I would suggest an example or chart should be made to start our questions asked during our OBES about this particular subject.
On a sheet of paper on the LEFT SIDE there will be these questions or statements written: (They should be memorized or implanted in our minds in preparation for the times OBES occur)
LEFT SIDE: (REASONS FOR HAVING MY CHILD ADOPTED)
DID I GIVE UP OR ABANDON MY BIRTH CHILD FOR SELFISH REASONS?
DID I GIVE UP OR ABANDON MY BIRTH CHILD BECAUSE IN MY HEART I WAS SURE I WOULD NOT BE A RESPONSIBLE PROVIDER FOR MY BIRTHED CHILD?
DID I DO SO BECAUSE I WANTED THE CHILD TO HAVE A BETTER LIFE THAN I WOULD BE ABLE TO PROVIDE?
DID I DO SO BECAUSE OF THE EMOTIONAL PAIN AND AGONY BEING THROWN UPON ME BY OTHERS? (SUCH AS FAMILY MEMBERS, FRIENDS, SOCIETY, ETC.?)
DID I HATE CHILDREN?
WAS I OVER TAKEN BY FEAR AND GUILT?
WAS I YOUNG AND FOOLISH?
WAS I TREMENDOUSLY CONFUSED BY THIS EVENT?
WHY DID I NOT JUST HAVE AN ABORTION AND PRETEND IT WOULD JUST GO AWAY?
WAS I SUFFERING TREMENDOUSLY AND DID NOT WANT THIS CHILD TO COME INTO THE WORLD AND SUFFER ALSO?
WAS THE ADVICE GIVEN TO ME BY OTHERS RESPECTED BY ME? (OR DID I JUST WANT TO "PLEASE OTHERS WISHES OR DEMANDS?")
WOULD A CHILD INTERFERE WITH MY CAREER?
WAS I JUST AN EVIL/BAD PERSON?
Continue to make as many "questions/statements" similar to these and list them on paper.
The next step I would suggest, would be to go and sit in front of a mirror and gaze into it very carefully and slowly at yourself! This will be a form of MEDITATION and MIRROR GAZING. These will be some of the thoughts to "look for" when observing both our physical bodies and our spiritual auras:
DO I LIKE THE WAY I LOOK PHYSICALLY? DID I ALWAYS LOOK LIKE THIS PHYSICALLY DURING MY LIFE UP UNTIL NOW? HAVE I BECOME TOO FAT? TOO THIN? TOO SICKLY LOOKING? TOO SAD LOOKING? IS MY LIFE SAD? IS MY LIFE HAPPY? DO I HAVE SEVERAL OR MANY MEDICAL CONDITIONS THAT LIMIT MY LIFE NOW? DO I SUFFER FROM VARIOUS PAINFUL CONDITIONS SUCH AS MIGRAINE HEADACHES, BACKACHES, BLURRED VISION, NERVOUSNESS, STOMACH PROBLEMS, SEVERE HYPERTENSION, VARIOUS CANCERS, ETC.?
DO I HATE MYSELF? DO I LOVE MYSELF? WHAT HAVE I PERSONALLY DONE TO MAKE MY LIFE MORE RESTRICTED? IS MY LIFE TRULY THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE OR DO I REGRET WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN WITH MY LIFE? HAVE I OR AM I PUNISHING MYSELF UP UNTIL THIS TIME FOR HAVING GIVEN UP MY BABY??? WILL I GO TO HELL FOR MY PAST? WILL THE CHILD THAT I GAVE UP HATE ME FOREVER FOR MY ACTIONS IN RELATIONSHIP TO THEM? WHY DO I FEEL SO TRAPPED SOMETIMES? WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH "FEAR" WITHIN ME? WHY AM I SUCH A CONTROL FREAK? WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH ANIMOSITY TOWARDS OTHERS IN MY PRESENCE, SUCH AS MY HOME-LIFE OR MY JOB, ETC.? WHY AM I SO ANGRY ALL THE TIME? WHY AM I SO WEAK AND FRAGILE IN THE PRESENCE OF OTHERS? WHY DO I FEEL LIKE MOST OF MY LIFE I AM LOOSING CONTROL? WHY DO I CONSTANTLY BELIEVE THAT OLD STORY, "I WISH SOMEONE WOULD COME INTO MY LIFE AND RESCUE ME FROM THIS DISASTER?" IS THAT POSSIBLE? WILL IT HAPPEN FOR ME? WHY DO I SO MANY TIMES HAVE FEELINGS OF LONELINESS AND ABANDONMENT? WHERE AM I GOING AND WHAT WILL I FIND IN THE END?
IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO TO "CHANGE MY LIFE TO BE MORE SATISFYING?" WHO OR WHAT CAUSED THIS ALL TO HAPPEN TO ME???
In addition to all of these questions, there can be additional questions and thoughts presented that come into one's mind in relationship to this situation.
I am convinced by my own experiences, that any and all questions asked during the OBES will not only be answered, BUT, "SHOWN TO US!" We will find ourselves right there in the middle of the entire situation with the answers to all of our questions being displayed as if we were both watching and participating in a movie! You will be in shock to find out that life is not exactly like you had always believed it to be......That it does not always unfold the way so many of our parents, relatives, friends, religious beliefs, etc. have "instilled" in our minds. You will be devastated to find out that the so called "rules" set up for humans, by other humans, and tremendously flawed! You will find out that it is never to late to "change" our belief systems. I am sure that at this point, there are those that have been following my blogs that are definitely having this thought run through their minds: DOES A PERSON SUCH AS THIS FEEL "VICTIMIZED???"
We will all, eventually find out, that the only thing that ever mattered in this entire Universe is, LOVE!
Check it out. Go. Definitely go for it! As the old saying goes, DON'T KNOCK IT UNTIL YOU TRY IT FOR YOURSELF!
This blog is for the person/soul/spirit that gave up the child. Part III will be the ideas and thoughts of the ONE GIVEN UP.
More later........
Love and Light!
Marshall
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