Since I spent most of my time working in my workshop at home, I rarely appeared in my gallery, since I had the good fortune of Sales Associates working in the gallery for the majority of time. But as I mentioned before there were several occasions when I would spend long periods of consistent time being there myself.
One morning while sitting behind the counter quietly as the New Age music played continuously as always in the gallery, three people arrived through the large opened doubled doors. It was what appeared to be, a man and woman and a small child in a stroller. My very first thought was, "Isn't that little girl too old to be in that stroller???" But then on looking more closely I discovered that the little girl was not that old, but "old in appearance" "her face" "her mannerisms". The man and woman greeted me with a kind hello and I did likewise and got right into a conversation FOR A REASON! This little girl look very, very, very familiar to me. I promptly spoke out and said, "How is everybody this morning?" The man and woman smiled and anxious moved closer to me. (I was aware through the years of selling my work there in the gallery and having a large photo posted on the wall and a biography of myself that most recognized me when seeing me in person and due to the fact that it was rare that they ever got to meet me, they jumped at the opportunity to engage me in conversation when they got the chance.) I spoke over whatever the man and woman attempted to say to me, YOUR LITTLE GIRL IS SO LOVELY? SHE LOOKS BEYOND HER YEARS, HOW OLD IS SHE AND SHE SEEMS TO BE TOTALLY MATURED AND INTO THIS GALLERY. They immediately responded and answered all of my questions. Some of their replies were, YES, MANY PEOPLE HAVE SAID SOME OF THOSE THINGS TO US YOU ARE SAYING! I jumped right back in and asked, HAVE YOU BEEN IN THIS GALLERY BEFORE? They said, NO, WE HAVE HEARD MUCH ABOUT IT AND THIS IS OUR FIRST TIME. I looked at them both and said, IF YOU DON'T MIND ME ASKING. DO YOU FOLKS LIVE NEAR HERE OR IN THE VICINITY? They replied, YES, WE LIVE RIGHT ACROSS THE BROOKLYN BRIDGE. ACTUALLY, IT WAS SUCH A NICE DAY TODAY THAT WE WALKED OVER HERE. (The gallery was in a mall in Manhattan at the foot of the Brooklyn Bridge). I said, OH, SO YOU LIVE IN BROOKLYN? They replied, YES. I said, SO DO I. They smiled and said, OH, WHERE DO YOU LIVE IN BROOKLYN? I said, BROOKLYN HEIGHTS. They replied, SO DO WE! WE LIVE ON CLINTON STREET. I tried to be calm, and replied, I LIVE ON STATE STREET.... There was a few moments of silence between both of us and they happily said, WE LIVE ON THE CLINTON STREET AND THE CORNER OF STATE STREET. I jumped right back in and replied, I LIVE TWO BROWNSTONES IN FROM CLINTON STREET ON STATE STREET! We both agreed that we were neighbors and due to my shock, I had difficulty continuing the conversation and was polite with a big smile on my face and said, I AM SO HAPPY YOU FOLKS ARE HERE TODAY AND HOPEFULLY WE WILL GREET EACH OTHER WHEN WE SEE EACH OTHER IN "OUR" NEIGHBORHOOD. Then I made an excuse that I had to make a business phone call.
I had to catch my breath and have some space to think about this! With this conversation and their little girl sitting there in the stroller just staring at me with a smile on her face, I was more than in a daze................ I knew now that I remembered her from the OBE I had that early morning, when I spoke to her as she sat crying on those Brownstone steps across the street from where I lived.
Love and Light!
Marshall
Saturday, October 31, 2009
JOSEPHINE AND NELL
Many OBEs as I have stated before, showed me or clarified situations that I witnessed during my lifetime that had confused me? First of all, I had never believed in "Reincarnation". During OBEs I was shown how Reincarnation made very good sense. It is still very, very complicated for me to completely understand, but it does give a basic idea of how it primarily works. I would say that approximately 95% of all Mystics believe in it. Here are some suggestions of experts on this subject that you might check out for your own reading: Dr. Ian Stevenson, Dr. Brian Weiss, Dr. Bruce Goldberg, just to name a few. There are many.
One of my truly beloved friends is a true Medium, BUT, doesn't know it. (I laugh and tease her sometimes about it). She has had many really amazing experiences that related to a past life. Once while we were discussing a very troublesome roommate she once had, I was listening to the past life visions she had about various situations and suddenly, I realized exactly "Who" and "Why" the troublesome roommate she once had, and still knows as do I, had been so devastating to her life.
This roommate had traveled through time and was now once again involved in her "life group" in this incarnation. My friend had been a woman with two little boys in a past lifetime who had what we call a "Nanny" for her two boys. (Which I believe are now her present two brothers in this incarnation.) Most of her time was spent at home alone with her two boys and the Nanny due to the fact that her husband was a political dignatary, who was absent most of the time. It appeared to be several centuries ago. The Nanny both hated my friend and loved her ..... The Nanny was a Lesbian. Her love and desire was suppressed and never came to fruition in that lifetime. Evidently, she followed her into various incarnations. When I came to know my dear friend, this person and one other girl were her roommates. This girl gave the impression as both a friend and enemy. I happen also to become a friend to this particular person and having worked with her at one point, our conversations, by her, were focused always on my friend, her roommate. This person was obsessed with her. My friend was not a Lesbian and therefore made things a living hell in the eyes of this person/roommate. In the meantime, my dear friend with time came to a better understanding of her situation and became more calm about things.
Josephine and Nell:
These are two women within my very close circle that had major issues. There was conflict and love at the same time. Why? They were in this incarnation Mother and Daughter. Their conflicts and troubles came from a past incarnation. There were issues unresolved in that past life. They were not Mother and Daughter when existing in that lifetime. The roles were possibly "reversed" or their relationship was a very "different" one in that lifetime. In any case, when these kinds of conflicts and turmoil occur you can almost be assured that there were issues that were unresolved in that lifetime and we continue "to do it until we get it right or have learned the proper lesson!" I am not a Past Life Regressionist, but a person such as this would definitely have the abilities to guide you through a past life or many!
During the OBEs I have been able to see some of the issues in my own life that have reversed themselves in order for me to "know" "feel" and learn by showing me some of my other times of lives where there were lessons to be learned. Josephine and Nell had problematic situations during their relationship this time around, as I said, that were not resolved in a past life. The conflicts continued to be there due to the fact that they both had no idea "why?" this was happening to them and why their lives were made so difficult to move forward. In all probability they did resolved and burn off a lot of the bad karma that they were carrying into this lifetime, but they would have burned even more if they had more understanding of the "why?" it was all happening in the first place. Nothing really ends for us until we find closure. Now do not believe that you are "stuck" and destined for a miserable time in the afterlife or in another incarnation, because I do not truly believe that is true. I will tell you why I believe this now. I have learned as with anything that is confusing or difficult. ONCE YOU START TO UNDERSTAND THE "WHY?" and you decide to act on cleaning it up, you will be able to move forward both now and in the future. Are you asking the question, WELL, WHAT IF ONE OF US IS ALREADY DEAD AND WE FIND OUT THIS IS THE SITUATION? I say to you, "No problem!" That is the reason I meditate and continue to advance my OBE abilities. We can all literally, speak to those who have left before us by these methods. I HAVE and YOU CAN, attempt to resolved these situations here and now, because I have "seen and heard" with my own self, that these people ARE STILL VERY MUCH ALIVE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION, but that dimension is closer to you than you or I could ever imagine! These departed individuals are closer to us now than they were when they were here on this earth in the physical state of being. I have "seen" them, I have "spoken" with them and I have been able to "feel" them next to me.
If you are afraid of so called, "Ghosts", etc. Please try to understand when I say to you, THESE ARE NOT GHOSTS! We are more Ghostly than they, because so many of us walk around this earth so aimlessly looking for trouble. That is why the world is in so much unrest at this time. Stop being so materialistic and absorbed with one's self and think about what exist around us both physically and non-physically. Do not be afraid to go "within". Always remember, money, fame and glory cannot be taken with you, out of the physical body! We all came into a world where we "created" too many things that were useless. Yes, I also found out during the OBEs that EVERYTHING material is created by manifestations of the way we think. During the OBEs one can manifests anything! And then you can let go of it and manifest something else. It goes on and on. The more advanced spirits say that with time, we get bored with manifesting so many superfluous things and we move on to realize that there are much more important things to manifest and learn.
This entire planet is something we visualized and created and held on to and the moment the "group", we are part of a "group", lets go of this vision, all will disappear and we will need to visualize and create something else. What about a more loving planet? The collective unconsciousness is capable of creating this new age of existence.
Later I will tell you about a few of my own incarnations that I discovered during my astral travels.
Love and Light!
Marshall
One of my truly beloved friends is a true Medium, BUT, doesn't know it. (I laugh and tease her sometimes about it). She has had many really amazing experiences that related to a past life. Once while we were discussing a very troublesome roommate she once had, I was listening to the past life visions she had about various situations and suddenly, I realized exactly "Who" and "Why" the troublesome roommate she once had, and still knows as do I, had been so devastating to her life.
This roommate had traveled through time and was now once again involved in her "life group" in this incarnation. My friend had been a woman with two little boys in a past lifetime who had what we call a "Nanny" for her two boys. (Which I believe are now her present two brothers in this incarnation.) Most of her time was spent at home alone with her two boys and the Nanny due to the fact that her husband was a political dignatary, who was absent most of the time. It appeared to be several centuries ago. The Nanny both hated my friend and loved her ..... The Nanny was a Lesbian. Her love and desire was suppressed and never came to fruition in that lifetime. Evidently, she followed her into various incarnations. When I came to know my dear friend, this person and one other girl were her roommates. This girl gave the impression as both a friend and enemy. I happen also to become a friend to this particular person and having worked with her at one point, our conversations, by her, were focused always on my friend, her roommate. This person was obsessed with her. My friend was not a Lesbian and therefore made things a living hell in the eyes of this person/roommate. In the meantime, my dear friend with time came to a better understanding of her situation and became more calm about things.
Josephine and Nell:
These are two women within my very close circle that had major issues. There was conflict and love at the same time. Why? They were in this incarnation Mother and Daughter. Their conflicts and troubles came from a past incarnation. There were issues unresolved in that past life. They were not Mother and Daughter when existing in that lifetime. The roles were possibly "reversed" or their relationship was a very "different" one in that lifetime. In any case, when these kinds of conflicts and turmoil occur you can almost be assured that there were issues that were unresolved in that lifetime and we continue "to do it until we get it right or have learned the proper lesson!" I am not a Past Life Regressionist, but a person such as this would definitely have the abilities to guide you through a past life or many!
During the OBEs I have been able to see some of the issues in my own life that have reversed themselves in order for me to "know" "feel" and learn by showing me some of my other times of lives where there were lessons to be learned. Josephine and Nell had problematic situations during their relationship this time around, as I said, that were not resolved in a past life. The conflicts continued to be there due to the fact that they both had no idea "why?" this was happening to them and why their lives were made so difficult to move forward. In all probability they did resolved and burn off a lot of the bad karma that they were carrying into this lifetime, but they would have burned even more if they had more understanding of the "why?" it was all happening in the first place. Nothing really ends for us until we find closure. Now do not believe that you are "stuck" and destined for a miserable time in the afterlife or in another incarnation, because I do not truly believe that is true. I will tell you why I believe this now. I have learned as with anything that is confusing or difficult. ONCE YOU START TO UNDERSTAND THE "WHY?" and you decide to act on cleaning it up, you will be able to move forward both now and in the future. Are you asking the question, WELL, WHAT IF ONE OF US IS ALREADY DEAD AND WE FIND OUT THIS IS THE SITUATION? I say to you, "No problem!" That is the reason I meditate and continue to advance my OBE abilities. We can all literally, speak to those who have left before us by these methods. I HAVE and YOU CAN, attempt to resolved these situations here and now, because I have "seen and heard" with my own self, that these people ARE STILL VERY MUCH ALIVE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION, but that dimension is closer to you than you or I could ever imagine! These departed individuals are closer to us now than they were when they were here on this earth in the physical state of being. I have "seen" them, I have "spoken" with them and I have been able to "feel" them next to me.
If you are afraid of so called, "Ghosts", etc. Please try to understand when I say to you, THESE ARE NOT GHOSTS! We are more Ghostly than they, because so many of us walk around this earth so aimlessly looking for trouble. That is why the world is in so much unrest at this time. Stop being so materialistic and absorbed with one's self and think about what exist around us both physically and non-physically. Do not be afraid to go "within". Always remember, money, fame and glory cannot be taken with you, out of the physical body! We all came into a world where we "created" too many things that were useless. Yes, I also found out during the OBEs that EVERYTHING material is created by manifestations of the way we think. During the OBEs one can manifests anything! And then you can let go of it and manifest something else. It goes on and on. The more advanced spirits say that with time, we get bored with manifesting so many superfluous things and we move on to realize that there are much more important things to manifest and learn.
This entire planet is something we visualized and created and held on to and the moment the "group", we are part of a "group", lets go of this vision, all will disappear and we will need to visualize and create something else. What about a more loving planet? The collective unconsciousness is capable of creating this new age of existence.
Later I will tell you about a few of my own incarnations that I discovered during my astral travels.
Love and Light!
Marshall
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
MY ABILITIES/GIFTS
I would like to emphasize again how important the OBEs are to opening one's awareness of the vast amounts of things one can "see" and "develop". I am a Psychic or Mystic. (As I mentioned before, we ALL have certain "gifts" that were bestowed upon us when we arrived.) Most are not aware of them and some of us cannot ignore them... I tried for years attempting to do so. They were so frightening to me. I eventually worked hard at going into "denial". Never believing anything I would "see" or "know". This way I would be able to be "normal" like everybody else around me. Or so I thought so. Now I have come to accept them and start to understand.
What are my gifts? Okay, here is a general idea of what I find myself living with in physical reality:
1. I usually know much about a person the first time I see their face. (I can also "see" this in a photograph of a person's face.)
2. Most times, when an adult or child walks into a room, I can "see" immediately if that person is carrying a serious disease and will die from it.
3. When a person walks into a room, I can immediately discern at approximately what age or time span that person will depart from this earth plane.
4. A liar is seen within seconds!
5. Future and Past events are usually easy to "see" or "know".
6. Who to trust and who not to trust.
7. What a person is "thinking".
8. What the outcome of a situation in life will be most of the times.
9. How the day will go....Good or Bad.
10. Detecting very bad people is easy. Detecting Good ones even easier.
11. Who has lived on this earth before in other lifetimes and other physical bodies.
I could go on and on and on, but I just wanted to give you an idea of how it affects my spirit. *Just as a personal aside, please permit me to inform you as to who else has these few gifts I mentioned above and probably uses them all the time, A DOG! Aahahahhahahaha, yeah, I am serious! It's just what I believe...
I was always was in denial. I never wanted to "accept" what I would see, especially when it was bad. And it seems to me, and I do not know why, most of the things I see coming are not good. Maybe that is because I still have work to do on myself in becoming a more positive thinking person to see more of the good stuff?
Sitting in my gallery alone for hours and having to work with the public for so long brought forth all of the suppressed abilities I had been harboring. By the way, do not confuse what I am telling you with "common sense!" Aahahahahah!
I want to inform you that there is quite a difference. And so many people do not use common sense and if they did, we all know that it would be great. In my opinion, if you use common sense, you will be fine. Sometimes various people have asked me or attempted to compliment me by saying, "You have incredible abilities!" And on many of these occasions I would look at them and say, OH GOD! I WAS NOT USING ANY KINDS OF PSYCHIC ABILITIES AT THAT MOMENT, I WAS USING COMMON SENSE.... HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I will repeat, we all have the abilities, we just have to develop them. Most mystical things that happen to me feel very natural and normal when they happen. When conferring with others, I have known and had much in common with myself, I have found the same conclusion about many paranormal incidents we have experienced. Nothing happens like "in the movies" or so dramatically. It is always so casual. It is like nothing shocking or frightening. Actually, I so many times do not even realize it is happening until it has finished. It is very, very difficult to put into words as we know them, but I give you this example: I have suddenly had a very, very brief conversation with someone and then a few minutes later, I will laugh out loud and say to myself, "Wait a minute! He/She is dead!!!" Telephone communications are amazing, because most of the time I spend a lot of time trying to figure out if I was "awake" or "asleep" when that conversation transpired??? The only thing I do remember for sure, is that the person that I was talking to on the phone was DEAD! And also, during my observations and when using my intuition, most so called Psychics are not psychic at all. They are mostly full of you know what! Especially the ones that you see in commercial situations. So called, Psychics I sometimes see on television are for me like watching a comedy special. I always laugh and think to myself, "Wow! That person is making tons of money at the expense of a large group of desperate and distraught individuals. (By the way, most of the "real" Psychics will be difficult to find and meet.......sometimes even within our lifetimes.)
A popular way that various so called Psychics makes tremendous amounts of money these days is by booking large cruise ships and going on exotic vacations with a tremendous amount of passengers who pay huge sums of money to include their services during the trip. In the past years I have met quite a few of these passengers in passing in my gallery. Oddly enough they were ALL rich. (They had to be due to the fares charged for these cruises.) 100% of the customers that I met were totally unbalanced and suffering from very scary emotional problems. (Once while attending my first Paranormal Siminar, I was sitting in my seat and began to listen to various audience members speak out about their paranormal experiences and psychic abilities. At a certain point, I must have spoken out loud to myself and was heard by the people sitting next to me. I said, "Yikes! These people are crazy!" The person sitting closest to me, tapped me on the shoulder and whispered in my ear, "Yes, that is true. Most need psychological counseling, and should not be here".) I remember one incident in particular that happened one day while I sat alone in my gallery. A woman came in and struck up a conversation with me and we somehow got into a very lengthy conversation about Spiritualism. (By the way, having spent some time in my gallery I was privilege to meet some world renowned figures!) During our conversation this particular individual was very impressed by my knowledge of Metaphysics, etc. The person started to get very excited and requested that I give them a "Reading" right then and there...... With all of my power I attempted to control myself from laughing and said, "You know, I cannot do that... I am sorry." This person was very, very upset and did not accept my response. Eventually we departed on bad terms. Aahahahahhaha!
BUT, several years later, this person walked into the gallery and I happened to be there again and alone (which was the first odd coincidence?) and looked at me and said, "I am sure you do not remember me?" I responded, "Of course I remember you. It's been a long time". And I smiled. This person was in shock. The person said to me,
"But everybody that I have known for years say I look very different since I have been through so much since the last time they or you have seen me?" I calmly said, "You "do" look different, but you still look like you". I was very pleased to see this person. I continued, "You look calm and more down to earth. You look rested and without worry. Your life is so much better now". And then I smiled. The person immediately started to tell me that they had not been on anymore cruises and never would go on anymore and that they were feeling like a "different" person now, after they had recently had a Near Death Experience due to a heart attack.
They said they came back to see me to say hello and give me a hug, because they never forgot me. They said that I had made a great impact on their life by my mere presence. There was something "I gave them when they last saw me and it was something that could not be put into words". I was moved and I was scared and nervous by this remark. But at the same time, I felt good. It was an indication that I was working hard and was developing with my studies about myself and my interests in Metaphysics. I FELT BLESSED! More later.........
Love and Light!
Marshall
What are my gifts? Okay, here is a general idea of what I find myself living with in physical reality:
1. I usually know much about a person the first time I see their face. (I can also "see" this in a photograph of a person's face.)
2. Most times, when an adult or child walks into a room, I can "see" immediately if that person is carrying a serious disease and will die from it.
3. When a person walks into a room, I can immediately discern at approximately what age or time span that person will depart from this earth plane.
4. A liar is seen within seconds!
5. Future and Past events are usually easy to "see" or "know".
6. Who to trust and who not to trust.
7. What a person is "thinking".
8. What the outcome of a situation in life will be most of the times.
9. How the day will go....Good or Bad.
10. Detecting very bad people is easy. Detecting Good ones even easier.
11. Who has lived on this earth before in other lifetimes and other physical bodies.
I could go on and on and on, but I just wanted to give you an idea of how it affects my spirit. *Just as a personal aside, please permit me to inform you as to who else has these few gifts I mentioned above and probably uses them all the time, A DOG! Aahahahhahahaha, yeah, I am serious! It's just what I believe...
I was always was in denial. I never wanted to "accept" what I would see, especially when it was bad. And it seems to me, and I do not know why, most of the things I see coming are not good. Maybe that is because I still have work to do on myself in becoming a more positive thinking person to see more of the good stuff?
Sitting in my gallery alone for hours and having to work with the public for so long brought forth all of the suppressed abilities I had been harboring. By the way, do not confuse what I am telling you with "common sense!" Aahahahahah!
I want to inform you that there is quite a difference. And so many people do not use common sense and if they did, we all know that it would be great. In my opinion, if you use common sense, you will be fine. Sometimes various people have asked me or attempted to compliment me by saying, "You have incredible abilities!" And on many of these occasions I would look at them and say, OH GOD! I WAS NOT USING ANY KINDS OF PSYCHIC ABILITIES AT THAT MOMENT, I WAS USING COMMON SENSE.... HELLOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I will repeat, we all have the abilities, we just have to develop them. Most mystical things that happen to me feel very natural and normal when they happen. When conferring with others, I have known and had much in common with myself, I have found the same conclusion about many paranormal incidents we have experienced. Nothing happens like "in the movies" or so dramatically. It is always so casual. It is like nothing shocking or frightening. Actually, I so many times do not even realize it is happening until it has finished. It is very, very difficult to put into words as we know them, but I give you this example: I have suddenly had a very, very brief conversation with someone and then a few minutes later, I will laugh out loud and say to myself, "Wait a minute! He/She is dead!!!" Telephone communications are amazing, because most of the time I spend a lot of time trying to figure out if I was "awake" or "asleep" when that conversation transpired??? The only thing I do remember for sure, is that the person that I was talking to on the phone was DEAD! And also, during my observations and when using my intuition, most so called Psychics are not psychic at all. They are mostly full of you know what! Especially the ones that you see in commercial situations. So called, Psychics I sometimes see on television are for me like watching a comedy special. I always laugh and think to myself, "Wow! That person is making tons of money at the expense of a large group of desperate and distraught individuals. (By the way, most of the "real" Psychics will be difficult to find and meet.......sometimes even within our lifetimes.)
A popular way that various so called Psychics makes tremendous amounts of money these days is by booking large cruise ships and going on exotic vacations with a tremendous amount of passengers who pay huge sums of money to include their services during the trip. In the past years I have met quite a few of these passengers in passing in my gallery. Oddly enough they were ALL rich. (They had to be due to the fares charged for these cruises.) 100% of the customers that I met were totally unbalanced and suffering from very scary emotional problems. (Once while attending my first Paranormal Siminar, I was sitting in my seat and began to listen to various audience members speak out about their paranormal experiences and psychic abilities. At a certain point, I must have spoken out loud to myself and was heard by the people sitting next to me. I said, "Yikes! These people are crazy!" The person sitting closest to me, tapped me on the shoulder and whispered in my ear, "Yes, that is true. Most need psychological counseling, and should not be here".) I remember one incident in particular that happened one day while I sat alone in my gallery. A woman came in and struck up a conversation with me and we somehow got into a very lengthy conversation about Spiritualism. (By the way, having spent some time in my gallery I was privilege to meet some world renowned figures!) During our conversation this particular individual was very impressed by my knowledge of Metaphysics, etc. The person started to get very excited and requested that I give them a "Reading" right then and there...... With all of my power I attempted to control myself from laughing and said, "You know, I cannot do that... I am sorry." This person was very, very upset and did not accept my response. Eventually we departed on bad terms. Aahahahahhaha!
BUT, several years later, this person walked into the gallery and I happened to be there again and alone (which was the first odd coincidence?) and looked at me and said, "I am sure you do not remember me?" I responded, "Of course I remember you. It's been a long time". And I smiled. This person was in shock. The person said to me,
"But everybody that I have known for years say I look very different since I have been through so much since the last time they or you have seen me?" I calmly said, "You "do" look different, but you still look like you". I was very pleased to see this person. I continued, "You look calm and more down to earth. You look rested and without worry. Your life is so much better now". And then I smiled. The person immediately started to tell me that they had not been on anymore cruises and never would go on anymore and that they were feeling like a "different" person now, after they had recently had a Near Death Experience due to a heart attack.
They said they came back to see me to say hello and give me a hug, because they never forgot me. They said that I had made a great impact on their life by my mere presence. There was something "I gave them when they last saw me and it was something that could not be put into words". I was moved and I was scared and nervous by this remark. But at the same time, I felt good. It was an indication that I was working hard and was developing with my studies about myself and my interests in Metaphysics. I FELT BLESSED! More later.........
Love and Light!
Marshall
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
DID I HAVE MUCH "FEAR?"
HELL YES!!! Aahahahahhah! I said earlier that "fear" can hold us back from OBEs, and any other achievements also. BUT, I also told you that The Universe is perfect and does not make mistakes! I bring this to your attention now due to the fact that during my tremendous times of grief and wanting Anderson to "come to me", I would sometimes get very disturbed by the fact that I was beginning to believe that when people die, they just die and that is it. And if there were a God, this entity was being very cruel to me. With much time and practice and learning and accomplishing various things in Metaphysics, I found out what was going on.
One day, sitting in a chair, and contemplating my many OBEs, etc. it was almost as if a very special voice entered my mind. These were the thoughts I suddenly had... I said,
"Marshall, let's be really realistic now. After such a very short time of you starting to grieve over Anderson's passing, what would you have done if while you were sitting here in this chair relaxing, and he walked through that open door over there in front of you and smiled and said, "Hi"??? I knew exactly at that point in time what I would have done. I would have jumped up out of that chair and yelled as loud as possible in total shock and horror!!! He was suppose to be dead. Totally dead. How on earth could he be walking into that room to greet me? Aahahahahhha:) Yup, I would have been totally unprepared by what I had experienced and adapted to then and now. It would have been a completely unacceptable incident. I WOULD HAVE BEEN UNPREPARED.
But now, I am able to handle such things. I would also like to take this opportunity to explain something else to you. None of my experiences have been anything like one would view in a horror/science fiction movie. Everything that has ever happened to me during my experiences have been as clear as day (even clearer) and as natural to me as every day life. I would like to add that things can be seen "all around" your body without seeming to turn your head in any particular direction. I am nearsighted and sometimes put on glasses to see thing in the distance. During one of my OBEs I remember that I was looking at something that seemed far away and it suddenly occurred to me that I was not wearing my glasses. I starting laughing internally so loud at myself. I thought to myself, "I should see like this inside my body!"
At this point, I want to tell you something else I discovered. One cannot read clearly during an OBE? I even asked some of my people that have OBEs and they confirmed it. I found that you can see, street signs, letters, books, etc. But when you attempt to read them, the words immediately become "jumbled". It is very frustrating. Sometimes I will find myself in a city or town and would attempt to read the street sign. Immediately, all the letters would become jumbled and spell out very ridiculous words? Once I thought I was being very smart. I tried to check out a license plate on the cars.........Nope. Jumbled. Another time I saw a teen aged girl standing on the sidewalk and spoke to her, "Excuse me. What is the name of this town?" She looked at me like I was crazy and answered my question. I could not understand a word she said........STRANGE?
Once I suddenly found myself out of body and was standing in what appeared to be a living room with a grand piano. On top of the piano was an ashtray with a cigarette butt still burning. "Someone" was standing to the side of me, slightly behind my back. I could not see this person, but I seemed to know it was a male figure and my height. I quickly thought a question, but before I could release it from my mouth, this entity answered me, NO, BUT YOU ARE! (The question I had in my mind was, ARE YOU DEAD?) And then I asked the question, WHAT IS YOUR NAME? He replied, MAYNARD. (To this day, I am trying to figure out who this person was?) My last question before returning to my body was, HOW LONG HAVE I KNOWN YOU? His quick reply was, 3 YEARS.
Okay, so far after much frustrations, I could only come up with the possibility that this maybe, just maybe, could be a "Guardian" or something for me. At that time, 3 years had been the exact amount of time Anderson had left. Also, this is just speculation, I remember very definite that grand piano. Some say, we "travel" or "stay" pretty much within our "groups". I say this because, I am also a Musician and it was my first love and I have been around huge black grand pianos many times during my lifetime.
Before I close today, I would like to tell you about another OBE. I will tell you Part 1 today and follow up on another Blog its amazing outcome.
One Saturday morning, I woke up and did not have to rush to work and decided to do my meditations. Afterwards, I was resting calmly and felt an OBE coming on. My body became paralyzed, I could not move. I could feel the electricity in my limbs. My breathing became labored and I could hear my heartbeat loud and clear. I welcomed the whole experience with excitement. I slowly rose up above my physical body still in a reclining position. I was moved slowly to the foot of the bed and then "turned upwards and downwards" to a standing position of the floor. (*Note= I have discovered and also with confirmations by others, you cannot just come out of the body yourself at first. The initial departure is ALWAYS controlled. I am not sure, "how?" Something or someone is in control to bring you out of the body. After you are out completely, you seem to be "allowed" to be responsible for yourself, unless you "request" assistance. At which times, assistance is within less than seconds it seems. I have requested assistance on occasion, BUT, I have thus far been unable to ever "see" who these entities are? I have been able to figure out "how many" are assisting me and I believe their sex and size of the entity. But I just have not been able to "see" them? But I just "know" they are there and sometimes they even communicate with me in thoughts, because they respond to my requests and questions. By the way, if you want to "know something" they almost always, "show you in pictures or you are there in the scene of what you ask!) As soon as I hit the floor, my "astral eyes" opened. But things were very unclear. I remembered to demand, "clarity" which I did and immediately, my room was clearer than in physical reality! I thought quickly, "What shall I do?" Then I thought, "Oh, I know, I will venture outside of the apartment". I lived in a garden apartment at the time, main floor, so it was easy to go outside. BUT, I had to take this opportunity to stop being timid about, instead of attempting to open the front door, to just walk right through it. (Remember we are no longer on the same frequency out of body as the physical). I did it and I was excited. I went right through the front door without opening it. I moved to the street. It was early morning and at first I saw no people on the street. I moved further out. I crossed the street to the other side. Coming down the street now were a few people. Some were walking their dogs. I stood on the middle of the sidewalk. They all seemed to walk right through me and not even see me standing there.....BUT, now catch this.........THEIR DOGS SAW ME, AHAHAHAHHAHAH! They tried to lick me and poke at me. I just stood there observing. Suddenly I turned to my left. (My block was a tree-lined brownstoned block in Brooklyn Heights) On one of the brownstones front steps sat a little girl. SHE COULD SEE ME! She looked directly at me and she was crying and shaking. I moved closer to her and I spoke to her (Remember that we do not actually speak physically during our OBEs......its THOUGHT TRANSFERENCE'S) I said, "Stop crying. Do not be afraid. Everything is alright". She stopped crying immediately and totally disappeared from the steps? (I personally believe that this little girl was having a spontaneous, unconscious OBE during her sleep and was very much "alive!" somewhere in my neighborhood.
I found myself alone again standing there on the sidewalk. I thought to myself, "What shall I do now? I had better hurry up or I will be pulled back to my physical body!" For the first time ever having my OBEs, I decided that I wanted to go see Anderson. I did exactly what one is suppose to do when one has the desire of something. I demanded with energy. I called out his name loud and clear. Suddenly, I seemed to be ejected upwards off of the sidewalk towards the sky. The speed of flight was astounding to me! Within seconds it seems I felt such sadness and grief. And, within seconds of feeling these emotions, I seemed to crash back into my body in my bed.
During my research I learned something later. Also during my experiences. YOU CANNOT BRING UP "DOWN" EMOTIONAL THOUGHTS OR YOU WILL CRASH RIGHT BACK INTO YOUR PHYSICAL. It helped me to understand why so many times, and also I got this confirmed by those I associated with who did OBEs. During OBEs you always seems to be laughing and having this crazy unmovable grin on your face. Everything seems to be so light and up! Happy. But the moment you get sad or depressed your astral body seems to become so heavy and is pulled back to the physical. I also learned that "They" those who have crossed over, cannot get to you when this happens. I was informed that "They" need to lower their frequency in order to "come down" to us. We are on a very low frequency and when we become sad, depressed or cry, it becomes extremely difficult for "Them" to get close to us.
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall
One day, sitting in a chair, and contemplating my many OBEs, etc. it was almost as if a very special voice entered my mind. These were the thoughts I suddenly had... I said,
"Marshall, let's be really realistic now. After such a very short time of you starting to grieve over Anderson's passing, what would you have done if while you were sitting here in this chair relaxing, and he walked through that open door over there in front of you and smiled and said, "Hi"??? I knew exactly at that point in time what I would have done. I would have jumped up out of that chair and yelled as loud as possible in total shock and horror!!! He was suppose to be dead. Totally dead. How on earth could he be walking into that room to greet me? Aahahahahhha:) Yup, I would have been totally unprepared by what I had experienced and adapted to then and now. It would have been a completely unacceptable incident. I WOULD HAVE BEEN UNPREPARED.
But now, I am able to handle such things. I would also like to take this opportunity to explain something else to you. None of my experiences have been anything like one would view in a horror/science fiction movie. Everything that has ever happened to me during my experiences have been as clear as day (even clearer) and as natural to me as every day life. I would like to add that things can be seen "all around" your body without seeming to turn your head in any particular direction. I am nearsighted and sometimes put on glasses to see thing in the distance. During one of my OBEs I remember that I was looking at something that seemed far away and it suddenly occurred to me that I was not wearing my glasses. I starting laughing internally so loud at myself. I thought to myself, "I should see like this inside my body!"
At this point, I want to tell you something else I discovered. One cannot read clearly during an OBE? I even asked some of my people that have OBEs and they confirmed it. I found that you can see, street signs, letters, books, etc. But when you attempt to read them, the words immediately become "jumbled". It is very frustrating. Sometimes I will find myself in a city or town and would attempt to read the street sign. Immediately, all the letters would become jumbled and spell out very ridiculous words? Once I thought I was being very smart. I tried to check out a license plate on the cars.........Nope. Jumbled. Another time I saw a teen aged girl standing on the sidewalk and spoke to her, "Excuse me. What is the name of this town?" She looked at me like I was crazy and answered my question. I could not understand a word she said........STRANGE?
Once I suddenly found myself out of body and was standing in what appeared to be a living room with a grand piano. On top of the piano was an ashtray with a cigarette butt still burning. "Someone" was standing to the side of me, slightly behind my back. I could not see this person, but I seemed to know it was a male figure and my height. I quickly thought a question, but before I could release it from my mouth, this entity answered me, NO, BUT YOU ARE! (The question I had in my mind was, ARE YOU DEAD?) And then I asked the question, WHAT IS YOUR NAME? He replied, MAYNARD. (To this day, I am trying to figure out who this person was?) My last question before returning to my body was, HOW LONG HAVE I KNOWN YOU? His quick reply was, 3 YEARS.
Okay, so far after much frustrations, I could only come up with the possibility that this maybe, just maybe, could be a "Guardian" or something for me. At that time, 3 years had been the exact amount of time Anderson had left. Also, this is just speculation, I remember very definite that grand piano. Some say, we "travel" or "stay" pretty much within our "groups". I say this because, I am also a Musician and it was my first love and I have been around huge black grand pianos many times during my lifetime.
Before I close today, I would like to tell you about another OBE. I will tell you Part 1 today and follow up on another Blog its amazing outcome.
One Saturday morning, I woke up and did not have to rush to work and decided to do my meditations. Afterwards, I was resting calmly and felt an OBE coming on. My body became paralyzed, I could not move. I could feel the electricity in my limbs. My breathing became labored and I could hear my heartbeat loud and clear. I welcomed the whole experience with excitement. I slowly rose up above my physical body still in a reclining position. I was moved slowly to the foot of the bed and then "turned upwards and downwards" to a standing position of the floor. (*Note= I have discovered and also with confirmations by others, you cannot just come out of the body yourself at first. The initial departure is ALWAYS controlled. I am not sure, "how?" Something or someone is in control to bring you out of the body. After you are out completely, you seem to be "allowed" to be responsible for yourself, unless you "request" assistance. At which times, assistance is within less than seconds it seems. I have requested assistance on occasion, BUT, I have thus far been unable to ever "see" who these entities are? I have been able to figure out "how many" are assisting me and I believe their sex and size of the entity. But I just have not been able to "see" them? But I just "know" they are there and sometimes they even communicate with me in thoughts, because they respond to my requests and questions. By the way, if you want to "know something" they almost always, "show you in pictures or you are there in the scene of what you ask!) As soon as I hit the floor, my "astral eyes" opened. But things were very unclear. I remembered to demand, "clarity" which I did and immediately, my room was clearer than in physical reality! I thought quickly, "What shall I do?" Then I thought, "Oh, I know, I will venture outside of the apartment". I lived in a garden apartment at the time, main floor, so it was easy to go outside. BUT, I had to take this opportunity to stop being timid about, instead of attempting to open the front door, to just walk right through it. (Remember we are no longer on the same frequency out of body as the physical). I did it and I was excited. I went right through the front door without opening it. I moved to the street. It was early morning and at first I saw no people on the street. I moved further out. I crossed the street to the other side. Coming down the street now were a few people. Some were walking their dogs. I stood on the middle of the sidewalk. They all seemed to walk right through me and not even see me standing there.....BUT, now catch this.........THEIR DOGS SAW ME, AHAHAHAHHAHAH! They tried to lick me and poke at me. I just stood there observing. Suddenly I turned to my left. (My block was a tree-lined brownstoned block in Brooklyn Heights) On one of the brownstones front steps sat a little girl. SHE COULD SEE ME! She looked directly at me and she was crying and shaking. I moved closer to her and I spoke to her (Remember that we do not actually speak physically during our OBEs......its THOUGHT TRANSFERENCE'S) I said, "Stop crying. Do not be afraid. Everything is alright". She stopped crying immediately and totally disappeared from the steps? (I personally believe that this little girl was having a spontaneous, unconscious OBE during her sleep and was very much "alive!" somewhere in my neighborhood.
I found myself alone again standing there on the sidewalk. I thought to myself, "What shall I do now? I had better hurry up or I will be pulled back to my physical body!" For the first time ever having my OBEs, I decided that I wanted to go see Anderson. I did exactly what one is suppose to do when one has the desire of something. I demanded with energy. I called out his name loud and clear. Suddenly, I seemed to be ejected upwards off of the sidewalk towards the sky. The speed of flight was astounding to me! Within seconds it seems I felt such sadness and grief. And, within seconds of feeling these emotions, I seemed to crash back into my body in my bed.
During my research I learned something later. Also during my experiences. YOU CANNOT BRING UP "DOWN" EMOTIONAL THOUGHTS OR YOU WILL CRASH RIGHT BACK INTO YOUR PHYSICAL. It helped me to understand why so many times, and also I got this confirmed by those I associated with who did OBEs. During OBEs you always seems to be laughing and having this crazy unmovable grin on your face. Everything seems to be so light and up! Happy. But the moment you get sad or depressed your astral body seems to become so heavy and is pulled back to the physical. I also learned that "They" those who have crossed over, cannot get to you when this happens. I was informed that "They" need to lower their frequency in order to "come down" to us. We are on a very low frequency and when we become sad, depressed or cry, it becomes extremely difficult for "Them" to get close to us.
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall
Monday, October 26, 2009
DIFFICULT TIMES AND OBES
I continue to remember the difficult times that I faced with the emptiness present in my life of Anderson having "crossed over". During my various OBEs I would begin to see him in what seemed, "steps of progression". One morning I was meditating early as I was about to get up and had an OBE.
I seemed to float slowly into an area where I suddenly saw Anderson smiling at me as if to welcome me. He looked whole and well in very good spirits. He turned his head to his right appearing to be showing me two people. One I recognized immediately. It was a young girl that Ondina had adopted several years before my return to visit them in Brasil. The girl was laughing and playing and happily. She was very happy to see me. (This lovely girl had been literally adopted from the streets by Ondina in the middle of a summer night. She had been abandoned.) I knew very well that she was very much alive, but assumed that she was "astrally traveling" at night as she slept in Brasil probably. But, I did not recognize "the woman???" Who was this woman I thought to myself? She just did not look familiar to me, yet she had this biggest smile on her face looking at me with so much love!
The scene was brief and over quickly over. I spent much time during the next few weeks attempting to figure out who this woman was in the room with the little girl and Anderson. Soon, I started to convince myself that it was a woman whom I had become very close to in the recent past in Brasil. Joanna had even come to New York to visit me and stay for a few weeks at one time. I assumed it was her.......But, it was not really making sense to me. Why was she with them now......she too was very much alive.
I told Mother. She said to me very calmly. "Do not concern yourself. If it was not clear to you, they will come back at some point and clear this up for you". As always, Mother was 100% correct in her statement to me.
Several weeks later. An early morning, once more I found myself in the same room and same situation. There was Anderson and the little girl laughing and playing and greeting me with big smiles. The woman was standing between them looking directly at me with a huge smile also. Something immediately happened.......it was as if a camera had gone in for a close-up of her and on her ears were beautiful gold earrings that I remembered immediately having given them to Ondina! She started to look very familiar at that point.....what I had failed to comprehend the last time was her appearance in age. She was much, much younger and I had failed to recognize her.....Her face was also tremendously less stressful and happy! I believe Anderson wanted to show me that he was with Ondina and she was whole and happy and so was he..... Everything was fine! It seemed to be a brief sedative for my lingering depression of missing them all.
(Later I will tell you about another OBE I experienced when I actually did discover what I believe was how some, young children have OBES during their sleep states and are pretty much unaware that they are having them and react differently in individual situations. I do believe that their OBEs are spontaneous and according to the situations that they find themselves in determines how they react. I do know that mine as a young child were quite frightening as I mentioned earlier.)
More later........
Love and Light,
Marshall
I seemed to float slowly into an area where I suddenly saw Anderson smiling at me as if to welcome me. He looked whole and well in very good spirits. He turned his head to his right appearing to be showing me two people. One I recognized immediately. It was a young girl that Ondina had adopted several years before my return to visit them in Brasil. The girl was laughing and playing and happily. She was very happy to see me. (This lovely girl had been literally adopted from the streets by Ondina in the middle of a summer night. She had been abandoned.) I knew very well that she was very much alive, but assumed that she was "astrally traveling" at night as she slept in Brasil probably. But, I did not recognize "the woman???" Who was this woman I thought to myself? She just did not look familiar to me, yet she had this biggest smile on her face looking at me with so much love!
The scene was brief and over quickly over. I spent much time during the next few weeks attempting to figure out who this woman was in the room with the little girl and Anderson. Soon, I started to convince myself that it was a woman whom I had become very close to in the recent past in Brasil. Joanna had even come to New York to visit me and stay for a few weeks at one time. I assumed it was her.......But, it was not really making sense to me. Why was she with them now......she too was very much alive.
I told Mother. She said to me very calmly. "Do not concern yourself. If it was not clear to you, they will come back at some point and clear this up for you". As always, Mother was 100% correct in her statement to me.
Several weeks later. An early morning, once more I found myself in the same room and same situation. There was Anderson and the little girl laughing and playing and greeting me with big smiles. The woman was standing between them looking directly at me with a huge smile also. Something immediately happened.......it was as if a camera had gone in for a close-up of her and on her ears were beautiful gold earrings that I remembered immediately having given them to Ondina! She started to look very familiar at that point.....what I had failed to comprehend the last time was her appearance in age. She was much, much younger and I had failed to recognize her.....Her face was also tremendously less stressful and happy! I believe Anderson wanted to show me that he was with Ondina and she was whole and happy and so was he..... Everything was fine! It seemed to be a brief sedative for my lingering depression of missing them all.
(Later I will tell you about another OBE I experienced when I actually did discover what I believe was how some, young children have OBES during their sleep states and are pretty much unaware that they are having them and react differently in individual situations. I do believe that their OBEs are spontaneous and according to the situations that they find themselves in determines how they react. I do know that mine as a young child were quite frightening as I mentioned earlier.)
More later........
Love and Light,
Marshall
Thursday, October 22, 2009
SOME OF THE "RULES!"
"Primarily", I have come to learn or assume from what I have "seen" out of the body, that if we decided that we cannot go on with the mishaps and downfalls during our life here on this planet that the biggest mistake we could possibly make would be "to end it all" by our own hands! It seems we would have to come back and "repeat" the whole class! Yup, all the way up until the point of where we left off. Maybe there are exceptions to the rule, BUT, according to those words, MY WAYS ARE NOT YOUR WAYS AND MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS! The Universe works differently than the way we humans think and operate. God/The Universe does not make mistakes. It's as simple as that......
Many times I have had the feeling to end my life. In deep states of depression and feelings of, what on earth is the point of continuing with this life??? I suddenly wanted to end it all, believing maybe I could just stop having to deal with all of these troubles anymore. Always, this feeling of "warning" were delivered to me from within myself or from those close to me, I would reconsider and in a state of frustration, just literally fall asleep!
Recently, when I "saw" Mother on the other side, she was so lovely and always made me feel so good about myself. BUT, once during one of my deepest states of depression, I was seriously contemplating ending it all. I really got myself into the frame of mind where I just hated my existence and felt bitter and tremendously angry about being here and having to suffer so much crap! I just could not take it anymore and I was sure I just had to take whatever the consequences and "call this whole life off!" I was tired and physically exhausted that evening and shortly with the strain of so much thought fell off to sleep.
Mother appeared directly in front of me... primarily her face. Yikes!!! I had never seen such an expression of anger on her face as I did at that moment. It was devastating to me. I sat up full of fear. She looked at me with such fury! At that moment I think I decided to give life another shot? I could just read her thoughts without her mouth even moving. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? ARE YOU CRAZY? DON'T YOU DARE!!! (At this very moment that I are relaying this to you readers, I can still "see" the expression on her face, as clear as day!)
At this point I would like to recommend a book to you written by Angie Fenimore, BEYOND THE DARKNESS. This is the story written by her about her Near Death Experience when she attempted to commit suicide. If you or anybody you know has ever been overcome with this possibility, please check out this book. This very young woman's life was really horrible and she had great feelings of painful and anger that made her wish to move "into the Light!" She writes graphically about her experience and I am led to believe that it would help to make it quite difficult for anyone harboring these intentions to follow through...... Of course just as we cannot see the unknown, we cannot actually always see into the thoughts of a troubled soul who finds so much difficulties continuing on with life as we know it.
I have sometimes wondered if maybe we could actually get some idea of "why we are here on this earth?" we might be able to deal with it more easily. Right now the new age is opening up more than ever for us to begin to "see" so many things we have often questioned about life. Some of us might have been given the gift or occupation to assist others in helping this to be achieved. No longer must we continue with blinders on believing that our existence does not need to be understood. To drown ourselves with our day to day living and not stop from time to time and attempt to get some of the answers as to WHERE DID WE COME FROM? WHY ARE WE HERE? and WHERE ARE WE GOING? Many are so fearful of the answer to these questions that we bury our heads in the sand and pretend none of it exist. We are so absorbed in our own worlds that we have created that have removed us from any thoughts of anything that we cannot "see" with our physical eyes. We have come to accept the rules that were created by those before us and accepted them, whether or not we believe them. We are terrified to "think for ourselves". Many of us have so much fear inside of us that we become paralyzed at the mere thought of there being anything beyond our day to day living. We do not care "Why?"
Recently, a great musical figure died, Michael Jackson. So many people in this world were more concern about his personal life than the artistry he shared with the world. I realized what an unusual human being this person must have been to have contributed so much good to the world, yet "why was he associated with so much perverted behaviour?" OR.......was that perverted behaviour? Do we really know? Most only knew what was written in newspapers, etc. But who exactly was this human being? (In the eyes of The Universe) During my readings once I discovered that the person who had The Bible translated, enabling the masses to read it with ease was a Homosexual. The King James Version of The Holy Bible. King James was a publicly known homosexual. Yet he had the compassion to make sure all man at that time would be able to understand this book, rather than just the aristocracy. It brought me to think to myself, why was his sexual orientation so much more important to the religious people of our time??? There has to be a reason for so many things that go on in this Universe, yet so many humans pick and choose which we want to accept or not accept......according to our prejudices. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?
I still remember once when I was at my weakest moment, when my beloved Anderson was so ill and I looked at him and it broke my heart and suddenly my sorrow turned to incredible anger. I yelled out loud and clear, I HATE GOD! Anderson looked at me with a frail but stern and angry expression and screamed at me, SHUT UP! DO NOT SAY THAT! I replied, "Why not? God does horrible things to make us feel bad!" He yelled right back at me and said, "NO. YOU ARE JUST ANGRY BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT HAVING THINGS THE WAY YOU WANT THEM TO BE OR THE WAY YOU THINK THEY SHOULD BE! YOU ARE NOT GOD". I was absolutely speechless. I just sat down and was silent for the longest time.
Later I will share many more of my OBEs with you.
Love and Light!
Marshall
Many times I have had the feeling to end my life. In deep states of depression and feelings of, what on earth is the point of continuing with this life??? I suddenly wanted to end it all, believing maybe I could just stop having to deal with all of these troubles anymore. Always, this feeling of "warning" were delivered to me from within myself or from those close to me, I would reconsider and in a state of frustration, just literally fall asleep!
Recently, when I "saw" Mother on the other side, she was so lovely and always made me feel so good about myself. BUT, once during one of my deepest states of depression, I was seriously contemplating ending it all. I really got myself into the frame of mind where I just hated my existence and felt bitter and tremendously angry about being here and having to suffer so much crap! I just could not take it anymore and I was sure I just had to take whatever the consequences and "call this whole life off!" I was tired and physically exhausted that evening and shortly with the strain of so much thought fell off to sleep.
Mother appeared directly in front of me... primarily her face. Yikes!!! I had never seen such an expression of anger on her face as I did at that moment. It was devastating to me. I sat up full of fear. She looked at me with such fury! At that moment I think I decided to give life another shot? I could just read her thoughts without her mouth even moving. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? ARE YOU CRAZY? DON'T YOU DARE!!! (At this very moment that I are relaying this to you readers, I can still "see" the expression on her face, as clear as day!)
At this point I would like to recommend a book to you written by Angie Fenimore, BEYOND THE DARKNESS. This is the story written by her about her Near Death Experience when she attempted to commit suicide. If you or anybody you know has ever been overcome with this possibility, please check out this book. This very young woman's life was really horrible and she had great feelings of painful and anger that made her wish to move "into the Light!" She writes graphically about her experience and I am led to believe that it would help to make it quite difficult for anyone harboring these intentions to follow through...... Of course just as we cannot see the unknown, we cannot actually always see into the thoughts of a troubled soul who finds so much difficulties continuing on with life as we know it.
I have sometimes wondered if maybe we could actually get some idea of "why we are here on this earth?" we might be able to deal with it more easily. Right now the new age is opening up more than ever for us to begin to "see" so many things we have often questioned about life. Some of us might have been given the gift or occupation to assist others in helping this to be achieved. No longer must we continue with blinders on believing that our existence does not need to be understood. To drown ourselves with our day to day living and not stop from time to time and attempt to get some of the answers as to WHERE DID WE COME FROM? WHY ARE WE HERE? and WHERE ARE WE GOING? Many are so fearful of the answer to these questions that we bury our heads in the sand and pretend none of it exist. We are so absorbed in our own worlds that we have created that have removed us from any thoughts of anything that we cannot "see" with our physical eyes. We have come to accept the rules that were created by those before us and accepted them, whether or not we believe them. We are terrified to "think for ourselves". Many of us have so much fear inside of us that we become paralyzed at the mere thought of there being anything beyond our day to day living. We do not care "Why?"
Recently, a great musical figure died, Michael Jackson. So many people in this world were more concern about his personal life than the artistry he shared with the world. I realized what an unusual human being this person must have been to have contributed so much good to the world, yet "why was he associated with so much perverted behaviour?" OR.......was that perverted behaviour? Do we really know? Most only knew what was written in newspapers, etc. But who exactly was this human being? (In the eyes of The Universe) During my readings once I discovered that the person who had The Bible translated, enabling the masses to read it with ease was a Homosexual. The King James Version of The Holy Bible. King James was a publicly known homosexual. Yet he had the compassion to make sure all man at that time would be able to understand this book, rather than just the aristocracy. It brought me to think to myself, why was his sexual orientation so much more important to the religious people of our time??? There has to be a reason for so many things that go on in this Universe, yet so many humans pick and choose which we want to accept or not accept......according to our prejudices. WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?
I still remember once when I was at my weakest moment, when my beloved Anderson was so ill and I looked at him and it broke my heart and suddenly my sorrow turned to incredible anger. I yelled out loud and clear, I HATE GOD! Anderson looked at me with a frail but stern and angry expression and screamed at me, SHUT UP! DO NOT SAY THAT! I replied, "Why not? God does horrible things to make us feel bad!" He yelled right back at me and said, "NO. YOU ARE JUST ANGRY BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT HAVING THINGS THE WAY YOU WANT THEM TO BE OR THE WAY YOU THINK THEY SHOULD BE! YOU ARE NOT GOD". I was absolutely speechless. I just sat down and was silent for the longest time.
Later I will share many more of my OBEs with you.
Love and Light!
Marshall
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
MEDITATIONS AND OBES
I have become a firm believer in MEDITATION/MEDITATING, every single day, sometimes more than just once or twice. This is the method we use to "go within". Yes, we are really "in there", not out here in this huge world. We are inside looking out at the greatest adventures presented to us, both good or bad. And there are many wonderful CDs that can be used for Guided Meditations.
During meditation we can find very exciting and mysterious universes that we have never imagined existed. You do not need to sit down and strike some position that is uncomfortable to one's self. Simply by sitting in a chair or reclining on your bed, you can go in to deep states of meditation. It will relax our minds. Stop the busy noises and voices that are being thrown at us every day. Meditating can also prepare us for each day and it can also prepare us for our great adventures each night before going to sleep.
It can also be used as a technique to astrally project. I do not usually use this method to project, but have on occasion found myself disconnected from my physical body without intent.
You do not have to be a Buddhist Priest to meditate or a Yoga enthusiast. You can even do it while riding on the bus to work or the train. (But please don't attempt it while driving a car!)
Once while relaxing and meditating on my bed after a rather stressful day working at my gallery, I found myself, suddenly standing at the foot of my bed looking in the direction of the fireplace. At first I was somewhat surprised, but immediately, distracted and caught up with a banging sound? What on earth was that I thought to myself as I seemed to glide effortlessly towards it. It was coming from in the direction of the fireplace, which happened to be burning at the moment. As I got close, and directly in front of the fireplace, I looked at the mantle, but saw nothing unusual except a soft halo covering the mantle and the object on top of it. But, I still heard that banging sound and thought it was strange?
I should inform you that I never once looked back at the bed that I was meditating on where my body might be........ This I had decided sometime ago was to because I had a small fear about actually seeing my physical body while out of body. I remember standing there and absorbing these moments of being out of body. Then suddenly without notice........BANG! I was back on my bed in my body looking at the ceiling. The very first thing I noticed besides the electrical current coming from my lips and tips of my fingers was the banging sound. I got up immediately and walked towards the mantle and the banging got louder and I quickly turned to my right and saw the radiators.....and noticed the loud banging sounds. I laughed and thought to myself, "The radiators!" The air coming up from the radiators....now I recognize that sound. A very familiar sound from old radiators when air comes up.
I remember another time waking up one morning, or I thought I had..... And thinking to myself, "I think I will meditate for a few minutes". I never really opened my eyes. I started to meditate and then upon completion, I got up out of the bed and walked towards the windows, where there was beautiful bright sunshine coming into my bedroom. I thought to myself, "Wow! What a beautiful sun shinny day!" Then I seemed to turn around abruptly in the direction of my bed and to head back and ......WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I laughed so hard inside myself it seemed. I saw this little bald head half way out from under the covers, eyes closed and very contently asleep. IT WAS ME!!! I had finally gotten to see MYSELF without fear or thinking or realizing I had not gotten out of bed, but I was OUT OF BODY! It was such a surprise that suddenly, my stomach became soooo heavy .....as if heavy lead had been poured inside it and I was becoming very, very heavy and unable to sustain myself in the astral..... Within seconds I was sitting up in my bed. What a surprise!
More later..............
Love and Light!
Marshall
During meditation we can find very exciting and mysterious universes that we have never imagined existed. You do not need to sit down and strike some position that is uncomfortable to one's self. Simply by sitting in a chair or reclining on your bed, you can go in to deep states of meditation. It will relax our minds. Stop the busy noises and voices that are being thrown at us every day. Meditating can also prepare us for each day and it can also prepare us for our great adventures each night before going to sleep.
It can also be used as a technique to astrally project. I do not usually use this method to project, but have on occasion found myself disconnected from my physical body without intent.
You do not have to be a Buddhist Priest to meditate or a Yoga enthusiast. You can even do it while riding on the bus to work or the train. (But please don't attempt it while driving a car!)
Once while relaxing and meditating on my bed after a rather stressful day working at my gallery, I found myself, suddenly standing at the foot of my bed looking in the direction of the fireplace. At first I was somewhat surprised, but immediately, distracted and caught up with a banging sound? What on earth was that I thought to myself as I seemed to glide effortlessly towards it. It was coming from in the direction of the fireplace, which happened to be burning at the moment. As I got close, and directly in front of the fireplace, I looked at the mantle, but saw nothing unusual except a soft halo covering the mantle and the object on top of it. But, I still heard that banging sound and thought it was strange?
I should inform you that I never once looked back at the bed that I was meditating on where my body might be........ This I had decided sometime ago was to because I had a small fear about actually seeing my physical body while out of body. I remember standing there and absorbing these moments of being out of body. Then suddenly without notice........BANG! I was back on my bed in my body looking at the ceiling. The very first thing I noticed besides the electrical current coming from my lips and tips of my fingers was the banging sound. I got up immediately and walked towards the mantle and the banging got louder and I quickly turned to my right and saw the radiators.....and noticed the loud banging sounds. I laughed and thought to myself, "The radiators!" The air coming up from the radiators....now I recognize that sound. A very familiar sound from old radiators when air comes up.
I remember another time waking up one morning, or I thought I had..... And thinking to myself, "I think I will meditate for a few minutes". I never really opened my eyes. I started to meditate and then upon completion, I got up out of the bed and walked towards the windows, where there was beautiful bright sunshine coming into my bedroom. I thought to myself, "Wow! What a beautiful sun shinny day!" Then I seemed to turn around abruptly in the direction of my bed and to head back and ......WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I laughed so hard inside myself it seemed. I saw this little bald head half way out from under the covers, eyes closed and very contently asleep. IT WAS ME!!! I had finally gotten to see MYSELF without fear or thinking or realizing I had not gotten out of bed, but I was OUT OF BODY! It was such a surprise that suddenly, my stomach became soooo heavy .....as if heavy lead had been poured inside it and I was becoming very, very heavy and unable to sustain myself in the astral..... Within seconds I was sitting up in my bed. What a surprise!
More later..............
Love and Light!
Marshall
Sunday, October 18, 2009
INTO THE LIGHT!
Before leaving the last time, I told you I would discuss where I had discovered the LIGHT was originating from during our OBEs. Well, here I shall begin to tell you. One evening Gerard and his girlfriend had invited me over for dinner. We had a great meal that Gerard had prepared and we had wine. After dinner we watch television and drank more wine. The comedy shows were very funny and we had lots to laugh about during the shows. As always, we filled Gerard's girlfriend in on some of our OBEs.
When I got home I went immediately to bed and to sleep. I suppose due to the intake of wine that evening, at some point I woke up and wanted very much to go to the bathroom. BUT, I was just soooooo sleepy and tired, probably due to the wine that I was feeling rather lazy about getting up to go. Several times, I stalled. Finally, I was in the bathroom and about to relieve myself and thought, "Damn, it's just "not enough light", I gotta turn the light on to see the toilet bowl. I reached over to the switch and took my finger and quickly hit the pertruding wall switch and YIKES! My finger went right through the switch without turning the light on!!! (During the OBE you are on a different frequency than the one we live on in the physical body. The physical frequency we exist on is a much heavier, dense, one. Out of body we move to a higher, much lighter frequency. Therefore, this enables us to move quickly and more easily. We are able to pass through walls, doors, etc. without effort. I do no believe that this information is any kind of far out mystery. By speaking to a Physicist/Scientist, it can be explain much more clearly than I would be able to do here for you.) "False awakening", I thought immediately! I was out of my body getting ready to relieve myself. The surprise of it all jerked me back into my physical body in bed. I then sat up and did things the right way. I got out of the bed, went to the bathroom and turned the light switch on and did what I had to do.
Several weeks later, it dawned on me. I thought to myself one day while resting on my bed, "That night there was some light in that bathroom, but not quite enough? I had not turned on the light?" I was very intrigued now. I stood up and said to myself, as I looked around the apartment and at the clock on the mantle and said to myself, "It is 3:30 p.m. in the afternoon and this apartment is very well lit". And this incident happened at night. No lights were on. The bathroom was right next to my bedroom and I turned no light on to go there, since I could see how to get there easily without doing so in the dark. I immediately walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind me as I supposedly had done that night. It was pitched black. I thought I would try this agin that night. That night I did the same proceedure that I had done in the daytime. Both with the bathroom door open and then closed. Totally black ..... the bathroom was very small, no windows. I stood there for a few minutes and then the thought came to me.......... "The light was coming from YOU!" Now, I will just tell you what thoughts went through my mind? "I was only dimly putting out light because I was still alive. Whenever I encountered people in the OBE that had died, they seemed to be lit up from INSIDE, like bright florescent light bulbs. They seemed to glow with light. Maybe all of their light was with them due to the fact that they were no longer physical beings. Now they were LIGHT! Or OF THE LIGHT! or IN THE LIGHT! I had not taken my entire essence with me to the bathroom that night, only some of me, that is why it was not bright enough for me to view the toilet? Or maybe it was the wine? Too much wine? Because sometimes, I now remember that entire rooms were lit up when I was out of body. I also now remember that everything in a room in the out of body seemed to have a "glow around it". I remembered now when Mother had told me she had seen my apartment "differently" when she was high towards the ceiling looking down at it. She said, "everything seemed to glow" and it was beautiful!" I started to think about religious things like The Bible and when Christ mentioned, "................those of the Light!" Or when Moses came back to his people after having visited God...his face was so brightly lit that he had to wear a covering over it for a few days. I thought of all of the classical artists whom had painted religious figures, such as Saints, Angels, etc. with Halos over their heads. Why??? I believed more than ever when Sylvan Muldoon said, that faith in believing things no longer has to be so difficult when you start to "see" things with one's own eyes. All of this started to give me the incentive to find out more about what was going on here that I am missing out on. There is lots to be found out about ME/US. What are we? Who are we? Why are we here? WHAT IS GOING ON?
FEAR! That is the enemy. We FEAR what we cannot see. We FEAR what we cannot hear. We FEAR the unknown. (Why must we assume the UNKNOWN is BAD?) We mostly seem to FEAR all that is "seen" immediately by the human eye. We grow up to become fearful adults. Children are not afraid of anything much unless we teach them to be...... Unless we permit a child to taste ice cream, they could very easily "fear it". Believe it or not, children only become fearful of the dark because they spend most of their time in the LIGHT. I discovered during the OBEs, there is another kind of so called, DARK. It is what I have come to know as, DARKER THAN DARK. BLACKER THAN BLACK. I would not be able to really discribe this to you, but I will try a little. There is this darkness and blackness that is, deep, rich and soft. It is a velvet black like nothing I have ever seen before. It is silent and rich in texture. You can "feel" it. It is thick and you can feel it or touch it. It is alive! It does not seem to produce FEAR. It is almost comforting. It seems to have great depth. Maybe you can imagine it.....but I realized it when I was having an OBE or in some states of Meditation. More later......
Love and Light,
Marshall
When I got home I went immediately to bed and to sleep. I suppose due to the intake of wine that evening, at some point I woke up and wanted very much to go to the bathroom. BUT, I was just soooooo sleepy and tired, probably due to the wine that I was feeling rather lazy about getting up to go. Several times, I stalled. Finally, I was in the bathroom and about to relieve myself and thought, "Damn, it's just "not enough light", I gotta turn the light on to see the toilet bowl. I reached over to the switch and took my finger and quickly hit the pertruding wall switch and YIKES! My finger went right through the switch without turning the light on!!! (During the OBE you are on a different frequency than the one we live on in the physical body. The physical frequency we exist on is a much heavier, dense, one. Out of body we move to a higher, much lighter frequency. Therefore, this enables us to move quickly and more easily. We are able to pass through walls, doors, etc. without effort. I do no believe that this information is any kind of far out mystery. By speaking to a Physicist/Scientist, it can be explain much more clearly than I would be able to do here for you.) "False awakening", I thought immediately! I was out of my body getting ready to relieve myself. The surprise of it all jerked me back into my physical body in bed. I then sat up and did things the right way. I got out of the bed, went to the bathroom and turned the light switch on and did what I had to do.
Several weeks later, it dawned on me. I thought to myself one day while resting on my bed, "That night there was some light in that bathroom, but not quite enough? I had not turned on the light?" I was very intrigued now. I stood up and said to myself, as I looked around the apartment and at the clock on the mantle and said to myself, "It is 3:30 p.m. in the afternoon and this apartment is very well lit". And this incident happened at night. No lights were on. The bathroom was right next to my bedroom and I turned no light on to go there, since I could see how to get there easily without doing so in the dark. I immediately walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind me as I supposedly had done that night. It was pitched black. I thought I would try this agin that night. That night I did the same proceedure that I had done in the daytime. Both with the bathroom door open and then closed. Totally black ..... the bathroom was very small, no windows. I stood there for a few minutes and then the thought came to me.......... "The light was coming from YOU!" Now, I will just tell you what thoughts went through my mind? "I was only dimly putting out light because I was still alive. Whenever I encountered people in the OBE that had died, they seemed to be lit up from INSIDE, like bright florescent light bulbs. They seemed to glow with light. Maybe all of their light was with them due to the fact that they were no longer physical beings. Now they were LIGHT! Or OF THE LIGHT! or IN THE LIGHT! I had not taken my entire essence with me to the bathroom that night, only some of me, that is why it was not bright enough for me to view the toilet? Or maybe it was the wine? Too much wine? Because sometimes, I now remember that entire rooms were lit up when I was out of body. I also now remember that everything in a room in the out of body seemed to have a "glow around it". I remembered now when Mother had told me she had seen my apartment "differently" when she was high towards the ceiling looking down at it. She said, "everything seemed to glow" and it was beautiful!" I started to think about religious things like The Bible and when Christ mentioned, "................those of the Light!" Or when Moses came back to his people after having visited God...his face was so brightly lit that he had to wear a covering over it for a few days. I thought of all of the classical artists whom had painted religious figures, such as Saints, Angels, etc. with Halos over their heads. Why??? I believed more than ever when Sylvan Muldoon said, that faith in believing things no longer has to be so difficult when you start to "see" things with one's own eyes. All of this started to give me the incentive to find out more about what was going on here that I am missing out on. There is lots to be found out about ME/US. What are we? Who are we? Why are we here? WHAT IS GOING ON?
FEAR! That is the enemy. We FEAR what we cannot see. We FEAR what we cannot hear. We FEAR the unknown. (Why must we assume the UNKNOWN is BAD?) We mostly seem to FEAR all that is "seen" immediately by the human eye. We grow up to become fearful adults. Children are not afraid of anything much unless we teach them to be...... Unless we permit a child to taste ice cream, they could very easily "fear it". Believe it or not, children only become fearful of the dark because they spend most of their time in the LIGHT. I discovered during the OBEs, there is another kind of so called, DARK. It is what I have come to know as, DARKER THAN DARK. BLACKER THAN BLACK. I would not be able to really discribe this to you, but I will try a little. There is this darkness and blackness that is, deep, rich and soft. It is a velvet black like nothing I have ever seen before. It is silent and rich in texture. You can "feel" it. It is thick and you can feel it or touch it. It is alive! It does not seem to produce FEAR. It is almost comforting. It seems to have great depth. Maybe you can imagine it.....but I realized it when I was having an OBE or in some states of Meditation. More later......
Love and Light,
Marshall
Thursday, October 15, 2009
THE ELECTRO MAGNETIC FIELD WE HAVE
Finding out so much information about OBEs and NDEs, it became very clear to me about how much we are a part of an Electro Magnetic Field of existence. Sometimes when coming back from an OBE I notices how the electrical static seemed to surround my lips. I seemed to feel the static shooting from my lips when I would return to my body. With time I also learned in my research how this was also working on the human body.
I remember how frustrating it all was about Anderson's problems with his watches and any kinds or jewelry he would wear. I also first noticed it with his Mother. I had not seen her in years and I remember the first time I asked her the question as to why she never wore any kinds of jewelry? I was getting a first hand tip on what was happening to those who had NDEs or OBEs dealing with metallic items and electrical items. She told me that she was unable to keep from loosing any kinds of jewelry due to the fact that they always within a short period of time, days or a few weeks become very loose and fall off? It was interesting, because I felt blessed when I gave her a pair of beautiful gold earrings and she put them on and they never fell off! (Even more so, since I had been shown the case full of jewelry she had for years collected that was not being worn due to the fact that they would fall off and be lost).
Anderson's luck was worst. A beautiful Rolex watch for his birthday and the damn thing stopped working within weeks! My first trip to return it to the top-notched place I had purchased it in New York City was easy........ BUT, shortly thereafter, it stopped again. Back to the store and two weeks of waiting for its repair. Returned and he wore it a few more weeks and .....it stopped? The jeweler said it was absolutely nothing wrong with the watch and attempted to prove it. They even offered to send the watch to Europe for a repair if needed, but did not believe it needed a repair and became totally mystified and wanted very much to get to the bottom of this situation. When it was returned from Europe the jewelers had been told that the watch was in perfect working condition and that they were all very confused as to why it was sent to them for assessment???
Well, we had someone else wear the watch for awhile on its return and it seemed to work just fine. Anderson began to wear it again and ........IT STOPPED? He loved that watch and refused to give it up. (The jewelers had offered to take it back by then). Well, I insisted on having it replaced, which we did AND......... He wore it all the time, most of the time keeping the incorrect time or stopping.
One day I noticed something..... His crucifix would constantly leave a serious imprint on his neck. His rings would do the same AND the rings always seemed to just fall off of his finger with time. They seemed to not fit suddenly for some reason???
With time I found out something about myself that was disturbing and almost laughable to me most of the times. I had major problems with phones, but never with jewelry. Especially, Freedom Phones..... The phone company was a regular visitor to my apartment. They would need to go to the main boxes outside to find the problem. It was always the same problem. "Mr. Hill, it seems to only be happening with your connections!" Even when I would move to another area.........THE SAME PROBLEM. Eventually, I moved out of town, Aahahahahhahahah, (not due to the phone problems) and, THE SAME PROBLEM. Recently, I moved and the phone company re-wired from outside in, ONLY my phone connections due to problems on the line for my phone! The rest of the area, including the others in the dwelling I live in...had no problems?
I have no idea why I have always found this so funny? But I have always ended up laughing about it. I was always messing with electricity. I would fix things with glee and most would wonder why I had not been electricuted??? Once, I decided to repair a dimmer for a light in my hallway. I thought I was such a pro, I went to turn off all of the circuit breakers and was set to go to work on the project. I was half way successful on this particular project. When my assistant came in the next day, I said, you know I want you to take a look at something here in the wall, I cannot seem to get it to work totally? He said, let me take a look. (By the way, that person was Gerard!) I was downstairs in the workshop when he called me. I ran up and he said, "Look at this!" I looked at a pair of steel cutters in his hand that had been "cut in half by electricity!" The brown and black burn marks were all over the cutters. I said to him, "But we turned off the circuit breakers???" We decided not to go further and I would call the landlord and have him take care of this job. Which I did. My landlord told me to just call an electrician and have him take care of it. The electrician arrived and assessed the job. He said to me, "Okay, I can take care of this....where are the circuit breakers?" I showed him. He looked at me and said, "Those are NOT the circuit breakers for this. Let's go to the basement. We went and he opened a steel door on one of the walls and said, "Here is the circuit breaker for where I need to fix the problem". I smiled and said, "Really?" He said, "Yes". I replied, "Interesting". Then we went back to the dimmer and he looked at me and said, "You go stand all the way down there........!" (This was a couple of hundred feet from him). I said, "Why?" He looked at me and said, "Because if I get electricuted, even with those breakers turned off, I will be thrown quite a few feet and I might hit you." I said, "okay" as I walked away thinking to myself........."Wow! I thought I had turned the circuit breakers off yesterday. I had no idea that they were in the basement???"
I remember Gerard and I sometimes during our analysis of what had happened during an OBE, we would ask each other the same question repeatedly, WHERE DO YOU THINK THAT "LIGHT" IS COMING FROM? We both had discovered that during an OBE when we would rise up from our beds in a pitch black room, there would always be this "glowing white light" that would seem to light up the area where we were moving about in during the experience. Well, I discovered where that light was coming from many, many months later. IT WAS ANOTHER AMAZING DISCOVERY FOR ME!!! I will tell you about it next time.........................................
Love and Light!
Marshall
I remember how frustrating it all was about Anderson's problems with his watches and any kinds or jewelry he would wear. I also first noticed it with his Mother. I had not seen her in years and I remember the first time I asked her the question as to why she never wore any kinds of jewelry? I was getting a first hand tip on what was happening to those who had NDEs or OBEs dealing with metallic items and electrical items. She told me that she was unable to keep from loosing any kinds of jewelry due to the fact that they always within a short period of time, days or a few weeks become very loose and fall off? It was interesting, because I felt blessed when I gave her a pair of beautiful gold earrings and she put them on and they never fell off! (Even more so, since I had been shown the case full of jewelry she had for years collected that was not being worn due to the fact that they would fall off and be lost).
Anderson's luck was worst. A beautiful Rolex watch for his birthday and the damn thing stopped working within weeks! My first trip to return it to the top-notched place I had purchased it in New York City was easy........ BUT, shortly thereafter, it stopped again. Back to the store and two weeks of waiting for its repair. Returned and he wore it a few more weeks and .....it stopped? The jeweler said it was absolutely nothing wrong with the watch and attempted to prove it. They even offered to send the watch to Europe for a repair if needed, but did not believe it needed a repair and became totally mystified and wanted very much to get to the bottom of this situation. When it was returned from Europe the jewelers had been told that the watch was in perfect working condition and that they were all very confused as to why it was sent to them for assessment???
Well, we had someone else wear the watch for awhile on its return and it seemed to work just fine. Anderson began to wear it again and ........IT STOPPED? He loved that watch and refused to give it up. (The jewelers had offered to take it back by then). Well, I insisted on having it replaced, which we did AND......... He wore it all the time, most of the time keeping the incorrect time or stopping.
One day I noticed something..... His crucifix would constantly leave a serious imprint on his neck. His rings would do the same AND the rings always seemed to just fall off of his finger with time. They seemed to not fit suddenly for some reason???
With time I found out something about myself that was disturbing and almost laughable to me most of the times. I had major problems with phones, but never with jewelry. Especially, Freedom Phones..... The phone company was a regular visitor to my apartment. They would need to go to the main boxes outside to find the problem. It was always the same problem. "Mr. Hill, it seems to only be happening with your connections!" Even when I would move to another area.........THE SAME PROBLEM. Eventually, I moved out of town, Aahahahahhahahah, (not due to the phone problems) and, THE SAME PROBLEM. Recently, I moved and the phone company re-wired from outside in, ONLY my phone connections due to problems on the line for my phone! The rest of the area, including the others in the dwelling I live in...had no problems?
I have no idea why I have always found this so funny? But I have always ended up laughing about it. I was always messing with electricity. I would fix things with glee and most would wonder why I had not been electricuted??? Once, I decided to repair a dimmer for a light in my hallway. I thought I was such a pro, I went to turn off all of the circuit breakers and was set to go to work on the project. I was half way successful on this particular project. When my assistant came in the next day, I said, you know I want you to take a look at something here in the wall, I cannot seem to get it to work totally? He said, let me take a look. (By the way, that person was Gerard!) I was downstairs in the workshop when he called me. I ran up and he said, "Look at this!" I looked at a pair of steel cutters in his hand that had been "cut in half by electricity!" The brown and black burn marks were all over the cutters. I said to him, "But we turned off the circuit breakers???" We decided not to go further and I would call the landlord and have him take care of this job. Which I did. My landlord told me to just call an electrician and have him take care of it. The electrician arrived and assessed the job. He said to me, "Okay, I can take care of this....where are the circuit breakers?" I showed him. He looked at me and said, "Those are NOT the circuit breakers for this. Let's go to the basement. We went and he opened a steel door on one of the walls and said, "Here is the circuit breaker for where I need to fix the problem". I smiled and said, "Really?" He said, "Yes". I replied, "Interesting". Then we went back to the dimmer and he looked at me and said, "You go stand all the way down there........!" (This was a couple of hundred feet from him). I said, "Why?" He looked at me and said, "Because if I get electricuted, even with those breakers turned off, I will be thrown quite a few feet and I might hit you." I said, "okay" as I walked away thinking to myself........."Wow! I thought I had turned the circuit breakers off yesterday. I had no idea that they were in the basement???"
I remember Gerard and I sometimes during our analysis of what had happened during an OBE, we would ask each other the same question repeatedly, WHERE DO YOU THINK THAT "LIGHT" IS COMING FROM? We both had discovered that during an OBE when we would rise up from our beds in a pitch black room, there would always be this "glowing white light" that would seem to light up the area where we were moving about in during the experience. Well, I discovered where that light was coming from many, many months later. IT WAS ANOTHER AMAZING DISCOVERY FOR ME!!! I will tell you about it next time.........................................
Love and Light!
Marshall
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
THE HOSPITAL STAYS WITH ANDERSON 24/7
My hospital time spent with Anderson was 24/7 of course and I will always remember the compassion everybody there, the Doctors, the Nurses and the entire Administration Staff showed to us both. It was as if I lived there for those weeks spent not accepting the fact that he seemed to be putting on a very good "show" for me to give me the impression he was going to be "ok". (Little did I know at the time that he had even made arrangements with the various physicians to give me the impression that with time, they would make everything alright and he would be his old self again and I would not have to worry anymore!)
One morning, as I arrived he looked at me with those huge saucer sized eyes with an expression of "awe!" "Hey, listen!" he said without even greeting me. "I have something to tell you" "What?" I replied. "I want to tell you about something that happened last night to me. I think you would be interested in this, because it's kinda like things I heard you speak about in the past". I calmly asked what he wanted to tell me about? He went on. "Last night I had to go to the bathroom to pee. I got up out of the bed and went into the bathroom. Releived myself and then opened the bathroom door to come out and headed for the bed and stopped immediately! I said, "What happened???" He continued, "I looked at my bed and I was already in it?" I said, "What?" He repeated, "I was already in the bed. Under the covers in the bed sleeping." I said, "What did you do? Are you sure? Could you feel the floor under your feet?" He said, "Yes. I just stood there looking at the bed and me in it. I was confused?" "Confused?" I replied. "Yes. I did not know what to do? I got nervous and kind of in a panic! I started to think to myself, what am I gonna do now? What if one of the Nurses comes in here and finds TWO of me??? One in the bed and one of me here standing???" I smiled and said, "Andy what did you do?" He looked at me and calmly said, "I decided to hurry and try to get back in the bed and get as close as I could to the me in the bed and maybe no one would notice if they came in". I laughed out loud. I went over and hugged him and said...... "You are funny...." But in all seriousness, I was very surprised by this information he had given me. I then looked him in the eye and bluntly asked, "This morning, before I got here, were your sheets changed? He almost yelled at me, "WHAT???" I said, "Anderson, answer the question. You know I need to know". "Yeah, seems I wet the bed last night? Suddenly I am a Bedwetter, at my age! I have never wet the bed in my life as I know of!" I explained to him about what I had discovered about that type of thing long ago. Then I suddenly got butterflies in my stomach. I looked at him and said something to him that we had discussed years ago.... I said, "Hey, if something were to happen to you, will you make contact with me and let me know what's going on?" He very seriously replied to me, "I don't know if that will be permitted?" I said, "But if you can, will you?"
He quietly responded, "Okay".
The next evening, I was sitting in his room after dinner quietly thinking....... There was silence between us, when suddenly, he just spoke out and said, "Do you still want me to get in touch with you?" I said, "Yes". He replied, "Then I will".
More later.............
Love and Light!
Marshall
One morning, as I arrived he looked at me with those huge saucer sized eyes with an expression of "awe!" "Hey, listen!" he said without even greeting me. "I have something to tell you" "What?" I replied. "I want to tell you about something that happened last night to me. I think you would be interested in this, because it's kinda like things I heard you speak about in the past". I calmly asked what he wanted to tell me about? He went on. "Last night I had to go to the bathroom to pee. I got up out of the bed and went into the bathroom. Releived myself and then opened the bathroom door to come out and headed for the bed and stopped immediately! I said, "What happened???" He continued, "I looked at my bed and I was already in it?" I said, "What?" He repeated, "I was already in the bed. Under the covers in the bed sleeping." I said, "What did you do? Are you sure? Could you feel the floor under your feet?" He said, "Yes. I just stood there looking at the bed and me in it. I was confused?" "Confused?" I replied. "Yes. I did not know what to do? I got nervous and kind of in a panic! I started to think to myself, what am I gonna do now? What if one of the Nurses comes in here and finds TWO of me??? One in the bed and one of me here standing???" I smiled and said, "Andy what did you do?" He looked at me and calmly said, "I decided to hurry and try to get back in the bed and get as close as I could to the me in the bed and maybe no one would notice if they came in". I laughed out loud. I went over and hugged him and said...... "You are funny...." But in all seriousness, I was very surprised by this information he had given me. I then looked him in the eye and bluntly asked, "This morning, before I got here, were your sheets changed? He almost yelled at me, "WHAT???" I said, "Anderson, answer the question. You know I need to know". "Yeah, seems I wet the bed last night? Suddenly I am a Bedwetter, at my age! I have never wet the bed in my life as I know of!" I explained to him about what I had discovered about that type of thing long ago. Then I suddenly got butterflies in my stomach. I looked at him and said something to him that we had discussed years ago.... I said, "Hey, if something were to happen to you, will you make contact with me and let me know what's going on?" He very seriously replied to me, "I don't know if that will be permitted?" I said, "But if you can, will you?"
He quietly responded, "Okay".
The next evening, I was sitting in his room after dinner quietly thinking....... There was silence between us, when suddenly, he just spoke out and said, "Do you still want me to get in touch with you?" I said, "Yes". He replied, "Then I will".
More later.............
Love and Light!
Marshall
Monday, October 12, 2009
THE AGREEMENTS WE MADE BEFORE ARRIVING HERE
Several years ago I had the pleasure of meeting, William Buhlman, the author of the best selling book, ADVENTURES BEYOND THE BODY. I would recommend his book to you if you are intrigued by OBEs. Around the same period of time, I also got lucky and met Betty Eady, the author of EMBRACED BY THE LIGHT! A book about her experience when having a Near Death Experience. Which is somewhat similar to the OBEs. The most extraordinary thing about her story is how she was exposed to the fact that "we do not die and what there is that our physical eyes are not really able to "see" beyond our everyday lifes". Dr. Raymond Moody considered the pioneer of this subject wrote the classic, LIFE AFTER LIFE.
I mentioned before that it is my belief due to the many OBEs I have experienced, that we actually, plan and arrange each life we choose to live on this planet. It is quite obvious that the Universe does not make mistakes. We all arrive here with our blueprints of what we will be doing to advance our souls. Good or Bad. Bad or Good.
That is why apon reading Caroline Myss's, book, SACRED CONTRACTS, it all put much of the puzzle for me, together! Dr. Myss is a Medical Intuitive and Mystic. She made it all make sense to me about living out our lives. Of course I was not aware of that before reading her works, so therefore, "Yikes! I have screwed up quite a bit!" Aahahahhha!
We make contracts with all of those who travel in our groups here on earth and then we play out our roles in order to achieve our goals in spiritual development. Once we have made the contracts before arriving here, it would be to our advantage to honor them... That is why I believe very strongly after having discovered this, that there are so many of us who get totally distracted from our business at hand so to speak. Many of us are totally unable to work them out in spite of our various group members who step in to help as promised before arriving.
I believe abusing, alcohol, drugs, sex, etc. are only devices and side-tracking obstacles that will get in our way or distract us from "doing the job". During our many incarnations we will come in contact with not only the ones that are supportive and willing to move forward with us, but those that become weak or "forget" what their purposes were before getting here to work out our various negative situations. I also have come to the conclusion that it starts to become very "clear" and "simple" to comprehend when one MEDITATES and has the abilities to have OBEs. These are the pathways to understanding and opening our higher self's to "see" things more clearly. And let me not forget the most important of all for me, AGING, GROWING OLDER....it brings experience and understanding as to what I have been doing all my life.
Yes, many of us believe when we are moving along on this earth that we are "fabulous!" We have youth, energy, and we are strong and powerful. Unfortunately, I discovered that WE LOOSE OUR SIGHT, OUR ABILITY TO "SEE" BEYOND PHYSICAL REALITY WHAT IS REAL AND WHAT IS VAPID THINKING. Moving so quickly causes many of us to not to be able to view what is surrounding us clearly.
Now in my older years and after having had so many OBEs (I will share more with you later). I have noticed the strangest things... I observe people taking tremendous amounts of drugs to escape from life. Some become so numb to everything they have no thoughts. I see people obsessed with searching for sexual partners and indulging in sex acts 24/7. Sometimes I think about our society's idea of the wonderful and correct way of lifestyles.... When I see so many young guys walking down the street with their pants hanging down to their ankles and holding hands with a girlfriend or lover or even pushing a baby carriage and I think to myself....DO YOU HAVE A JOB? I wonder to myself that this is such a drag, the responsibility that comes with this is not even thought about by these people. It's more important the "look". It takes awhile for them to realize that they ARE NOT WORKING ON THEIR SACRED CONTRACTS? "BUT" here is where it all gets very complexed. There are many spirits/souls preparing to choose to come into these lifestyles to advance themselves. How? By choice! We do not accidently end up with these losers, we "choose" to join this group. We "know them" and we will possibly work out our various lessons and situations that need corrections with these other souls. Many will become great loving and inspirational entities to mankind and some will be distracted by striving to have the most "fabulous cell phone" that does amazing things! What I am attempting to relate to you is that I have "seen" very interesting things in the OBEs that have put major ALERTS in front of me to help me to become aware of WHAT IS GOING ON HERE! When our higher selves are opened wide, we come to realize that it can never be closed or narrowed again. What I sincerely believe is that we have been alerted to the fact, that we are eternal. Also, very important ....... IF WE DO NOT ATTEMPT TO DEAL WITH IT AND CORRECT IT THIS TIME, WE WILL CERTAINLY HAVE TO FACE UP TO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN, UNTIL WE GET IT RIGHT!
Unfortunately, so many have such controlling and over-protective parents that are determined to have their off springs be EXACTLY at they are and lead the same lifestyles, etc. This unfortunately destroys any kinds of individuality the child wishes to develop and also thwarts his/her future in working out any issues one has come here to resolve. There is so much more, but for now let's not forget those OBEs which I want to share with you and for you to eventually experience yourselves in order to "see" for yourself the truly uplifting and soul changing adventures you might witness for yourself. More later................
Love and Light!
Marshall
I mentioned before that it is my belief due to the many OBEs I have experienced, that we actually, plan and arrange each life we choose to live on this planet. It is quite obvious that the Universe does not make mistakes. We all arrive here with our blueprints of what we will be doing to advance our souls. Good or Bad. Bad or Good.
That is why apon reading Caroline Myss's, book, SACRED CONTRACTS, it all put much of the puzzle for me, together! Dr. Myss is a Medical Intuitive and Mystic. She made it all make sense to me about living out our lives. Of course I was not aware of that before reading her works, so therefore, "Yikes! I have screwed up quite a bit!" Aahahahhha!
We make contracts with all of those who travel in our groups here on earth and then we play out our roles in order to achieve our goals in spiritual development. Once we have made the contracts before arriving here, it would be to our advantage to honor them... That is why I believe very strongly after having discovered this, that there are so many of us who get totally distracted from our business at hand so to speak. Many of us are totally unable to work them out in spite of our various group members who step in to help as promised before arriving.
I believe abusing, alcohol, drugs, sex, etc. are only devices and side-tracking obstacles that will get in our way or distract us from "doing the job". During our many incarnations we will come in contact with not only the ones that are supportive and willing to move forward with us, but those that become weak or "forget" what their purposes were before getting here to work out our various negative situations. I also have come to the conclusion that it starts to become very "clear" and "simple" to comprehend when one MEDITATES and has the abilities to have OBEs. These are the pathways to understanding and opening our higher self's to "see" things more clearly. And let me not forget the most important of all for me, AGING, GROWING OLDER....it brings experience and understanding as to what I have been doing all my life.
Yes, many of us believe when we are moving along on this earth that we are "fabulous!" We have youth, energy, and we are strong and powerful. Unfortunately, I discovered that WE LOOSE OUR SIGHT, OUR ABILITY TO "SEE" BEYOND PHYSICAL REALITY WHAT IS REAL AND WHAT IS VAPID THINKING. Moving so quickly causes many of us to not to be able to view what is surrounding us clearly.
Now in my older years and after having had so many OBEs (I will share more with you later). I have noticed the strangest things... I observe people taking tremendous amounts of drugs to escape from life. Some become so numb to everything they have no thoughts. I see people obsessed with searching for sexual partners and indulging in sex acts 24/7. Sometimes I think about our society's idea of the wonderful and correct way of lifestyles.... When I see so many young guys walking down the street with their pants hanging down to their ankles and holding hands with a girlfriend or lover or even pushing a baby carriage and I think to myself....DO YOU HAVE A JOB? I wonder to myself that this is such a drag, the responsibility that comes with this is not even thought about by these people. It's more important the "look". It takes awhile for them to realize that they ARE NOT WORKING ON THEIR SACRED CONTRACTS? "BUT" here is where it all gets very complexed. There are many spirits/souls preparing to choose to come into these lifestyles to advance themselves. How? By choice! We do not accidently end up with these losers, we "choose" to join this group. We "know them" and we will possibly work out our various lessons and situations that need corrections with these other souls. Many will become great loving and inspirational entities to mankind and some will be distracted by striving to have the most "fabulous cell phone" that does amazing things! What I am attempting to relate to you is that I have "seen" very interesting things in the OBEs that have put major ALERTS in front of me to help me to become aware of WHAT IS GOING ON HERE! When our higher selves are opened wide, we come to realize that it can never be closed or narrowed again. What I sincerely believe is that we have been alerted to the fact, that we are eternal. Also, very important ....... IF WE DO NOT ATTEMPT TO DEAL WITH IT AND CORRECT IT THIS TIME, WE WILL CERTAINLY HAVE TO FACE UP TO IT AGAIN AND AGAIN, UNTIL WE GET IT RIGHT!
Unfortunately, so many have such controlling and over-protective parents that are determined to have their off springs be EXACTLY at they are and lead the same lifestyles, etc. This unfortunately destroys any kinds of individuality the child wishes to develop and also thwarts his/her future in working out any issues one has come here to resolve. There is so much more, but for now let's not forget those OBEs which I want to share with you and for you to eventually experience yourselves in order to "see" for yourself the truly uplifting and soul changing adventures you might witness for yourself. More later................
Love and Light!
Marshall
Sunday, October 11, 2009
KIM AND AARON
KIM AND ARRON
During our journey on this planet I believe that we all travel within a circle of people whom we have known for uncountable times during our past incarnations.
Why have I come to believe this with time came as a surprise to me during my OBEs.
In Metaphysics, I always seemed to move away from "Reincarnation" whenever the subject was presented to me. Why? At the time, I just did not accept it as being something "real" to me or my ideas. Due to my many OBEs I began to accept it as something "very real". I started to investigated it more and more. Just as I had with Astral Projection. There are many, many books and siminars on the subject and many are very informative. One of my favorites is, Dr. Brian Weiss's book, MANY LIVES, MANY MASTERS. Also, any of the research or writing of Ian Stevenson, who is considered one of the really outstanding authorities on the subject. I will attempt while writing this Blog to share many experiences with you that I have to come to discover about "Other Livestimes". Permit me to start with this one:I had my art gallery for a number of years when I first met two people who worked at another store in the same complex. They were brother and sister. First I met Aaron. This was a truly gifted young man, both artistically and intellectually. I should tell you why I was given the opportunity to meet so many people in various areas of life. I was an established and very well known Artist at the time and it gave me the previledge of having people of interest approach me all the time. There were some that I considered myself "lucky" to know. Aaron and Kim were two of them. Aaron and I became friends due to the fact that we had so much in common, in spite of the fact that there was a tremendous age difference between us. I was the "Old Man", and he was the "Kid". We met in the store he was working in one day when I came to visit my friend who owned and employed Aaron in the store. My friend was not there. I was ready to leave after finding this out, but Aaron, obviously knew who I was and had seen my work and was very complimentary and wished to chat. We did. This was the beginning of a very good relationship. We had so much in common. Metaphysics was definitely one of them. I also discovered that for a person so young, he had a whole lot more going about the knowledge of spiritualism than I really had acquired at that time. Also, we were both "totally crazy" (in a good way). Always laughing, always joking, always being outrageous! BUT.......I noticed something else, in spite of this, he was very respectful to me due to my seniority and I definitely noticed it.
Much time passed and one day I was making my usual trip past the store hoping to catch my friend who was the Owner and when I arrived, there was a teen aged girl working behind the counter. After she told me that my friend was not there on this day, I looked at her and said, "And who are you? Do you know Aaron?" She said, "Yes, I am his sister. My name is Kim". (She was Aaron's younger sister) Well, another person makes a major impact on me. She was beautiful and sweet as honey! We too became friends. But we had a different type of friendship. It was close, but less of the silliness and craziness her Brother had with me. Kim seemed to draw me to always be very protective and watchful about her welfare in her day to day adventures that she would always tell me about. With time, no matter how reclusive I was with my life, I was drawn or pulled into their life by them... They very rarely would accept a "No, sorry I cannot go or come" when invited by them to their home for various events. With time I met the entire family. Mother and Father and two more sisters. (They did get me to start to come out of my shell of saddness a lot.) I started to visit their home when invited and they shared many happy times with me in my home. There was a part of our life that I enjoyed.... (By the way, sorry, I am not speaking of them as if they are gone...out of my life now, Aahahahahha! They are still very much a part of my life)
What I appreciated was whenever we had a gathering, a party, dinner, etc. EVERYBODY was welcome to be there! Family and Friends. And Kim and Aaron never failed to treat me very special. I could "feel" their love for me and I hope they could "feel" how much I loved them as well. You always "know" when you are loved whenever you feel very comfortable and relaxed in those times of sharing each others company.
Aaron continues to establish himself as a distinguished Photographer/Artist and Kim has grown from a young teenage to a young married lady. Kim has done amazing work as a Sales Associates in my gallery throught the years.
I will bring this together now in relationship to OBEs (and possibly the subject of Reincarnation).
Several years ago having an OBE in the morning and the scene was absolutely clear to me. I was standing in a very conservatively decorated house. I knew it was ME. But it was not ME physically as I see myself presently. I was a rather middle-aged, very conservative (I could "feel" this attitude) man. I could "see" myself, physically. I was standing in a living room. It looked very familiar and the entire decor was as clear as day! I felt I had just arrived from work. I was wearing a full suit and tie. I noticed something very interesting, I was Asian. (That is not my present race.) I was in no way surprised. I just was ME. I knew I was "another person", but I was still ME. Behind me standing and speaking to me was a boy about 12 or 13, and behind him was a little girl playfully jumping around the carpeted floor. I could "see" them both without seeming to turn my head in their direction. I said, "Calm down. Prepare for dinner". I "knew" I was a strict, yet calm Father to them. Within seconds, the two children and another person, a woman, whom I "knew" was my wife and the mother of the boy and girl, they all stood almost at attention in front of me. The woman whom I assumed was my wife had her head bowed towards the floor. I could not see her face? I could only see that she was wearing a flowered dress and black mid-heels. I immediately came out of the catalyptic state of paralysis and sat up in bed. My first thoughts and words to myself were....... WAS THAT AARON? WAS THAT LITTLE GIRL PLAYING, KIM??? (By the way, Kim and Aaron are Asian) And then a feeling of slight fear, as I thought, WHO WAS THAT WOMAN? WHY WAS I NOT PERMITTED TO SEE HER FACE???
Well, I certainly remember important notes made by persons such as Shakti Gawain and other Metaphysical leaders. "Trust your gut thoughts! Your first thoughts or opinions!" Do not take the time and start to attempt to "analyze them, because that is when you will start to think and consider things with your "lower self"....the part of you that attempts to MAKE THINGS THE WAY YOU WANT THEM TO BE, NOT THE WAY THEY REALLY ARE! Well, those thoughts and words came to my mind without even me giving the OBE scene a second thought. AND.....the part of the scene that concerned me was the woman whose face I could not "see?"
Now, my higher self has told me that my dear friend, when we discussed this experience, was telling me the absolute truth when she responded to my question of her as to "Why?" I could not see this woman's face??? These are her words:
"Marshall, you could not see this woman's face, due to the fact that in all probability, you would not have been able to handle that part of the scene in the OBE." My friend had made it very clear to me, that as with anything else in our evolment and development in our spiritual awakening, we will be given all that is desired at the time appropriate for us to "handle it".
More later.........
Love and Light!
Marshall
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
LIVING BEYOND BELIEF
Hi,
I discovered with time that I had acquired the ability to help or teach others to project beyond their physical bodies and discovered the amazing information for themselves just as I had done so. I also knew for sure deep in side, that this was not something to be used as a recreational sport of sorts. It was a gift to discover more about our existence on this earth and answers to questions. (By the way, if you are looking to use OBEs to find personal financial wealth, if someone if in love with you or not?, spying for various reasons. It doesn't work! Even the Government tried it and it did not work for them.......)
I look back and remember how many close friends I lost to this life to AIDS during the outbreak of the epidemic and I stepped back and said to myself, OH MY GOD! I AM NOT THAT OLD YET, WHY HAVE SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS CROSSED OVER??? I felt very alone and abandoned. I remember one person in particular and we had been close friends for years. His name was Wayne Fischer and he was the first public school teacher to reveal publicly that he had the HIV/AIDS virus! He became an inspiration to so many young people that had no idea what this vicious virus was and what it could do to so many people. He spoke out on it and was informative and passionate about his convictions about this epidemic. I tell you about him because he is one of the first of those that left this dimension and I was able to find him in another dimension due to my abilities of having OBEs. It was not planned or thought out. I remember just very casually and naturally coming in contact with him one morning as I woke up. I suddenly went into the catalyptic state and found myself traveling in darkness and then arriving in what seemed to me, a hospital room. There he was sleeping in a bed and his brother, whom was very much alive, was standing next to him........ (I believe his brother was with him due to the fact that he had been transported in an unconscious projection during sleep. Wayne and his brother has several unresolved issues. I have "seen" this before during the OBEs. I saw with my Mother and her Mother, my Grandmother. It seems that it is the first situation one attempts to resolve when crossing over). Wayne was sleeping and seemed to be resting comfortably. His brother seemed to quietly and lovingly observe him... This became a very familiar scene to me with time with people who had crossed over after having suffered very serious illnesses and discomforts. It was that brief. Nothing else at that time. I of course was very quiet and concerned that day thinking about Wayne. Well, that was not the final meeting. Once again several months later........ Early morning, I moved a short distance from my physical body and found myself just viewing my beloved friend Wayne...... He was walking out of what seemed to be a School and many children surrounded him...... He looked GREAT! Healthy, clear eyed and a huge grin on his face! He simply turned to look at me and waved, and I got the feeling he was happy to see me and it was over. As simple as that...... Wayne was fine! I knew it in my soul, in my spirit! Wayne was happy and fine!!!
Sometime in the future when his niece, Bari Zahn got in touch with me to ask me if I would be willing to make a contribution to a foundation she had created in his memory, (Bari, ahahahhahaha, that little girl I knew was a woman now, an Attorney!!!) The contribution was "special" my being an Artist and creating artwork in my gallery for many years......She requested that I might donate something that would be the signature awards for the foundation at their annual events. I know now how much this has soothed my soul, knowing that I am still connected with my dear friend Wayne by having continued to do this for several years now and also how this foundation has developed over the years. http://www.livingbeyondbelief.org/ Being a part of this has only been "icing on the cake" for me. Because I know that Wayne is aware of my continued remembrance of his friendship to me, because I "saw" him and he saw me and he is once again whole. This particular OBE enabled me to make contact with a person who did so much for me when he was here physically. This was one of the most compassionate and loving and kind and caring persons ANYBODY could possibly have had the honor of knowing here on this earth.........and to have experienced an OBE involving him for me was a high-point of my life! His family then and now I feel the same about because this is a part of why we are here in this "earth school" .
This was one of the main persons who showed me very clearly that "we are all connected" to one another. I remember that part in The Bible where Christ said, LOVE ONE ANOTHER. In this world, we all really do need one another to take care and protect each other. It does not matter about the races and religions. I am or attended a Methodist Church most of my young life. Wayne was Jewish. There would be Holy Days and ceremonies when Wayne would say to me as well as some of our other friends, "Everybody should come over to my family's house for dinner and celebrations of the holy day!" I said, "But Wayne, I am not Jewish??? Wayne, would not even take a breath to speak...... He simply continued and said, "So what? Marshall I know you love Kosher dishes and you will find it interesting what goes on!" I also remember very vividly one day while a group of friends and myself were in Brasil on holiday and I suddenly realized, Wayne was wearing a Crucifix around his neck....I laughed and said, WAYNE, WHY ARE YOU WEARING A CRUCIFIX??? He looked at me and did not even "bat an eye" and said, BECAUSE IT'S BEAUTIFUL AND IT SYMBOLIZES SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT IN CHRISTIANITY". This was my friend and I miss him here now..........BUT, I believe I know where he is and he is FINE! WE ARE ALL CONNECTED and with THE PROJECTION OF THE ASTRAL BODY, we can all get a clearer understanding of "What is going on here!
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall
I discovered with time that I had acquired the ability to help or teach others to project beyond their physical bodies and discovered the amazing information for themselves just as I had done so. I also knew for sure deep in side, that this was not something to be used as a recreational sport of sorts. It was a gift to discover more about our existence on this earth and answers to questions. (By the way, if you are looking to use OBEs to find personal financial wealth, if someone if in love with you or not?, spying for various reasons. It doesn't work! Even the Government tried it and it did not work for them.......)
I look back and remember how many close friends I lost to this life to AIDS during the outbreak of the epidemic and I stepped back and said to myself, OH MY GOD! I AM NOT THAT OLD YET, WHY HAVE SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS CROSSED OVER??? I felt very alone and abandoned. I remember one person in particular and we had been close friends for years. His name was Wayne Fischer and he was the first public school teacher to reveal publicly that he had the HIV/AIDS virus! He became an inspiration to so many young people that had no idea what this vicious virus was and what it could do to so many people. He spoke out on it and was informative and passionate about his convictions about this epidemic. I tell you about him because he is one of the first of those that left this dimension and I was able to find him in another dimension due to my abilities of having OBEs. It was not planned or thought out. I remember just very casually and naturally coming in contact with him one morning as I woke up. I suddenly went into the catalyptic state and found myself traveling in darkness and then arriving in what seemed to me, a hospital room. There he was sleeping in a bed and his brother, whom was very much alive, was standing next to him........ (I believe his brother was with him due to the fact that he had been transported in an unconscious projection during sleep. Wayne and his brother has several unresolved issues. I have "seen" this before during the OBEs. I saw with my Mother and her Mother, my Grandmother. It seems that it is the first situation one attempts to resolve when crossing over). Wayne was sleeping and seemed to be resting comfortably. His brother seemed to quietly and lovingly observe him... This became a very familiar scene to me with time with people who had crossed over after having suffered very serious illnesses and discomforts. It was that brief. Nothing else at that time. I of course was very quiet and concerned that day thinking about Wayne. Well, that was not the final meeting. Once again several months later........ Early morning, I moved a short distance from my physical body and found myself just viewing my beloved friend Wayne...... He was walking out of what seemed to be a School and many children surrounded him...... He looked GREAT! Healthy, clear eyed and a huge grin on his face! He simply turned to look at me and waved, and I got the feeling he was happy to see me and it was over. As simple as that...... Wayne was fine! I knew it in my soul, in my spirit! Wayne was happy and fine!!!
Sometime in the future when his niece, Bari Zahn got in touch with me to ask me if I would be willing to make a contribution to a foundation she had created in his memory, (Bari, ahahahhahaha, that little girl I knew was a woman now, an Attorney!!!) The contribution was "special" my being an Artist and creating artwork in my gallery for many years......She requested that I might donate something that would be the signature awards for the foundation at their annual events. I know now how much this has soothed my soul, knowing that I am still connected with my dear friend Wayne by having continued to do this for several years now and also how this foundation has developed over the years. http://www.livingbeyondbelief.org/ Being a part of this has only been "icing on the cake" for me. Because I know that Wayne is aware of my continued remembrance of his friendship to me, because I "saw" him and he saw me and he is once again whole. This particular OBE enabled me to make contact with a person who did so much for me when he was here physically. This was one of the most compassionate and loving and kind and caring persons ANYBODY could possibly have had the honor of knowing here on this earth.........and to have experienced an OBE involving him for me was a high-point of my life! His family then and now I feel the same about because this is a part of why we are here in this "earth school" .
This was one of the main persons who showed me very clearly that "we are all connected" to one another. I remember that part in The Bible where Christ said, LOVE ONE ANOTHER. In this world, we all really do need one another to take care and protect each other. It does not matter about the races and religions. I am or attended a Methodist Church most of my young life. Wayne was Jewish. There would be Holy Days and ceremonies when Wayne would say to me as well as some of our other friends, "Everybody should come over to my family's house for dinner and celebrations of the holy day!" I said, "But Wayne, I am not Jewish??? Wayne, would not even take a breath to speak...... He simply continued and said, "So what? Marshall I know you love Kosher dishes and you will find it interesting what goes on!" I also remember very vividly one day while a group of friends and myself were in Brasil on holiday and I suddenly realized, Wayne was wearing a Crucifix around his neck....I laughed and said, WAYNE, WHY ARE YOU WEARING A CRUCIFIX??? He looked at me and did not even "bat an eye" and said, BECAUSE IT'S BEAUTIFUL AND IT SYMBOLIZES SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT IN CHRISTIANITY". This was my friend and I miss him here now..........BUT, I believe I know where he is and he is FINE! WE ARE ALL CONNECTED and with THE PROJECTION OF THE ASTRAL BODY, we can all get a clearer understanding of "What is going on here!
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
ABOUT AN ARTICLE I READ TODAY......
Hi, today I was blown away by an article I read on the internet about a Film Producer named, Tyler Perry. Wow! I could have written that open letter myself......I was very surprised. BUT, it seems that with all of my OBEs, I have become very much aware when information is being given to me that seems to explain my questions! Please check out the article on the internet and then you might come back to read my "new" take on what I "feel" has been channeled to me by some of the thoughts or voices that wish to advance my knowledge here on earth with pointing me in the right direction.
This is a very delicate subject to tackle, but I really believe this article opened my eyes to some thoughts........
Tyler Perry was a victim, just as myself of child abuse, both mentally and sexually... I have come this far and I have chose to keep on going...... Why? I ask the same question of Mr. Perry. Because it seems that his final reaction to it all is the same as it is with my own. Neither of us chose to drown ourselves in drugs or some substance that would keep us from moving forward. We just kept on going and did whatever we had the urgency to do........we seemed to attempt to "push" these horrible situations to the back of our minds, until one day.......We stood still and had an awakening at to "something was not right about something that happned to us as children!"
Now I will present you with my thoughts that have come to me, from unknown sources.
WAS WHAT HAPPENED TO MR. PERRY, ME AND PROBABLY SO MANY OTHERS ON THIS PLANET, A PART OF OUR "SACRED CONTRACTS" before coming here to the physical??? Today I ran this past my beloved friend, Musician/Actress, Olga. I said to her, "Did it ever occur to you.......and I have said this before on several occasions. That if we think about it.....and all of those that will go wild screeching out in horror with their definitive opinions, HOW COULD YOU THINK SUCH A THING??? I said to her, what about where it says in The Bible, that GOD said, MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS, MY WAYS ARE NOT YOUR WAYS!!!
She said, remembers me saying this on several occasions and she BELIEVES it's true!
Now to all of you beautiful people reading this Blog.....Think about it.........Are there some of us who CHOSE as a part of our "contracts" before coming here to include such horrendous acts being committed against us? Oh, we did not plan or choose that we would have millions of material things of value to contribute to our fellow human beings, maybe we chose to possibly a more difficult method of giving/contributing.....maybe we thought we would have the strength and power to survive displaying these lessons in our classes here on this planet. By the way, I do wish that I could have a meeting or talk with Tyler Perry to ask him, if during his lifetime he has been called by many, a SURVIVOR??? I laugh because, so many have called me this for so long and I am beginning to wonder at this point how much truth is in that in relationship to myself? (I never really thought of myself as one?)
More later..........
Love and Light!
Marshall
This is a very delicate subject to tackle, but I really believe this article opened my eyes to some thoughts........
Tyler Perry was a victim, just as myself of child abuse, both mentally and sexually... I have come this far and I have chose to keep on going...... Why? I ask the same question of Mr. Perry. Because it seems that his final reaction to it all is the same as it is with my own. Neither of us chose to drown ourselves in drugs or some substance that would keep us from moving forward. We just kept on going and did whatever we had the urgency to do........we seemed to attempt to "push" these horrible situations to the back of our minds, until one day.......We stood still and had an awakening at to "something was not right about something that happned to us as children!"
Now I will present you with my thoughts that have come to me, from unknown sources.
WAS WHAT HAPPENED TO MR. PERRY, ME AND PROBABLY SO MANY OTHERS ON THIS PLANET, A PART OF OUR "SACRED CONTRACTS" before coming here to the physical??? Today I ran this past my beloved friend, Musician/Actress, Olga. I said to her, "Did it ever occur to you.......and I have said this before on several occasions. That if we think about it.....and all of those that will go wild screeching out in horror with their definitive opinions, HOW COULD YOU THINK SUCH A THING??? I said to her, what about where it says in The Bible, that GOD said, MY THOUGHTS ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS, MY WAYS ARE NOT YOUR WAYS!!!
She said, remembers me saying this on several occasions and she BELIEVES it's true!
Now to all of you beautiful people reading this Blog.....Think about it.........Are there some of us who CHOSE as a part of our "contracts" before coming here to include such horrendous acts being committed against us? Oh, we did not plan or choose that we would have millions of material things of value to contribute to our fellow human beings, maybe we chose to possibly a more difficult method of giving/contributing.....maybe we thought we would have the strength and power to survive displaying these lessons in our classes here on this planet. By the way, I do wish that I could have a meeting or talk with Tyler Perry to ask him, if during his lifetime he has been called by many, a SURVIVOR??? I laugh because, so many have called me this for so long and I am beginning to wonder at this point how much truth is in that in relationship to myself? (I never really thought of myself as one?)
More later..........
Love and Light!
Marshall
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