Calling Ruby the most vain person I had ever known in my entire life is not an over-statement! In spite of it, I loved her very much. To her, the make-up, hair, clothes, exercise machines, etc. could be compared to the need for drinking water in order to sustain life.
She could also be a very, very spiteful and hateful woman when you crossed her or even when she "imagined" you might have done something negative towards her as a person. During our long and close relationship, I fell out of grace with her many times. This was all due to the fact that I had either said something that she did not like or she had imagined it?
With time, we always came back together as if nothing had happened. One of the things she found objectionable was my studies and Strong beliefs in the paranormal and how I studied The Holy Bible differently than she did... (For a long time, I would join she and my Uncle Bob on Sundays and attend their church). She was literally outraged with some of my beliefs and impressions about human life. When she became very angry and we were about to not communicate with each other for some time, she would depart by calling me THE DEVIL IN DISGUISE! (I was never really upset with her nasty words towards me. I just found them rather child-like and silly and remained silent until we came back together again).
Many times in spite of her disapproval, she would listen very closely to my ideas and beliefs in spiritual matters. She would even admit to finding my thoughts fascinating sometimes.
Once she called me on the phone very anxious to tell me something that had happened to her one day during her travels. She told me that she had gotten off of a subway train and began walking on the platform when she suddenly realize that someone was walking beside her... I asked who? She blurted out to me, MYSELF! IT WAS ME. A DUPLICATE OF ME WALKING RIGHT NEXT TO ME! AND AS QUICKLY AS IT OCCURRED, IT VANISHED?
As long as I had known her that was the only time she had ever mentioned to me anything of that nature to me. She never again mentioned anything similar for the rest of her life to me.It seems that Ruby had Breast Cancer early in her life and it was treated and she became cancer free for most of her life.
During the final couple of years of her life, she once again had a tremendous falling out with me and did not speak to me for some time. During that period of time, I was having many OBES. One morning I floated in front of her apartment house and glided to the main entrance. Coming out of the doors was Ruby. She was dressed in black. She was very distraught and appeared very confused. She was being comforted and guided out of the building by my deceased grandmother, her Mother who had crossed-over many years before. My Grandmother, had a very bright white glow around her and looked beautiful and had the most wonderful smile on her face as she noticed my appearance. She did not speak, she was silent. Ruby seemed surprised to see me and called out my name. I returned immediately to my body. I sat on my bed for a long time confused and wondering what was happening?
Then another morning sometime later, I had another OBE and found myself at the house I lived in when I was a young teenager. I was very, very upset, because I found my entire family there and was not pleased about having been at this event. I saw my sister, Mini-Mom, and accused her of tricking me into being present at this event. I ran to the pantry to hide and be alone until I could escape and leave the house without being noticed. When my big chance came I ran to the front door and was about to open it to leave when suddenly, out of nowhere appeared, Ruby! My whole attitude changed. I was mesmerized by her sudden appearance. I was suddenly very, very happy. She had that huge crystal clear smile on her face and she was wearing a beautiful dress and she had a "yellow and white glow" around her whole body. She greeted me with much excitement and I suddenly found myself back in my physical body. Again, this time, confused and wondering what this was all about?
Months later, Ruby finally made contact with me on the phone and we began speaking on a regular basis again. But this time things were different. She told me she had cancer and she was not doing well with it. But she had her good days and her bad days. I told her nothing about my OBES.
My sister informed me of the seriousness of her condition. I felt very sad and tried to continue to communicate with her via the phone. Before I ever got to see her in person she had another one of her "Diva moments" and we did not speak for awhile again during her illness. I decided at that point, in spite of her illness, there was absolutely no hope dealing with her... I just could not bear the thought of these incidents starting to happen again between us. So......I decided to stay clear.
Eventually, she began to call me on the phone again. I always let the answering machine pick-up. She left many messages. She even spoke to a friend or two of mine that she knew and ask them to relay a message, that I should call her.......
Her last call before giving up calling me I believe was asking me to call her because she wanted very much for me to tell her all of the thoughts and things I once told her about my paranormal spiritual beliefs. That phone call message stuck in my mind, but I could not bring myself to return her call because I feared being tricked once again by her to start over again where we left off with our relationship.Soon my sister told me that she was alright but mostly at home and going to the doctors. During this time, I asked my sister to do me a favor and keep a promise for me. I would send money to her every week and she would send it to Ruby, since she was having a difficult time at this point financially. Ruby was never to know that it was from me. Reluctantly, my sister agreed. So, I faithfully sent the money every week to my sister who would send it to Ruby. My sister refused to say it was from herself, so I agreed and permitted her to send it to Ruby from an anonymous person. Ruby I believe never found out it was from me.
Eventually, she was admitted into a Hospice near her home, at which time I went to see her for the first time. I was devastated by her appearance and at first was not able to enter her room until the nurses helped me to stop crying. (It must be realized that Ruby was a woman at this time the age of 94 who had very easily appeared physically that of a woman about 60. And a good-looking 60 at that!) She was very happy to see me, but during my visit, she became the "little monster bitch" I had remembered. She wanted me to go immediately to her apartment and get her make-up. Specifically eye-liner. She wanted all of her wigs....she had hundreds! I tried to calm her and offered to help her to eat her lunch because she was so weak. She literally yelled at me and said, I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO SEE YOU FEEDING ME!
When her nurse came into the room to do various chores, Ruby was totally nasty to her and would not even speak or look at her at all. So I chatted with the nurse. Later I asked Ruby the question as to why she was so hateful to the nurse. She angrily told me as she pointed at a picture on the wall of herself in rehearsal on the Broadway stage many years ago. She said, THEY ARE ALL JEALOUS OF ME! AND IF YOU DO NOT SHUT UP AND BE QUIET ABOUT THAT, YOU CAN JUST LEAVE RIGHT NOW!
I laughed to myself inside my head and was very quiet and remained there for another hour or so before I decided to leave. Just before I left, she asked me, WHEN WILL YOU BE COMING BACK TO SEE ME? I said, very soon. She died 3 days later.I always thought that I would see her during an OBE because, in spite of everything, we were always so close? Once I did have an OBE when I found myself floating around a very elaborate estate and not "seeing" her, but for some reason, "feeling" her presence. I just seemed to sense that she lived in this place? It was a very brief experience. As of today.....I still have not "seen" her?
Ruby Hill
More later,
Love and Light!
Marshall
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