DID I HAVE MUCH "FEAR?"

HELL YES!!! Aahahahahhah! I said earlier that "fear" can hold us back from OBEs, and any other achievements also. BUT, I also told you that The Universe is perfect and does not make mistakes! I bring this to your attention now due to the fact that during my tremendous times of grief and wanting Anderson to "come to me", I would sometimes get very disturbed by the fact that I was beginning to believe that when people die, they just die and that is it. And if there were a God, this entity was being very cruel to me. With much time and practice and learning and accomplishing various things in Metaphysics, I found out what was going on.
One day, sitting in a chair, and contemplating my many OBEs, etc. it was almost as if a very special voice entered my mind. These were the thoughts I suddenly had... I said,
"Marshall, let's be really realistic now. After such a very short time of you starting to grieve over Anderson's passing, what would you have done if while you were sitting here in this chair relaxing, and he walked through that open door over there in front of you and smiled and said, "Hi"??? I knew exactly at that point in time what I would have done. I would have jumped up out of that chair and yelled as loud as possible in total shock and horror!!! He was suppose to be dead. Totally dead. How on earth could he be walking into that room to greet me? Aahahahahhha:) Yup, I would have been totally unprepared by what I had experienced and adapted to then and now. It would have been a completely unacceptable incident. I WOULD HAVE BEEN UNPREPARED.
But now, I am able to handle such things. I would also like to take this opportunity to explain something else to you. None of my experiences have been anything like one would view in a horror/science fiction movie. Everything that has ever happened to me during my experiences have been as clear as day (even clearer) and as natural to me as every day life. I would like to add that things can be seen "all around" your body without seeming to turn your head in any particular direction. I am nearsighted and sometimes put on glasses to see thing in the distance. During one of my OBEs I remember that I was looking at something that seemed far away and it suddenly occurred to me that I was not wearing my glasses. I starting laughing internally so loud at myself. I thought to myself, "I should see like this inside my body!"
At this point, I want to tell you something else I discovered. One cannot read clearly during an OBE? I even asked some of my people that have OBEs and they confirmed it. I found that you can see, street signs, letters, books, etc. But when you attempt to read them, the words immediately become "jumbled". It is very frustrating. Sometimes I will find myself in a city or town and would attempt to read the street sign. Immediately, all the letters would become jumbled and spell out very ridiculous words? Once I thought I was being very smart. I tried to check out a license plate on the cars.........Nope. Jumbled. Another time I saw a teen aged girl standing on the sidewalk and spoke to her, "Excuse me. What is the name of this town?" She looked at me like I was crazy and answered my question. I could not understand a word she said........STRANGE?
Once I suddenly found myself out of body and was standing in what appeared to be a living room with a grand piano. On top of the piano was an ashtray with a cigarette butt still burning. "Someone" was standing to the side of me, slightly behind my back. I could not see this person, but I seemed to know it was a male figure and my height. I quickly thought a question, but before I could release it from my mouth, this entity answered me, NO, BUT YOU ARE! (The question I had in my mind was, ARE YOU DEAD?) And then I asked the question, WHAT IS YOUR NAME? He replied, MAYNARD. (To this day, I am trying to figure out who this person was?) My last question before returning to my body was, HOW LONG HAVE I KNOWN YOU? His quick reply was, 3 YEARS.
Okay, so far after much frustrations, I could only come up with the possibility that this maybe, just maybe, could be a "Guardian" or something for me. At that time, 3 years had been the exact amount of time Anderson had left. Also, this is just speculation, I remember very definite that grand piano. Some say, we "travel" or "stay" pretty much within our "groups". I say this because, I am also a Musician and it was my first love and I have been around huge black grand pianos many times during my lifetime.
Before I close today, I would like to tell you about another OBE. I will tell you Part 1 today and follow up on another Blog its amazing outcome.
One Saturday morning, I woke up and did not have to rush to work and decided to do my meditations. Afterwards, I was resting calmly and felt an OBE coming on. My body became paralyzed, I could not move. I could feel the electricity in my limbs. My breathing became labored and I could hear my heartbeat loud and clear. I welcomed the whole experience with excitement. I slowly rose up above my physical body still in a reclining position. I was moved slowly to the foot of the bed and then "turned upwards and downwards" to a standing position of the floor. (*Note= I have discovered and also with confirmations by others, you cannot just come out of the body yourself at first. The initial departure is ALWAYS controlled. I am not sure, "how?" Something or someone is in control to bring you out of the body. After you are out completely, you seem to be "allowed" to be responsible for yourself, unless you "request" assistance. At which times, assistance is within less than seconds it seems. I have requested assistance on occasion, BUT, I have thus far been unable to ever "see" who these entities are? I have been able to figure out "how many" are assisting me and I believe their sex and size of the entity. But I just have not been able to "see" them? But I just "know" they are there and sometimes they even communicate with me in thoughts, because they respond to my requests and questions. By the way, if you want to "know something" they almost always, "show you in pictures or you are there in the scene of what you ask!) As soon as I hit the floor, my "astral eyes" opened. But things were very unclear. I remembered to demand, "clarity" which I did and immediately, my room was clearer than in physical reality! I thought quickly, "What shall I do?" Then I thought, "Oh, I know, I will venture outside of the apartment". I lived in a garden apartment at the time, main floor, so it was easy to go outside. BUT, I had to take this opportunity to stop being timid about, instead of attempting to open the front door, to just walk right through it. (Remember we are no longer on the same frequency out of body as the physical). I did it and I was excited. I went right through the front door without opening it. I moved to the street. It was early morning and at first I saw no people on the street. I moved further out. I crossed the street to the other side. Coming down the street now were a few people. Some were walking their dogs. I stood on the middle of the sidewalk. They all seemed to walk right through me and not even see me standing there.....BUT, now catch this.........THEIR DOGS SAW ME, AHAHAHAHHAHAH! They tried to lick me and poke at me. I just stood there observing. Suddenly I turned to my left. (My block was a tree-lined brownstoned block in Brooklyn Heights) On one of the brownstones front steps sat a little girl. SHE COULD SEE ME! She looked directly at me and she was crying and shaking. I moved closer to her and I spoke to her (Remember that we do not actually speak physically during our OBEs......its THOUGHT TRANSFERENCE'S) I said, "Stop crying. Do not be afraid. Everything is alright". She stopped crying immediately and totally disappeared from the steps? (I personally believe that this little girl was having a spontaneous, unconscious OBE during her sleep and was very much "alive!" somewhere in my neighborhood.
I found myself alone again standing there on the sidewalk. I thought to myself, "What shall I do now? I had better hurry up or I will be pulled back to my physical body!" For the first time ever having my OBEs, I decided that I wanted to go see Anderson. I did exactly what one is suppose to do when one has the desire of something. I demanded with energy. I called out his name loud and clear. Suddenly, I seemed to be ejected upwards off of the sidewalk towards the sky. The speed of flight was astounding to me! Within seconds it seems I felt such sadness and grief. And, within seconds of feeling these emotions, I seemed to crash back into my body in my bed.
During my research I learned something later. Also during my experiences. YOU CANNOT BRING UP "DOWN" EMOTIONAL THOUGHTS OR YOU WILL CRASH RIGHT BACK INTO YOUR PHYSICAL. It helped me to understand why so many times, and also I got this confirmed by those I associated with who did OBEs. During OBEs you always seems to be laughing and having this crazy unmovable grin on your face. Everything seems to be so light and up! Happy. But the moment you get sad or depressed your astral body seems to become so heavy and is pulled back to the physical. I also learned that "They" those who have crossed over, cannot get to you when this happens. I was informed that "They" need to lower their frequency in order to "come down" to us. We are on a very low frequency and when we become sad, depressed or cry, it becomes extremely difficult for "Them" to get close to us.
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall