASE!!!  There was saliva foaming at his mouth due to hysteria........ I seemed to yell back at him, GET AWAY FROM ME!  LET GO OF ME! GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!! 
Within less than a second it seemed, I was sitting up in my bed in my own bedroom in sheer horror and shock!  I could hear myself say out loud and clear........OH DEAR GOD!  THAT WAS "ME"  THAT BOY WAS "ME!"
I knew very well at that moment that I had been "taken" and "shown" exactly the answer to my question asked..... "Why do I feel this way now...... This sadness?  Why?"  I had been taken back to when I was a boy in Virginia in the house I lived in and shown that which had happened to me.
That day, I recorded on a recorder my entire experience and I went to The Metropolitan Museum of Art and sat around viewing paintings and listening to the playback of my recorded information about the experience...... I was calm.  I was peaceful.  I was feeling that I had been privileged to "see" deeper into this life I was living more than I had ever imagined possible.  This to me had been one of the most profound experiences of THE PROJECTION OF THE ASTRAL BODY!                                                          More later...........

Love and Light!
Marshall

THE TRIP/PART 3/COMING DOWN

Back at my apartment, I was "coming down" quickly.  The results of having taken the LSD were wearing off after approximately 24 hours.
There is not much to tell you at this point, that would be of tremendous interest.  BUT, it was horrible.  I still remember the feelings of slowly and gently returning to a world of grey matter and morbid thoughts.  Physical reality was heavy and totally different than the one I had experienced during my trip.  I was calmly being guided into this reality by Karl.  He told me that the things I was experiencing now were that of "the world that I had always known it to be".  Primarily, HEAVY AND GREY.
He said that I would soon have to go to sleep for many hours in order to adjust to my return.  He asked me questions about how I felt about things.  My reply was negative.
I did not like accepting the fact that the world was so different when I returned.  I wondered how other people would feel about experiencing the trip I had just had while experimenting with LSD.
He looked into my eyes and I saw the sadness.  He said, MARSHALL, HOW DO YOU THINK WORLD LEADERS WOULD FEEL HAVING EXPERIENCING WHAT YOU JUST ...... Before he could complete his sentence, I blurted out loud and clear, THEY WOULD NEVER, EVER CONSIDER A WAR!  THEY WOULD DEFINITELY STEP DOWN FROM OFFICE.  Karl immediately agreed with me.  We both agreed that it would be a very dangerous thing for these people to have ingested this drug. (We also had a long discussion about the possibilities of "why?" this drug was considered highly illegal.  Was it due to the fact that is "opened ones' mind" this way?  Or the definite possibilities of fatal outcomes with various individuals???) 
When I look back at this experience in my life, I can very easily compare it to all of my OBES!  Without drugs I have been able to experience THE TRIP many times and without any ill or depressing side affects.  (This is probably why I personally, will not in any way experiment with hallucinagenic drugs to this day.)  ALL of my OBES have been without any kinds of drugs.  
My feelings about my OBES when it comes to the use of drugs is as follows:  I believe and know very well, that any drugs associated with my OBES would cause distortion in my journeys.  This I believe is because I still remember the "lack of control" I had with the usage of LSD.  Of course it was a very good idea to have Karl with me during this trip.  There seems to be no real control of your journey during the trip.  It controls YOU.  During my OBES, my thoughts are always clear and sometimes seem even more precise and well organized than in physical reality.  I feel safe and I believe that astral traveling is best done "alone from the physical into the astral world" at which time you will be able to control any known or unknowned encounters.
I do believe in the saying, TO EACH HIS OWN!  We can decide whatever we wish to do when it comes to experimenting, without judgement by others.  But, it is only my opinion and my past observations during my many years of OBES, etc.  Whenever I encounter personal information about those who take drugs, the report has been "bad".  I feel blessed in that I was able to survive this most interesting trip.  BUT, I do not consider experimenting with various drugs to induce trips.  (I would only say here to all those that would consider such a thing, to be sure to THINK about it with all of your heart and soul before attempting doing so).
Why this occurred in my life?  I DO NOT KNOW?  I would only be guessing if I tried to explain it.
In closing, in spite of it all, I did want to share with you another unusual incident in my life.
More later,

Love and Light!
Marshall