KARL

I was 21 years old and I lived in an apartment in a townhouse once owned by J.P. MORGAN.  It was very unusual with a huge fireplace and many stain glass windows.  It was directly across the street from Central Park.  It was my first apartment in Manhattan.  I also had acquired my first job in the big city.  The whole experience was both exciting and very, very lonely. 
With time at my new job I met a few nice friends.  The one I wish to speak of here is, KARL.  In the small group of people I became a part of, he was the most unusual person I had ever met, up to that point in my life.  He was over 6 feet tall.  He had piercing eyes that looked "into" you, not "at" you.  To me he physically appeared like all of the typical pictures that hung in churches of THE CHRIST.  (With time, I came to believe that Christ did not look anything like those pictures in churches. )
Anyway, Karl had experimented with just about every imaginable drug of the time.  He primarily smoked weed all the time and was always "high".  He was the first person to ever tell me that the world was "messed up" and that most people in the world were lowly evolved spiritually.  Of course I had no idea what he was talking about and did not really care..... BUT, Karl was a beautiful human being.  He never raised his voice and he never would lift a finger to harm anything or anybody.  I do not remember ever seeing him get angry.  He was so quiet and calm at all times.  AND.....he did not give the impression that he took drugs at all?  Our small group of friends to my knowledge and memory, did not take any kinds of drugs.  WE JUST DRANK WHISKEY! AAHahahahah!!! 
Karl and I shared a lot of time together and in spite of the fact that I did not really comprehend the many thoughts and ideas he had about humankind, I still enjoyed our times together.  (When I went away for a long period of time Karl sublet my apartment until I returned).
The first time I ever tried MARIJUANA was with Karl.  Its' result on me was that of laughing my ass off for hours!  It was so much fun.  Me repeatedly questioning Karl as to whether or not I was "high" or not was a riot.  He would smile and say, YES, MARSHALL, YOU ARE VERY STONED!  He would explain in detail how the Marijuana affected various individuals.  It was all very exciting and very interesting.
One day at work, I asked Karl about the drug, LSD.  He said we would talk about that at lunch.  We did.  He had taken it on several occasions.  I told him that I had heard very bad things about it.  I even knew of a few friends outside of our circle that had committed suicide while on this LSD.
He quickly comforted me in telling me that these people should never have been permitted to take the drug in the first place.  He told me that these particular persons had been unstable individuals to begin with and this had not been a good move on either their part or those involved.
Months passed and I continued to bring up the subject of LSD (also referred to as ACID).  Karl looked at me with that "Christ-Like" stare one time and said, MARSHALL, WOULD YOU LIKE TO EXPERIMENT WITH ACID?  I almost jumped out of my skin and replied, OH NO!!!  The subject was dropped.
Sometime later, I brought up the subject again with Karl while we were hanging out in Greenwich Village with several Artists and Musicians.  Karl once again said to me, MARSHALL WOULD YOU LIKE TO EXPERIMENT WITH ACID?  I practically yelled out, OH NO.  I WAS JUST ASKING!  He calmly smiled at me and changed the subject.  I would also like to mention that Karl was what one would consider a, PACIFIST.  I was so totally blind in those days.  I had no idea that he was just like all of those people I would see either on television or on in the newspapers that would "turn the other cheek" when struck or "sit-in" during protest for peace.  He was just KARL, my quiet, calm and compassionate friend.
I do remember some things about how he made me feel as a person when I was around him from time to time.  He always made me feel that no matter what I did or said about anything or anybody was alright.  He always made me feel comfortable when we were quiet and did not speak any words during our times together.  He seemed to laugh at my jokes even when they were bad.  When I was sad or angry, he would attempt to help me to find clarity in my feelings. 
Sitting here writing about KARL brings back so many memories that I had forgotten in my past.  (Remembering KARL has suddenly brought back the memory of someone that was so much like him in my life......KENNETH! (A great musician)  Wow!  "K"  two "Ks")  Until this day, I have NEVER known anybody like these two?)
For the moment, I am relaying to you my time shared with Karl.  He was my friend and guide at that time in my life.  I am suddenly remembering a person who actually showed me in physical reality what is called, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!
In my next blog, I will tell you all about THE TRIP!  (That is what it is called, when one takes LSD(ACID).  
More later,

Love and Light!
Marshall

CONSCIOUSNESS BEYOND LIFE!

Since I have read and studied hundreds of books on OBES and NDES, I am always excited when something new is released that I have not read.  In my past blogs I have suggested books that I have found excellent for anyone interested in the subjects.
Therefore, I would like to take this opportunity to recommend the newest book that I am in the process of reading now, and thus far I am very excited about its' contents, since I am always very selective about when choosing what to read.
I would like to highly suggest, CONSCIOUSNESS BEYOND LIFE, The Science of the Near-Death Experience.  It is written by, PIM VAN LOMMEL, M.D.  This is a book written by Dr. Van Lommel, a renowned cardiologist from The Netherlands.  The doctor was so inspired by the stories his patients told of their NDES that he became the first medical practitioner to risk his reputation with a full, systematic clinical trial into the phenomenon.  He has been Internationally acclaimed for his research on the subject.
To quote one of the many praises for his book:
THE WASHINGTON POST:  "The evidence supports the validity of "near-death" experiences and suggests that scientists should rethink theories on one of the ultimate medical mysteries:  the nature of human consciousness."

More later,

Love and Light!
Marshall

PART 2 THE DOWNSIDE OF TALKING TO THE DEAD

It seems now, "Long ago and far away" (Aahahahahah=) I was 17 and about to get my first job performing on The Broadway Stage, in a play written by Kittie Frings, whose husband was the manager of Elizabeth Taylor and what a thrill this was for me since I got to meet them all.  I still remember how shy I was about meeting Elizabeth Taylor and trying to hide behind other cast members to be un-noticed by her, specifically greeting each and every one personally.  BUT....since I was always small for my age, and appeared even smaller on stage, I was not able to hide.  She called out loud and clear, IS THAT "LITTLE MARSHALL OVER THERE BEHIND YOU???" Aahahahahahhaahah=) 
I remember being very anxious and concentrating at my acting workshop sessions with my Mentor/Instructor who was very, very strict!
One evening during class, we were to do scenes for a small "Invited Audience".  It was exciting and lots of energy was created by all the students, as well as myself, being one.  I was both happy to know that I had gotten the part in a Broadway play as well as knowing that not only a couple of my relatives would attend, but also my dear friend Richard Castellanos, who was eventually to be one of the stars of the film, THE GODFATHER.  Richard was a tremendous influence on me because he was not only a great artist, but a great human being.  (He has since "crossed-over")
Richard at that particular moment was already appearing in a Broadway play with Jon Voight.  Jon was about to make his big film with Dustin Hoffman, THE MIDNIGHT COWBOY.  Shortly in the future Jon Voight would become the father of, Angelina Jolie, who became another major motion picture star.
On completion of our performances that night at the workshop.  I was thrilled to get incredible compliments from ALL who attended.  BUT, the next evening at class, my Instructor looked me in the eye and said.....NICE, BUT YOU CONTINUE TO "HOLD BACK" WITH YOUR SKILLS AND EXECUTION WHEN PRESENTING YOUR CHARACTERIZATION ON STAGE.   Yikes!  Once again, I was outraged by his critique on my performance.  He had told me this on previous occasions and I always swelled up with anger inside because I just could not accept or understand why he felt that way about me?  I knew without a doubt that he was very, very impressed with my performances in class, BUT, he always seemed to be indifferent when it came to speaking with me and giving me criticisms about my work.  I knew this in the past because others had told me that he thought I was excellent and he would give me high scores on my ratings, BUT, when he spoke to me privately, it seemed he would ALWAYS, say the same thing:  YOU ARE HOLDING BACK!   And boy, did I always have EXCUSES and reasons for what he said, not being the truth.  And he always, gently and calmly, REPEATED HIMSELF TO ME!  He would never, ever buy any of my excuses or explanations.
I always respected him and never became arrogant or resentful towards him......for some strange reason, I ALWAYS CAME BACK FOR MORE!
I have learned with time and the opening of my awareness and finding out so much more about myself and how how spirits needs to grow, that this man was one of the persons in my life, that when I look back on parts of my journey, I presently feel the greatest and most loving respect for being a person in my life, THAT CARED ABOUT ME AND WANTED TO HAVE ME BE THE "BEST!"  I was DEAD to what was being given to me at that time, BUT, I know very well that there was a part of my spirit that would always come back for more from him and that there was a much greater reason for doing so than I could comprehend at the time.
I  have "seen" so clearly during some of my OBES when my astral eyes have opened wide, what I could not "see" before in my physical travels.  But I am thankful, because I am able to see and know what I was missing during my lessons in this dimension.  They always say, IT'S NEVER TOO LATE!  Well, good because I am now able to "see" and "know" what these beautiful persons  were attempting to present to me, for me to learn and I ALWAYS TAKE TIME IN MY CONTINUING PHYSICAL LIFE TO SEND "LOVE" TO THESE BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL BEINGS, who took their time and never gave up on me to encourage me to find it within myself to open up and be spiritually alive, rather than DEAD!

More later,
Love and Light!

Marshall 

THE DOWNSIDE OF TALKING TO THE DEAD

I mentioned sometime ago about having an OBE and sensing but not "seeing" the person that was with me.  If you recall, I was about to say to the person, ARE YOU DEAD? and before the words or the thoughts could jump from my mind, the unseen entity replied, NO.  BUT YOU ARE!  With time I believe I have come to a understanding or clarity of what lesson was being presented to me.
I have sense not only witnessed this situation with MYSELF, with some of those around me whom, from observation have made it very clear to me that, THEY WERE TOTALLY DEAD AND HAD FORGOTTEN TO GO TO THE CEMETERY!
Please permit me to explain my coming to this conclusion about what was said to me.  I had been having quite a few OBES and had so much information being given to me, but had unknowingly or unwillingly, been able to accept and comprehend what lessons were being given to me about my physical journey.  I suppose we all have various reason, but I believe mine was a form of DENIAL.
At the time, I had not been able to comprehend that no matter how much I wanted to know or learn about myself and my faults or blocks that prevented me from advancing, I was unable to accept and see that I needed to look very closely at myself and myself ALONE and not to always blame others for my shortcomings.  Always, it seemed, I had blamed someone or something for reasons for my emotional aches and pains in life.  It was always the fault of those around me which caused me to be held back in advancing my soul development/journey. 
I learned that no matter how much I wanted to find fault with others, that they too had their difficult problems to overcome during their stay on this Earth plane of existence.  I soon began to see not only myself, but those around me who would always blame other for their aches and pains.
I began to "see" that no matter how good or bad in my eyes a person was either to me or themselves, that they too were struggling to become whole.
All of us are searching and wanting so much to be loved and comforted.  We can become so selfish when we strike out and blame others for not being exactly the way we want them to be for us.  This can be very difficult to comprehend, because we have to "feel" and understand their pain when addressing these situations.  ALL HUMANS HAVE A RIGHT TO TRAVEL ON THIS PLANE AS THEY CHOOSE TOO.  No one has the right to push them to be the way we want them to be for US.  To share or honor that which we do.  They are individual souls.  They have rights and choices and those things must be respected.  If we do not respect them, we are nothing but CONTROL FREAKS!  Attempting to make other do and act and operate how we determine or decide which is right for both them and ourselves. 
I began to "see" many of my close people practice very destructive habits when it came to dealing with others.  Either friends or families.  By the way, FAMILIES have choices.  Just because they chose to enter into your circle when coming here to be a part of your group or family, does not mean that THEY NEGATED THEIR RIGHTS TO BE FREE SPIRITS! 
I have seen and been in the company of many who are defiant when it comes to family affairs.  They are so dead to opening their spiritual eyes, that they are totally controlling about attempting to make those around them, whether they be family or friends, do or think exactly as they do.  They will not in any way attempt to open their eyes and minds to opposing thoughts.  They will create whenever they have to in order to make things the way they want or believe they should be in their eyes.  
THESE PEOPLE ARE ALREADY DEAD!  THEY ARE SPIRITUALLY DEAD!  They are stubborn and some will never, never change in physical existence.  These are those that will repeat this existence over and over again until they get it right!  This is why it is so important for ALL of us to attempt to open our hearts and our minds and try to "see" things with our spiritual eyes in order to bring about "change" if headed in the wrong direction, in order to move forward.  
BUT, look around and also you might want to do as I did, LOOK IN THE MIRROR and really interrogate the person you see and say, (As I have and still do on occasion, DID I DIE AND FORGET TO GO TO THE CEMETERY? AHAHAahahahhahah=)
Guess what?  I would like to share this with whomever wishes to partake:  It's not easy!  We have to really, really, look hard and really LET GO of our egos and control of outside forces.  We must send LOVE and a whole lot of compassion to our souls.  We have to go INWARDS and gently massage our own Spirits/Souls and LET GO of the outside world and those around us.  We must really try to understand...... No matter what WE believe or what WE want, there are a whole lot of human souls surrounding us that might want something quite different OR just as we are doing.....ATTEMPTING TO FIND THEIR WAY during this most difficult journey called, PHYSICAL LIFE ON THIS DIMENSION OR PLANE NAMED, "EARTH!"
More later,

Love and Light!
Marshall

OBES AND JUST A FEW RANDOM THOUGHTS

At this time I would just like to take a brief moment to present to you some thoughts that have been on my mind for a short while now.
Recently, I got an email from someone asking me the question, HOW DO I KNOW WHEN I AM HAVING MYSTICAL EXPERIENCES OR GETTING ANYWHERE WITH MY SEARCH?
Guess what?  We who are interested in this subject will ALWAYS stop and question ourselves from time to time about whether or not the experiences we are having are real or productive!
I asked that question long ago and was very comforted by the answer, WHEN YOU START TO ASK SO MANY QUESTIONS, YOU SHOULD BE CONFIDENT THAT YOU ARE MOVING FORWARD IN THE CORRECT DIRECTION!
It made so much sense to me because all around me there were so many individuals that NEVER questioned anything, only showed "skepticism, fear or shallow thoughts".  Why?  Because most are attached very tightly to physical and material beliefs and desires.  They cannot comprehend there being anything more to life than what they can touch, smell, feel or SEE with physical resources.
There will always be those who tell you that they CAN "see" or experience these things and as you develop your abilities you will be able to "know" THE TRUTH.  (It has been said, ALWAYS TRUST YOUR FIRST GUT FEELINGS!  Do not attempt to alter or design them to fit your after thoughts.  By doing this, we will mold them into THE WAY WE "WANT" THEM TO BE, ACCORDING TO OUR DESIRES TO "CONTROL" THAT WHICH WE FEEL WILL SIT WELL WITHIN OUR CONFORT ZONE!  Loose that way of thinking, we only fool ourselves and take our spirits into deeper realms of confusion and misconceptions).
So many believe so strongly, that this is it.  This is everything and never even want to give a thought to the possibility, that this is only a small, minuscule part of the whole picture of who we are and where we are going!
They do not and usually, never, see in physical reality the great and endless Universe that we are in and will continue to evolve in through eons of time!
As a young person, I feared more than anything to ask or seek what was beyond the physical.  Just as many others did.......... I FELT IT WAS SAFER TO NEVER THINK OR MENTION ANYTHING BEYOND THE PHYSICAL WORLD I LIVED IN......
In the more recent years of my life I have admired and honored the young people who questioned so much about this physical life.  When a younger person informs me of their interest in Metaphysics, I am in awe of them....... Why?  BECAUSE I WISH SO MUCH THAT I HAD BEEN SO INQUISITIVE ABOUT THIS SAME SUBJECT YEARS AGO IN THE PAST.  I always feel as if I would have been so much further ahead at this point in my life.  BUT.....always a "voice" whispers in my ears, MARSHALL, EVERYTHING HAS IT'S CORRECT TIME.  BE STILL, YOU ARE FINE=)
In closing my thoughts to you here, I REPEAT the most powerful words I remember from the words in the Bible when God says, MY THOUGHTS ARE "NOT" YOUR THOUGHTS AND MY WAYS ARE "NOT" YOUR WAYS!
I will write more later.......

Love and Light!
Marshall

RUBY (PART 2)

Calling Ruby the most vain person I had ever known in my entire life is not an over-statement!  In spite of it, I loved her very much.  To her, the make-up, hair, clothes, exercise machines, etc. could be compared to the need for drinking water in order to sustain life.

She could also be a very, very spiteful and hateful woman when you crossed her or even when she "imagined" you might have done something negative towards her as a person.  During our long and close relationship, I fell out of grace with her many times.  This was all due to the fact that I had either said something that she did not like or she had imagined it?

With time, we always came back together as if nothing had happened.  One of the things she found objectionable was my studies and Strong beliefs in the paranormal and how I studied The Holy Bible differently than she did... (For a long time, I would join she and my Uncle Bob on Sundays and attend their church).  She was literally outraged with some of my beliefs and impressions about human life.  When she became very angry and we were about to not communicate with each other for some time, she would depart by calling me THE DEVIL IN DISGUISE!  (I was never really upset with her nasty words towards me.  I just found them rather child-like and silly and remained silent until we came back together again).

Many times in spite of her disapproval, she would listen very closely to my ideas and beliefs in spiritual matters.  She would even admit to finding my thoughts fascinating sometimes.

Once she called me on the phone very anxious to tell me something that had happened to her one day during her travels.  She told me that she had gotten off of a subway train and began walking on the platform when she suddenly realize that someone was walking beside her... I asked who?  She blurted out to me, MYSELF!  IT WAS ME.  A DUPLICATE OF ME WALKING RIGHT NEXT TO ME!  AND AS QUICKLY AS IT OCCURRED, IT VANISHED?

As long as I had known her that was the only time she had ever mentioned to me anything of that nature to me.  She never again mentioned anything similar for the rest of her life to me.
It seems that Ruby had Breast Cancer early in her life and it was treated and she became cancer free for most of her life.

During the final couple of  years of her life, she once again had a tremendous falling out with me and did not speak to me for some time.  During that period of time, I was having many OBES.  One morning I floated in front of her apartment house and glided to the main entrance.  Coming out of the doors was Ruby.  She was dressed in black.  She was very distraught and appeared very confused.  She was being comforted and guided out of the building by my deceased grandmother, her Mother who had crossed-over many years before.  My Grandmother, had a very bright white glow around her and  looked beautiful and had the most wonderful smile on her face as she noticed my appearance.  She did not speak, she was silent.  Ruby seemed surprised to see me and called out my name.  I returned immediately to my body.  I sat on my bed for a long time confused and wondering what was happening?

Then another morning sometime later, I had another OBE and found myself at the house I lived in when I was a young teenager.  I was very, very upset, because I found my entire family there and was not pleased about having been at this event.  I saw my sister, Mini-Mom, and accused her of tricking me into being present at this event.  I ran to the pantry to hide and be alone until I could escape and leave the house without being noticed.  When my big chance came I ran to the front door and was about to open it to leave when suddenly, out of nowhere appeared, Ruby!  My whole attitude changed.  I was mesmerized by her sudden appearance.  I was suddenly very, very happy.  She had that huge crystal clear smile on her face and she was wearing a beautiful dress and she had a "yellow and white glow" around her whole body.  She greeted me with much excitement  and I suddenly found myself back in my physical body.  Again, this time, confused and wondering what this was all about?

Months later, Ruby finally made contact with me on the phone and we began speaking on a regular basis again.  But this time things were different.  She told me she had cancer and she was not doing well with it.  But she had her good days and her bad days.  I told her nothing about my OBES.

My sister informed me of the seriousness of her condition.  I felt very sad and tried to continue to communicate with her via the phone.  Before I ever got to see her in person she had another one of her "Diva moments" and we did not speak for awhile again during her illness. 
I decided at that point, in spite of her illness, there was absolutely no hope dealing with her...  I just could not bear the thought of these incidents starting to happen again between us.  So......I decided to stay clear.

Eventually, she began to call me on the phone again.  I always let the answering machine pick-up.  She left many messages.  She even spoke to a friend or two of mine that she knew and ask them to relay a message, that I should call her.......

Her last call before giving up calling me I believe was asking me to call her because she wanted very much for me to tell her all of the thoughts and things I once told her about my paranormal spiritual beliefs.  That phone call message stuck in my mind, but I could not bring myself to return her call because I feared being tricked once again by her to start over again where we left off with our relationship.

Soon my sister told me that she was alright but mostly at home and going to the doctors.  During this time, I asked my sister to do me a favor and keep a promise for me.  I would send money to her every week and she would send it to Ruby, since she was having a difficult time at this point financially.  Ruby was never to know that it was from me.  Reluctantly, my sister agreed.  So, I faithfully sent the money every week to my sister who would send it to Ruby.  My sister refused to say it was from herself, so I agreed and permitted her to send it to Ruby from an anonymous person.  Ruby I believe never found out it was from me.

Eventually, she was admitted into a Hospice near her home, at which time I went to see her for the first time.  I was devastated by her appearance and at first was not able to enter her room until the nurses helped me to stop crying.  (It must be realized that Ruby was a woman at this time  the age of 94 who had very easily appeared physically that of a woman about 60.  And a good-looking 60 at that!)  She was very happy to see me, but during my visit, she became the "little monster bitch" I had remembered.  She wanted me to go immediately to her apartment and get her make-up.  Specifically eye-liner.  She wanted all of her wigs....she had hundreds!  I tried to calm her and offered to help her to eat her lunch because she was so weak.  She literally yelled at me and said, I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO SEE YOU FEEDING ME!

When her nurse came into the room to do various chores, Ruby was totally nasty to her and would not even speak or look at her at all.  So I chatted with the nurse.  Later I asked Ruby the question as to why she was so hateful to the nurse.  She angrily told me as she pointed at a picture on the wall of herself in rehearsal on the Broadway stage many years ago. She said, THEY ARE ALL JEALOUS OF ME!  AND IF YOU DO NOT SHUT UP AND BE QUIET ABOUT THAT, YOU CAN JUST LEAVE RIGHT NOW!

I laughed to myself inside my head and was very quiet and remained there for another hour or so before I decided to leave.  Just before I left, she asked me, WHEN WILL YOU BE COMING BACK TO SEE ME?  I said, very soon.  She died 3 days later.

I always thought that I would see her during an OBE because, in spite of everything, we were always so close?  Once I did have an OBE when I found myself floating around a very elaborate estate and not "seeing" her, but for some reason, "feeling" her presence.  I just seemed to sense that she lived in this place?  It was a very brief experience.  As of today.....I still have not "seen" her?

Ruby Hill

More later,

Love and Light!

Marshall

   

RUBY

Ruby crossed over about 2 years ago now.  She was a very big musical star starting in the late 40's.  She was 94 years old when she left.  She always looked amazing for her age... I mean "really" amazing!  She was also a true DIVA!  What a bitch she could be, ahahahahhaah!  She was also my Aunt, my Father's only living sister since his other sister had died of tuberculosis at a very young age.  (She supposedly was more of an intellectual and was about to begin teaching at a University).  I do not remember her, but they say I took my first steps as a baby to her open arms.
Ruby started out as a radio personality singing with big bands.  From there she traveled with a big band and arrived in New York City from Virginia.  She was a stunningly beautiful young woman and soon became the comparison to a famous star named, LENA HORNE. 
I remember walking with my Mother is various department stores and continuously asking the question, every time I saw an ad displayed for a product especially for women, IS THAT RUBY?  Sometimes my Mother would say, NO, THAT IS LENA HORNE.  I was always thrilled when she replied, OH YES, THAT ONE IS RUBY!  In a very short time, Ruby soon was chosen over hundreds of other women to take a part in a new Broadway musical that Lena Horne had turned down.  Appearing in this musical play, ST. LOUIS WOMAN, she became an overnight sensation.  It was produced by the motion picture company, MGM, so therefore her next step was on to Hollywood to be considered for various motion pictures.... none of which she actually ended up getting due to various technical reasons etc.  She seemed unbothered by it, due to the fact that she was most interested in continuing to appear in major nightclubs throughout the world.  During that era, Nightclubs were not only in Las Vegas, but in New York City and all over the world.
Ruby was a very funny woman to me as I grew extremely close to her and wanted to know everything about her career and travels.  She was totally a riot when it came to her personality.  Only I in our family could really relate to her well and understand and love her life!  (Most of my family was not really nice to her in that they just did not understand her ways).
She was so funny.  She would have meetings with Bud Abbott and Lou Costello the famous comedians and actors and not know who they were, Aahahahhahaha!  I remember her telling me about meeting Judy Garland and finding her to be a strange person.  She told me about her encounters with Frank Sanatra and Tony Bennett and refer to them as very "naughty men".  She was sooooo innocent and sheltered in spite of the fact that she was so difficult and impossible.  Many opportunities presented to her were lost due to the fact that the many producers' sexual advances towards her were never tolerated. (I would laugh for hours when she described to me in graphic detail their sexual overtures!)  She married my Uncle Bob as a teenager and he was considered the the only man in her life, for his entire life and hers.... He died shortly before she did.
As I grew up I became incredibly close to her.... we talked for hours daily.  Either on the phone or in person.  She had an amazing figure and never went out of the house without tons of make-up and over-the-top clothes.
As an adult I remember telling a friend from England who was a motion picture costume designer about her and he demanded to meet her in person.  I arranged it and myself and he and several other friends met she and my Uncle Bob at a club one evening for drinks.  (Oh, by the way, Ruby did not smoke, drink or use profanity and was very, very, overly, RELIGIOUS!)  Anyway, we were all at a table talking when suddenly Ruby asked my friend from England, how did he "see" her as a personality and some advice on dressing etc.  
I immediately wanted to crawl under the table as he very clearly blurted out to her face to face, I SEE YOU AS A COMPLETE SLUT!!!  THE VISION OF A PERFECT PROSTITUTE!!! 
I could not believe Ruby's reaction to his comments.  She seemed to be as a child who had just been told she was going to be given an ice cream cone!  She just kept replying, YES, YES, YES, I LOVE IT!  THAT IS WONDERFUL FOR ME! YES, YES, YES!
Ruby was such an amazing woman without really knowing it.  Her personality seemed to just jump out at people and they would be in awe of her.......I remember just about every friend, especially males, going crazy over being in her presence.  I remember various producers and celebrities that she would introduce me to that would appear mesmerize by her personality.
Sometimes I would think that young people would act very unimpressed by her, but I was always wrong.  Young people were just fascinated by her and I really did see men of all ages, make over her as if she were a Goddess!  Some men would act like they had just seen a ghost when they met her and walked passed.  To this day, I still laughed to myself when I think about her and my past together.  I always had the strangest feelings about her existence..... I always would question to myself, is Ruby supernatural or something?  She often said to me that she wanted to live in the physical forever!  And what was really strange to me is that I seemed to start to wonder to myself sometimes, CAN RUBY REALLY DIE LIKE ALL HUMANS?  I was beginning to believe more and more that she had some secret about life that I just could not put my finger on???
Next I will relay how I "saw" her crossing over during an OBE. 

More later,
Love and Light!

Marshall